I have to get this all out...
I feel like a worthless human being right now. I have a friend, a best friend, actually, who trusted me with a huge secret of hers. She told me this secret months ago. At first, I believed her, and told nobody. Then, I started thinking "How could this have happened to her? This doesn't add up!" and I stopped believing her. I told two people this secret that she trusted me with. Two.
I started believing her again about two weeks ago. I was listening to The دکھائیں Must Go On, and it just occurred to me that she really wasn't lying, who would lie about something like this?
Tonight, I was at her house. She started having a breakdown about it. Then, she told me that she knew I (and the other people she told) didn't believe her. She couldn't believe that her best دوستوں didn't believe her about something that big. She would have believed me, even if I told her the most ridiculous story. She would. I don't deserve a friend like her.
I can't stop crying right now. I feel like a worthless thing who doesn't even deserve to be called human. This is honestly the worst I've ever felt in my life. I never had guilt eating away at me like this before.
The thing that hurt me most was that she trusted me. And she کہا that she doesn't know when she'll trust me again. I feel disgusting. I feel worthless. My two other دوستوں feel this way too.
My friend کہا she was mad at me, and doesn't forgive me yet, but she still loves me. I don't see how she can stand to even look at me anymore.
And I don't know how I'll ever look her in the eye again.
I feel like a worthless human being right now. I have a friend, a best friend, actually, who trusted me with a huge secret of hers. She told me this secret months ago. At first, I believed her, and told nobody. Then, I started thinking "How could this have happened to her? This doesn't add up!" and I stopped believing her. I told two people this secret that she trusted me with. Two.
I started believing her again about two weeks ago. I was listening to The دکھائیں Must Go On, and it just occurred to me that she really wasn't lying, who would lie about something like this?
Tonight, I was at her house. She started having a breakdown about it. Then, she told me that she knew I (and the other people she told) didn't believe her. She couldn't believe that her best دوستوں didn't believe her about something that big. She would have believed me, even if I told her the most ridiculous story. She would. I don't deserve a friend like her.
I can't stop crying right now. I feel like a worthless thing who doesn't even deserve to be called human. This is honestly the worst I've ever felt in my life. I never had guilt eating away at me like this before.
The thing that hurt me most was that she trusted me. And she کہا that she doesn't know when she'll trust me again. I feel disgusting. I feel worthless. My two other دوستوں feel this way too.
My friend کہا she was mad at me, and doesn't forgive me yet, but she still loves me. I don't see how she can stand to even look at me anymore.
And I don't know how I'll ever look her in the eye again.
The whole conversationd wouldn't fit on one screenshot so here it is;
Stranger: asl
Stranger: ?
You: Oh! There آپ are! I've been looking for آپ forever!
Stranger: oh really?
You: I'll never say goodbye to you!
You: I'm crazy about you!
You: I love you!
Stranger: is that good یا bad?
Stranger: well are آپ a guy یا a girl?
You: Kurt, don't آپ love me?
Stranger: nope guess not
You: But Kurt it's me Blaine!
Stranger: that sucks dont it
You: :'(
Stranger: stop your bitchin
You: Kurt. It's me, Blaine! Your boyfriend.
Stranger: ha fuckin faggot
Stranger: i hate fags
Stranger: they are as bad as niggers and soicks
Stranger: spicks
You: I'M IN A RAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEE. THIS IS THE MADDEST I'VE EVER BEEN!
Stranger: asl
Stranger: ?
You: Oh! There آپ are! I've been looking for آپ forever!
Stranger: oh really?
You: I'll never say goodbye to you!
You: I'm crazy about you!
You: I love you!
Stranger: is that good یا bad?
Stranger: well are آپ a guy یا a girl?
You: Kurt, don't آپ love me?
Stranger: nope guess not
You: But Kurt it's me Blaine!
Stranger: that sucks dont it
You: :'(
Stranger: stop your bitchin
You: Kurt. It's me, Blaine! Your boyfriend.
Stranger: ha fuckin faggot
Stranger: i hate fags
Stranger: they are as bad as niggers and soicks
Stranger: spicks
You: I'M IN A RAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEE. THIS IS THE MADDEST I'VE EVER BEEN!