Edward left me. Edward left me. I couldn’t cope with it how could he leave me? He loved me didn’t he? I was subbing so hard that I couldn’t breath I was picturing his hard emotionless face when he told me he never loved me یا wanted me every time I thought about him I subbed harder, my hole body was shaking, it was raining and my hole body was wet I was freezing but I didn’t care I rather die than live without him.im crazy the guy left me and I don’t want to live without him!
My body was freezing and my head was about to explode when I heard someone calling my name
-Bella, Bella, Bella…..
I didn’t recognize the voice but I got up to go to the voice my legs gave out they hurt pretty bad I tried to answer but my voice didn’t came out the voice got closer
I saw a tall man running toward me he looked me in the eye
-are آپ alright?
I wanted to laugh at what he کہا “yeah my bf left me and I'm great” I kept it to myself cause he would think I'm crazy I just shook my head .he helped me to get up but it was like I didn’t have control of my feet it was disconnected! So he picked me up and put me on his shoulders I wanted to object but I still couldn’t talk all I could think of was Edward and every moment we had together so I broke into subs again
-its ok Bella don’t think about him its ok
How did he know? Was he spying on me? Is he…………………………………
-I found her but she doesn’t stop crying
-oh Bella honey is آپ ok? Let’s take آپ ہوم ok?
I still couldn’t talk Charlie took me home; dr. snow checked me and کہا I had a cold so I went upstairs to change.
10 days later
I was so depressed I wouldn’t talk to anyone I, wouldn’t eat I couldn’t even sleep! I wasn’t who I was before, I was a different person I tried to pretend in front of Charlie that I'm ok but I think I failed . Every دن after school I went سے طرف کی the Cullen's house to check if their back, but nothing. in school everyone tried to be nice to me and invite me over but I just ignored them, I lost 13 kg in 10 days ,under my eyes were black and Charlie doesn't talk to me he thinks it only make things worse dr. snow visited me twice and wants me to see a shrink! And if I visit a shrink they would probably chain me up if I tell them the truth: “did آپ know my bf is a vampire and his vampire brother attacked me cause I got a paper cut and he wanted to drink my blood so my bf left me because 1. He thinks he's dangerous 2.the most imp reason he doesn't love me”
Charlie tried to protect me from dr. snow and told him that I’ll snap out of it in a few days at least Charlie was hoping, he didn’t give up on me.
2 days passed and I was still crying I felt my other half was missing یا my دل isn’t beating.
I woke up and got ready for school when I heard Renee’s voice I went to see what's going on
-oh Bella honey are آپ ok look at you! Your so skinny…………….. She broke into subs I hugged her to calm her down then Charlie came with a bag in his hands
-Bella your going back with your mother آپ can’t be here anymore your not آپ anymore I don’t want to be the one………………
I cut him off
-I don’t want to go! Dad why are آپ doing this to me?
I screamed at him then I grabbed the bag out of his hand and threw my clothes every where then I went in my room and started crying why does Charlie wants me to leave? Thousand سوالات ran into my mind then I heard a knock on my door Charlie opened the door and came in
-Bella آپ know I don’t want آپ to leave آپ know he's not coming back he's not calling he's not sending letters Bella he's not coming back آپ have to accept that!
-well I cant!!
- Bella you’re moping around your lifeless is he worth this?
Moping around that stung .
-I want to get ready for school.
I کہا and closed the door in his face I got ready and went to school in school no one talked to me not that I mind I liked it یا at least Angela asked how I feel and stuff ….
Today school was boring like always and in biology I would just stare at Edwards’s empty نشست and imagined what would it be like if he was still here سیکنڈ passed like hours when school ended I drove to la push. I parked my car and walked on the ساحل سمندر, بیچ when I got to the cliff I went and stood on the edge of the cliff trying to imagine what would it be like when I jump I was standing there fore 30 min یا مزید when someone touched my shoulder I turned around to see who it was
-Bella? What are آپ doing here?
-hi jake I was just watching the sunset .
And imagining how would it be like if I jumped
-How are آپ Charlie is worried about آپ , Billy is bugging me to come and see آپ and I just thought آپ need some space to figure this out
-figure what out.
I asked suspicious
-um_um آپ know edward I mean I know he left آپ but it’s not worth it Bella look at آپ ,your not that happy fun person that I knew, your lifeless
-why does everyone tells me that, there is nothing wrong with me and I'm fun and happy. My voice broke at the last word
-Bella wake up he is not here your destroying yourself . he whispered
I crossed my hands trying to hold my self then I glanced at the cliff again maybe I should wait when he's gone then I’ll jump and rest in peace he followed my gaze and frowned
-what where آپ doing at the edge of the cliff?
he asked still frowning oh god he's on to me then he's going to stick around here and, I cant rest in peace
-nothing, j-just watching the sunset and feeling the cool breeze on my face like I said!
- ok , um if آپ ever needed to talk to anyone آپ know I will always be there fore you, don’t you?
-yeah thanks jake
he hugged me it was kind of weird and he's skin was hot like he had a fever
-are آپ alright? I thing آپ have a fever ,your skin is so hot
-um yeah yeah sure I should go bye
That was weird what's wrong with him?! I stood there for a few مزید منٹ and then I went back to my car.
When I went ہوم Renée was still here talking with Charlie I ignored them and went up stairs to do my ہوم work
When my ہوم work was done I took a شاور to relax myself and then dressed in my pj
-Bella honey I made رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا come eat with us
- I'm not hungry mom!
then she came up stairs and came in my room
-Bella آپ didn’t even had lunch! Please come eat!
Then she came and hugged me and kissed my forehead, then grabbed my hand and took me downstairs .
-hey bells how was your day?
-the usual and um I saw Jacob black
-that's good ,he's a sweet kid
-mmmm something smells good! Renée cooked پاستا for you, your پسندیدہ !
Charlie کہا smiling hoping I would eat something tonight
-great but I'm not hungry
-Bella why…um why…. Never mind
He sighed I knew what he wanted to ask Bella why are آپ doing this to your self?
I watched Renée and Charlie eat and then went to my room my life was empty it didn’t even mattered if I died .I brushed my teeth and went to bed
I was in the forest running and I kept falling down trying to chase edward no matter how fast I ran I kept losing him then it started raining I was all wet but I didn’t give up cause I knew if I didn’t chase him my life would be useless I kept running and finally I caught him I went to talk to him but then Jacob came and grabbed me سے طرف کی my wrist and dragged me away from him no matter how hard I hit him he just kept running and saying some nonsense about edward and his family being dangerous. I woke up crying it was 3:00 AM I wanted to sleep but I couldn’t 3 hours passed I got up and got ready to go to school I was really hungry so I had پینکیکس and decided to walk to school. while I was walking I thought about edward I really didn’t want to think about him cause it hurt too much but I couldn’t help it I didn’t had anything else to think about , I was trying to imagine what he was doing right now he could be hunting ,be with another vampire perhaps Tanya Alice told me how much she loved edward that made me very angry and jealous I stopped walking and leaned on a درخت I couldn’t walk anymore cause I couldn’t breath it was like I had no longs whenever I think about them this happens its like I'm being ripped in two pieces when I heard someone behind me some part of me wished it was edward when I turned around I frowned it was Jacob I hate him so much I think its because of the dreams I was having he always tried to take me away from edward
Jacob کہا with a grin I didn’t like him but some part of me did, god what's wrong with me I wish I didn’t have that some part its making me crazy!!!
I کہا coldly trying to avoid that some part
-are آپ ok? Your white
-yeah I'm great just walking to school
-I thought your school starts at 8:00 AM
-yeah I didn’t feel like driving so I wanted to walk slowly
After chit chatting with jake I started walking again when I got to school the parking lot was full, so I hurried to class.
At lunch break I sat with Angela and Jessica they were talking about this sale at port angels .Angela asked me if I wanted to go with them but Jessica wasn’t happy with that Idea and I really wasn’t in the mood to hang out with them so I کہا no.
After school I went to la push again and sat on the edge of the cliff thinking about my life about edward, Charlie ,Renée , jake ,myself………………………… my head was spinning I stood up but my feet slid of the edge and I was falling I screamed then a hot hand caught me and turned me around it was jake.
-oh god um ,um thank آپ
I کہا panting
-I thought I was really going to die !! I never thought jumping from here is that scary I………………
-have آپ been planning to jump of this cliff?
Jake asked what have I told him I recalled are conversation ,ooooh I think I told him too much
-no , no why should I ever do that ??? I mean I'm not crazy!
And he might come back some دن I added in my mind
He کہا suspicious
-I, um I should go now , bye
And I ran to the سٹریٹ, گلی and walked back to ہوم when I got ہوم I went and took a شاور and cooked fried مچھلی fore Charlie and called him at work to see what took him so long
-hi dad where are you
-hey Bella, there was an animal attack and some hikers are missing were trying to find out some clues I will be ہوم in one گھنٹہ okay?
- sure be careful
-always am bye
Then I hung up the phone and went to my room I was thinking about today when an idea popped in my mind it wasn’t a very good idea but still it might work I took my phone out of my pocket and called edward I was hoping he would answer when a musical voice کہا
This wasn’t edward یا any of his family members it was a female’s voice
-could I talk to edward?
-sure, edward honey phone!!
Did she call him honey then she laughed and there was a kissing sound WHAT????? Edward was kissing another vampire???
Edward کہا I couldn’t take it so I throw my phone at the دیوار and it broke in two pieces I was so shocked I was here sitting not able to اقدام on crying all دن and there he was sleeping around with female vampires I was so furious that I didn’t know what to do?
When the phone down stairs rang I thought it was Charlie but then a musical voice کہا
-Bella Bella can آپ hear me? Sor…………
I screamed at the phone and throw on the ground I was subbing so hard that my legs gave out and I fell on the ground then the phone rang again didn’t that stupid thing broke I answered the phone still subbing but it wasn’t edward
I کہا still subbing
-hey bells its Jacob………..
I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to jake I screamed again subbing harder I was hanging up the phone when jake کہا
-Bella r آپ okay?
He asked worried
I screamed and hung the phone I got up and throw everything on the ground I broke every glass dish the میز, جدول and lots of other stuff that the house looked like a جنک, فضول yard then I fell on my knees and started crying that I couldn’t breath all I could think about was how much I hated edward then the door flew open and jake and his friend Sam came in they were both shocked when they saw what I did to the house
-Bella are آپ okay what happened did آپ do this????????????
-get out !!!!!!
I shouted and punched the floor with my two hands and I kept saying get out , get out
- Bella please stop we want to help!
Sam کہا worried that I lost my mind I wasn’t thinking I just opened my کیڑے, کیڑا and started shouting
-you want to HELP huh how can آپ help me??? No one can help me!!!!!
Tears raced down my cheek
-is it about edward یا the Cullen’s? Bella we know what they are just tell us! please
They both asked I wasn’t thinking and opened my big mouth again
-yes it is why do آپ care?
I کہا and then added in a whisper
-I want to be alone and die
Jake came closer and helped me to get up then Sam came in and started to push the broken dishes out of my way I stood up not meeting his eyes and looked at the mess I made ,and I was sure that someday I will get my revenge from edward
-Bella do want us to take آپ to a hospital??or do آپ want to talk about this ?
Then Sam spoke
- Bella we can help آپ with anything and as jake کہا ,we know about the Cullen's ,what they are.
I looked at him and said
-if someday آپ saw the Cullen's tell them how much I hate them
Jake and Sam looked at me confused And I stormed out of the house not caring where I
Was going I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 یا 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He کہا with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do آپ care don’t آپ want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years یا مزید I'm really not a پرستار counting years……….
I cut him off
-so آپ don’t want to kill me?
-so what do آپ want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change آپ and سے طرف کی some miracle آپ know what I am , how do آپ know did آپ know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I کہا my voice full of anger and hatred
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do آپ hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are آپ sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's مزید important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but آپ didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
-I am, so answer my سوال !
-you know آپ should be scared of me but here آپ stand arguing with me!!!
He کہا stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from آپ if I wanted to , now answer my سوال why were آپ sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like آپ 100 years پہلے I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one دن I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every دن then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and کہا she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one دن a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, شیری , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what آپ mean
-Bella would آپ stay with me forever we could be together آپ know you’re the first person I told آپ this
-me too آپ just know my story
I کہا and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous
-will آپ ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward that I hate now, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should I.
I کہا a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank آپ I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He کہا pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at فہرست I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know آپ can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He کہا frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(Edwards’s pov )
Me and my family were staying with the Denali’s Tanya as always was flirting with me well that helped a little to get distracted from Bella just a little bit everyone picked a room and got settled everyone but me they were a room short so Tanya suggested I could stay in here room until they built another room 2 weeks passed but she always made an excuse not to make that extra room so we decided not to
Still weeks passed and became months and Tanya never gave up! She was trying to make me forget Bella and be with her Rosalie bugged me like always thinking about the benefits being with a vampire like Tanya and how after years Bella will اقدام on and marries someone that she could be with, Alice and jasper went to London for their 23 honey moon .
One دن I was thinking maybe Rosalie was and is right I should forget Bella and اقدام on I talked with Carlisle and he thought it would be better not to intrude in bellas life again so one دن I walked up to Tanya and told her I have made my mind she was so happy jumping around singing and……………..
This was the first time I kissed a vampire it wasn’t as good as it was with Bella how she kissed me and didn’t want to let go I didn’t either but I was scared I would hurt her and if I ever hurt her I will never forgive myself I just needed to forget her and not go back to her so she could have a normal life and have a family.
Alice hated me for this she thought I’ve cheated on Bella so she wasn’t as nice as she was with me and Tanya in the past.
One دن when I was playing chess with Emmett Tanya called me from our room
-edward, honey phone!
Who can it be? !maybe Alice یا rose calling from their shopping
I ran to are room Tanya laughed at my face I was worried and surprised my emotions were mixed then she handed me the phone and I kissed her on the lips
I asked seriously
Then someone screamed and threw the phone on the ground. was that Bella??
I called her ہوم maybe she would answer Bella answered the phone subbing
-Bella, Bella can آپ hear me?sor…………………………..
Then she screamed again and threw the phone on the ground I was so worried what have I done to her??
Tanya came to comfort me
Then Alice came in the room shouting at me
-I told آپ ,you idiot !!how could آپ do this?? huh huh ?????? what happened to your love for Bella?? huh??
What happened to my love to Bella? I left her so she could be happy! Did she have any idea how much it hurts to think of her being with someone else in the future? How much it hurts to think I will never see her again?
-Do آپ know what this phone call is going to do to her??? there she sits crying all day! And here آپ are being all lovy- dovy with Tanya!!!??
Everyone came to see what is going on jasper trying to comfort her
-what's going to happen to her??
Esme asked worried for Bella. Alice looked at me disgust ,and turned around to esme
-I don’t know! She's changing her mind every second! One سیکنڈ she wants to jump of that damn cliff and the other………..
She trailed of
-and know she's trashing out the kitchen! breaking everything!
She showed me her vision Bella subbing and breaking everything like, like I couldn’t describe it she was broken how could I?!
Alice grabbed jasper and left the room
-where are آپ going?
Emmett asked Alice
-since no one here cares about Bella I'm going to help her! if she's still alive !!
-I’ll come with you, آپ comin rose?
Emmett turned around to face rose she really wasn’t happy to go anywhere near Bella but she didn’t want to be without him here
-ok ,for you
-were coming to
esme said, taking Carlisle hand now she even hates me I'm a real monster now!
Carlisle looked at me are آپ coming son? آپ know its your choice.
I just nodded then Irena and Carmen came in and asked jasper what happened I didn’t want to listen to the rest so I ran outside and stopped beside Alice she turned her back on me trying to see bellas future but she couldn’t see anything and that made her مزید frustrated
-Alice, I didn’t want this to happen I thought if I live her she could have a normal life, get married have kids, ……………………..
I sighed I hated myself the only thing I wanted now was that Carlisle shouldn’t have bothered to change me I don’t deserve this life I wish I was dead and Bella would have a normal life maybe dating mike یا Eric I have ruined her life
-lets go Alice called everyone apparently she made an reservation
We drove in silence everyone thinking about Bella and what will happen to her
We got to the airport and got are tickets on the plane I heard jasper trying to reason with Alice
-Alice آپ don’t know how much pain edward is in its making me miserable! He did the right thing they weren’t meant to be he couldn’t just change her……………..
-but she was his soul mate they were meant to be I saw her like us they were both happy…..
She remembered her vision thinking what a jack پچھواڑے, گدا I am from ruining her life my life and every thing this pain was worse than the venom changing me driving me crazy jasper tried to calm me but he couldn’t, I even broke my seat!
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood دوستوں Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could آپ do this to her!
-and before she disappears to god knows where she told me to tell آپ something
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she کہا well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and تلاش fore Bella Emmett, Rosalie went south esme, Carlisle went north Alice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.
The pain was was to much, I couldn’t understand what was happening , my neck was burning , the burning took over my body it changed منٹ سے طرف کی minuet it grew it rose I wanted to scream this pain out but that probable isn’t a good option ppl will think I'm weak! I clenched my teeth together wishing I never existed suddenly the burning changed! it left my neck! I was relived that the pain had lessen but a new pain started in my chest my دل was was ripping its way out of my chest the sound of my دل filled my ears it was getting on my nerves the sound continued for hours یا days ,maybe years? Then finally my دل stopped! I felt stronger better then I heard light footsteps coming towards me
I opened my eyes every thing was bright I could hear the high way………….
I stood up and looked at him he was so hot! And beautiful!
-are آپ ok? Do آپ need anything?
I shook my head and walked closer to him I saw every line of his face he had a scar on his neck when I saw it I gasped!
-got that when I wanted to protect Suzy
-does it hurt?
-it did! but know I I don’t even feel it
He کہا and looked at me
-do آپ feel thirsty?
-so why are آپ acting weird?
-it just…to much to take in…………………..you know???
-yes at first your confused. I was to
he کہا comforting patting my arm wow! now he didn’t felt cold ,he felt kind of warm
-do آپ think I have a power?
I asked him wishing I had one
-I don’t know I discovered my power years after I was created
-what's your power?
-um I can teleport
Wow teleport that's so cool
-like آپ could teleport every where?
-yes like I teleported us here from forks
-where are we?
I asked curios
-wow I’ve never been to London before!
We talked for an گھنٹہ about every thing! It was weird that I could think so fast!
Then he asked
-Bella آپ should be thirsty آپ know? Its not normal! Every new born I knew even me when they ere changed they were crazy………….thirsty …I even forgot آپ are a new born!
-is that wrong?
I asked offended
-yes! its not normal! Aren’t آپ thirsty?
Now that he mentioned it I could feel a burning in my thro…
-now that آپ mentioned it, it does but I could ignore it
-you can ignore it!! Wow ! آپ know I'm nearly 1500 years old and when I smell blood its hard to control my thirst but I could control it because I have practiced! Your just 2 hours old!
-maybe that's my power
He looked at me fore 6/4 سیکنڈ and said
-may be it is if آپ put it that way but آپ should hunt its important it gives آپ strength to live
-ok what are we hunting?
-because there yummy and mouth watering and don’t worry these humans are kind of dead…
-you drink dead human’s blood! ugh!
-no! no! they are not dead I just کہا that to comfort you
-so آپ lied to me!
Oooh I hate liars so much how can he do………………….
-I didn’t lie look I hunt old people and the ones that are going to die یا some hikers…..
-well that's better! so آپ don’t hunt animals?
-no! they taste awful!
-really they are that bad?
-you could taste it fore your self!
-so lets go and hunt!
-kay! but were are we going?
-To the forest there should be some hikers there and animals if آپ like!
I could run so fast we raced when we got to the jungle there was no sent of humans so I wanted to taste animal blood I followed a dears sent and caught it poor thing couldn’t run faster then I sank my teeth in its neck it was warm and good but it stinked! I just liked the warmth but it wasn’t pleasant matt was right!
-how was your dear?
-ugh!you were right it tasted awful I just liked the warmth.
Then he paused
-what do آپ smell?
I took in the air around Mmmmmmmmmm
I liked my lips suddenly I was so thirsty when he saw me like and that he said
-so go for it!
I followed my instincts and saw two hikers one of them looked 60 and the other looked younger maybe45 یا 50 I lunched for the older one and saw matt lunching for the younger one
When I sank my teeth in neck a frenzy beginned the blood was warm and DELICIOS! It just suited me well! When I was done I let go of him and faced matt he was already done and starring at me
-you were so fascinating!
-glad that I amused you
-so do آپ want مزید یا your done?
-so lets go!
-could آپ teleport us there?
I wanted to know how it was
-sure take my hand and close your eyes
I took he's hand and closed my eyes when I opened them we were at the cottage!
-yeah its pretty good
-yeah it is pretty cool not good!
2 weeks later
I was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا thinking about Charlie and now that I could control my thirst I could go and visit him.
I was still wearing the clothes of the night that matt changed me I needed to go and دکان I was thinking of a black sleeve less dress once I saw rosalie wearing I wanted it so bad then I saw matt coming in the room
-when did آپ go shoping?i wanted to come too!
I was confused I didn’t go shopping
-I didn’t go shoping
-really!? So how did آپ get that dress?
I asked confused again
-the black dress its behind you!
I turned around and saw the black dress I was thinking about how it got here?!
-that's funny I was just thinking about this dress I wanted to to go and get it!
-you were thinking about it and it just apeared?
-yeah I think so
-that's cool آپ have 3 gifts!!! Wow!
-yeah آپ could control your self ,um, no one can harm you,do آپ remmember the girl we saw in the jungel? She could taiser everyone! But somw how she couldn’t taiser you! That's your سیکنڈ gift and your third gift when آپ want something it apears out of no where!
-well if آپ put it that way,I have 3 gifts! Yay! But is that normal?
-none of this is normal Bella!
-I know! آپ know what I mean!
-yes I know, I have a friend he has 2 gifts he can shift into difrent animals and اقدام objects with his mind
-yeah I know but I havent seen him in 98 years after he found his mate they both disapeard! And I was alone again
He sighed and I hugged him
-you have me!
I کہا trying to cheer him up
-yes I have you
He کہا my cheering worked and he smiled at me then I remmemberd something
-I was woundering I want to visit my father do آپ want to come with me?
I asked pleading
-sure I will, but are آپ sure? I mean…………..
I cut him of
-I'm posetive I want to see him and say good bye
-why good bye?
-we don’t age my eyes are red my skin is white and cold, isnt that enough?
-your right, sorry
I کہا I loved his face when he کہا sorry he looked like an angel and his eyes glowed and he looked like one too so anyone would………………………..
-day dreaming again?
-yeah, I was thinking آپ look like an angel when your sorry!
-well isnt that sweet!
-so I'm going to dress up! And be ready to live,so get ready,k?
I grabbed my dress and went to the room I put it on and consentrated on a black converse then I opend my eyes and it was on the bed!omfg this is so cool I can have anything I want! I was so happy I was dancing around and clapping yay this is so so cool! I put on my shoes and remmembered I needed contacts so I wount freak charlie out! I closed my eyes and it was ther on the بستر I put them on and came out of the room matt was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا waiting for me
-wow آپ look amazing! Speacialy your eyes.
If I was human I would have blushed
I took his hand and closed my eyes when I opened them we were at the forest I ran to my house and found Charlie's cruser parked out side he was talking on the phone with Billy I waited out side but he didn’t hang up so I got tiered and held matts hand for support and rang the گھنٹی, بیل charlie still didn’t hang up the phone and came to answer the door………………………………..
I was so nerves how charlie was going to react, matt squeezed my hand to comfort me charlie opened the door and gasped he was stairing at me ,not beliving it was me
He wasn’t sure if it was really me and then I heard billys voice from the phone
-charlie charlie are آپ ok?
He didn’t respond and turned off the phone
-yeah dad its me
He staired at me again
-you look different!
-yeah two weeks does that to you.
I lied to him
-oh Bella! I missed آپ so much I was so worried that I wouldn’t see آپ again!
Then I took my hand out of matts and hugged him
-yeah its freezing out side
I lied again it was just cloudy
Then he looked at matt
-this is matt my friend
Matt کہا and shook Charlie's hand
Charlie کہا confused
-can we come in?
-sure sure kid!
We went in everything was repaired and cleaned!
-the boys from la push came and heleped me
We sat on the sofa and talked for 16 منٹ
Then I looked at charlie and said
-dad I cant stay I should go
-I'm staying with matt and his family in alaska
-Bella آپ cant just leave!!!
-dad I'm 18.
I کہا trying to reason with him
I cut him off
-charlie I came to say good bye………….
Then the door flew open and jake came in with sam and jared and seth
Then they all looked at me and matt confused
Jake and seth asked together
-yeah Bellas back!
Charlie کہا cheerfull like he didn’t hear a word I have said
-not for long!
I muttered under my breath annoyed but it was to low for charlie to hear bu jake and his دوستوں looked at me again and gasped
Jake asked not beliving it was me
I کہا then I stood up and dragged matt with me
-Bella please don’t go! I just got آپ back after 2 weeks!
He begged I didn’t want to leave him but it was for himself
-dad I cant stay here I will send آپ letters call you,maybe visit آپ again…
-bells don’t do this!
I looked him in the eye
-its for your best charlie,I should go
He looked at me like he got my messeg that I was dangerous
I went closer to him to hug him when sam said
I looked at him its not I want to suck his blood!
I was losing my temper
-nothing,just be careful
He کہا like he knew I could hurt charlie then I remmembered what jake and sam کہا the night I left Bella we know what they are,we could help! They knew they were a vamp and they knew I'm a vamp to! I froze in my place not breathing they all nothiced ecxept charlie
-dad I should reallu go,ok? I promise to call you,
I hugged charlie and کہا good bye and shook the la push boys away and dragged matt out of the house.
-what's wrong Bella?
-they know what we are
-I don’t know!
We ran to the jungel to teleport back to london then I smelled a dog!!
I turned a round and saw jake and sam looking at me god they smell bad!!
-Bella,what happened to you?
Jake asked in a pained voice
-nothing I'm just movung on with my life!
-Bella tell us the truth!please!
-I cant jake take care of charlie ok?and I wount bother to come back!
Matt took my hand and teleported us to the cottag
-it hurts….talking to my dad like this….,breaking his heart……………………
I broke into tearless sobes matt hugged me
-its ok,its ok…shhhhh
he kissed my forhead
-you could go and see him again………maybe stay with him fore a سال and tell him your going to colloge and come back here then آپ can send him letters and call him………..
-yeah your right but its hard
-it was hard for me too but آپ should let go after a while آپ know آپ cant be with them forever then they will know something is wrong your.. not againg your cold and……………..
-yeah your right I could have one مزید سال with my dad and آپ could اقدام in with us and come to school
-remmember آپ کہا آپ don’t want to be alone? So know آپ could be with me that way if I lost control someone is there fore me
I کہا beging him
-please please say yes!?
-ok! For you
I kissed his cheek
-but first we should golden are eyes up! It will take about 1 week!
I clapped my hands and went to call charlie I talked to him and told him I was coming to stay with him but matt was going to stay with us and come to school with me charlie accepted and told me he will register him at school and his so happy that I'm coming back home.
Matt and I hunted animals every دن so are eyes could turn gold
1 week later
-time to go!
I closed my eyes and took his hand when I opened my eyes we where at the forest we ran to my house with a empty suitcase that belonged to justin and I changed into a blue شرٹ, قمیض and skinny jeans
I rang the گھنٹی, بیل and heard Charlie's foot steps coming towards the door
-oh ارے bells I'm so happy you’re here ! its been like years come here kiddo
He hugged me and kissed both of my cheeks and forehead
Charlie کہا coldly
-call me charlie
Matt smiled at him charlie smiled back automaticly
-Oh um come on in
He opened the door and led us in He showed matts room and told us he's going to make رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا for us
-your dads cool
-yeah he is
-so آپ got your room and your going to school tommorow! Isnt that great!
-yeah! But its scary!, I mean what is it like?
-like آپ go to school,but آپ should hunt often and don’t touch humans یا run fast
-yeah it is,like I کہا easy
-lets go eat!
-what I don’t want to eat human food!
-just a bite یا two for my dad! Please?
-ok! But its not faire آپ always get what آپ want!
-well that's me! Now come on!
I dragged him down stairs,charlie was reading a news paper
-hey dad what's cooking?
What ever it was stinked! Ugh! I cant belive I'm going to eat it its like eating dirt!!
-pasta your fave!
Not my fave anymore
-gee dad! Thanks!
-I hope آپ like پاستا matt.
-very much sir.
He was a good liar.nice!
-so is everything ok?
-yeah why wouldn’t it be?
-well آپ went away for 3 weeks and stayed with him know his staying with us….
-um yeah hes an old friend after I got like that I called matt cause he lives in forks then when he told me he's parents had passed away I went to see him and they wanted to send him to an orphanage so I told him he can stay with us.
Charlie looked at me with consern
-that's so sweet of آپ Bella,and I'm sorry about your parents matt I know its hard and if آپ needed anything just tell me ok?
We had رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا that was not that delicious and claimed we should sleep charlie came and sneaked into my room to see I was there and not with matt then he went to his room.
I waited till charlie started snoring and went to matts room we talked and talked I told him about my دوستوں and the teachers………………………….
Till I heard charlie wake up and rushed in an inhuman speed to my room and faked for charlie that I was sleeping I got uop and washed my face and got dressed for school when I went down stairs charlie was gone mayy got ready to and I thineked about a black bmw but not that expensive and it apeared in the drive way
-do آپ like your new car?
I asked matt
-my family cant efford it its yours!
He gave me a hug suddenly I felt that that………. I really cared for him not like edward but like he can complete me make me happy I pulled away and looked him in the eyes and saw the same thing he moved closer and kissed mr this kiss wasn’t something I was used to edward always kissed me with worry and and…but when are lips met there was a feeling in me like butterflies I kissed him دکھانا him every emotion I had for him he hugged me tighter without breaking the kiss.
منٹ passed then I pulled away
-were gonno be late!
-ooohh I hate school!
I chuckled and kissed him again and hoped in the car with him we drove to school
When we got there everyone was stairing at us are car some were confused if I'm new یا I'm Bella ,matt opened the door for me and took my hand I was telling him where the office was when jessica intrupted me
-oh my god Bella is that you! Who is he? Could i……..
Then she looked at are hands and sighed
-hi jess,this is my friend matt
Matt nodded and smiled at her
-so are آپ ok? آپ were gone…………….
-I'm fine I went over matts his parents passed away I was with him آپ know comforting him…..so know his living with us
-oh ok! See آپ at class
I hated her so much and groaned Matt noticed and kissed my hand that was holding his I chuckled and took him to the office when we got in I smelled coffee and vanilla there was an young woman sitting on the chaire I didn’t recognize her she was new
-hi I'm Bella سوان, ہنس my dad registered matt I wanted to get his papers
-oh right matt…..hmmmmm there it is she handed me his papers
I کہا and handed them to matt his schadule was like mine! I was happy and grabbed him to class
It was like my first دن everyone was stairing at us oh god this is giong to be a long , long day!
After class ended everyone came and asked me where I was who is he………and I lied every time what I told the others it was pretty boring! Everyone wanted to touch us and hug me یا pat my shoulder…………
I herried away not wanting them to happen.
So at lunch time me and matt sat at the old Cullen's spot alone and not eating what was infront of us we sat there trying to avoied the sataring eyes and make a conversation
3 hours later
When school ended me and matt went hiking somewhere in the forest to talk we found a beautiful spot that had green trees and a lake passing سے طرف کی with lots of colorful flowers
We sat there talking about school and my old دوستوں the teachers how much he hated school and………………………..
After an گھنٹہ we started talking about ourselves
-so why did آپ kiss me?
I teased him
-I really really like آپ its like I'm hole with آپ in a strange way آپ make me happy your so so……….. I don’t even know how to describe آپ آپ brouth light to my dark life and I don’t want to let آپ go!
He کہا looking me in the eyes this things he just کہا were so beautiful and it was so strange, I was feeling the same!!
I took his hand and gragged him on سب, سب سے اوپر of me and started kissing him he grabbed me tight in his armes and kissed me back I was starting to pull his شرٹ, قمیض of when I saw something staring at us!
I pulled away and showen matt where I was looking it was a brown بھیڑیا staring at us I bet he was stairing the whole time we were there the بھیڑیا had intellegent eyes like human then it disapeared and jake came out of the same spot with his bare chest
-Bella what are آپ doing here? Didn’t آپ say آپ were living?
He کہا coldly
-you talk like this is your land! I was born here آپ cant say were I should go!
-I can Bella I don’t want to kill you!
I laughed kill me! Pfffff
-you cant kill us!
Matt کہا angry
-jake what do آپ want آپ don’t have powers…………and how did آپ know about the Cullen's and …us?
Then something flashed in my head jake telling me storys of the Cullen's and theire enemys that is his family werwolves that بھیڑیا we saw was jake! Ohhhhhhhhhhh I'm so slow
-you were the بھیڑیا werent you?
he کہا sadly
-jake what did you…………….
He cut me off
-Bella we had a truce with the Cullen's that they could stay here but out of our lands
-were not in your land!
-I know but if آپ hurt humans and drink theire blood its our job to kill آپ I'm sorry!
-jake are آپ blind we have سونا eyes not red!
What an idiot little DOG!
That's all jake said
-we wont hurt anyone ok? So know could آپ give us some privacy??
-sure but what about e………..
-jake go tell sam and your other بھیڑیا دوستوں WE COME IN PEACE! OK?
Then he disapeared in the bushes and there was a cuppel of بھیڑیا sounds but I didn’t care matt was looking at me confused so I told him everything then the sun came out and his skin sparkeled it was so beautiful I touched his skin and hunted for his lips eagerly he did the same when are lips met again I lost control, and kissed him with everything I had in me and he kissed me back the same and it just SUITED me well! We kissed each other for مزید than an گھنٹہ when I noticed it was getting late I really didn’t want to go but charlie was coming back from work and needed something to eat!
I pulled away not wanting to ,he froze
-I really don’t want to end this but charlie is going to be back and he will need something to eat
I whipered in his ear and kissed it I moved from his ear to his neck and then to his lips he kissed me back and then he grabbed me in his armes and ran to the car we drove ہوم and went inside
I told matt
-what should I wear!
-While آپ were busy with charlie I puted some clothes in your closet 20 یا maybe30
He کہا and then hugged me and kissed me once and went upstaires
I started cooking for charlie, chicken and green beans when I was done I hered Charlie's کروزر getting close I hurried upstaires and changed into something comfortabel and rushed downstaires and found matt watching t.vi went back to the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ when charlie came in
I hated when he کہا that! who else could it be!
-yeah its me!
-Mmmmmmmmm something smells good!
-yeah I cooked chiken for you!
He hugged me
-he's watching TV
Matt camed and کہا hi then charlie aet his food me and matt told charlie we aet outside then we went upstaires to fake a sleep for charlie!