I miss you, I miss you. I miss آپ so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in love with you. My memories keep looking for آپ but find that you're not here with me anymore.

[i]I miss you, I miss you. I miss آپ so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in love with you. My memories keep looking for آپ but find that you're not here with me anymore.[/i[

The اگلے day, after eating breakfast, آپ and Randy go to the ساحل سمندر, بیچ together. It's kinda empty cuz it's early in the morning. آپ and Randy just wore regular clothes to the beach...

Chapter 12: Take My Breath Away

Landon walked around the park and he remembered times that his mom and him walked around here.

Landon knew one دن he'll walk around the park with Britney.

Landon walked back to the hospital.

Jamie was holding Britney.

Cynthia was in the room too with a cup of coffee.

Landon kissed his mom's cheek and then he kissed Jamie.

"Where did آپ go?" asked Jamie

"I took a walk," کہا Landon

"So did آپ call your boss?" asked Cynthia

"Three days off" کہا Landon

"Good" کہا Jamie

"I can't wait to spend time with my little girl" کہا Landon

Landon was holding Britney.

At 3:54...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," کہا Jamie

"I know he is," کہا Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes آپ talk to him kay" کہا Jamie

"Kay" کہا Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair اگلے to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let آپ go. I drive myself crazy, wanting آپ the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him مزید as days pass by. It's been a ماہ since آپ and Randy haven't کہا a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. آپ can feel it and آپ can see it. Whenever آپ look in the mirror, آپ see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at باسکٹ, باسکٹ بال lately. Your coach notices and he talks with آپ about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can آپ do Jamie? آپ need to rest. آپ can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I love playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One دن Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" کہا Camilla

"Hello Camilla آپ look nice today" کہا Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," کہا Camilla

"Thank you" کہا Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ there was Hegbert making سوپ for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a ٹٹو tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the اگلے with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a کتیا, کتيا today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: Love and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" کہا Hegbert

"Hey dad" کہا Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a دوستوں house," کہا Jamie

"Can't wait to see آپ guys there," کہا Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," کہا Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" کہا Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees آپ go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The تصاویر of آپ crying your دل out, shouting that آپ wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce آپ husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's دوستوں were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor کہا it was ok. He sees آپ sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits اگلے to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for آپ سے طرف کی breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair اگلے to your bed. آپ look around and آپ realize your in a hospital. آپ can't remember anything that happened to آپ before except the dizziness آپ felt back at Randy's house. آپ smile...

I love you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that آپ are my one and only last love.

The whole day, آپ and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. آپ guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and آپ hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's آپ again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your بستر and gets under your covers. آپ follow right after and آپ kiss him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and آپ guys all go back to school...

Shawn: ارے Taylor. آپ think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. آپ should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: آپ should let go of Jamie. I mean آپ haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know آپ like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my love really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this love to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives آپ a dirty look. آپ get a bad feeling and she pushes آپ and says:

Lauren: Are آپ a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First آپ like him, then آپ break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are آپ trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. آپ کہا آپ were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, آپ wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. آپ twitch and آپ quickly yet gently اقدام Randy's hands off your waist. آپ leave the سوفی, لٹانا and آپ run to the bathroom and آپ head to the toilet. آپ just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, آپ look and آپ see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your بستر and آپ plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. آپ look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give آپ what آپ deserve.

Brad is about to مککا, عجیب الخلقت Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: ارے ارے hey!! What the hell is wrong with آپ Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE آپ try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though آپ might never be سے طرف کی my side again, I will never forget you. آپ won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come سے طرف کی me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt سے طرف کی آپ again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? آپ always cared for them مزید than آپ did for me یا for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least آپ could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and آپ sit in the back نشست of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like آپ Jamie. Not just as a friend but مزید than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, آپ just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want آپ to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want آپ to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want آپ to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. آپ hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't آپ understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, یا can it be me in the اگلے life time? Even if آپ promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway اگلے to Shawn's car and آپ see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees آپ and Randy and آپ get out of the car with Randy. آپ quickly get Angie and آپ walk اگلے to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to آپ and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole ماہ passed سے طرف کی and آپ and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. آپ and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and آپ spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, یا hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do آپ wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days آپ going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so آپ won't be bored....