Another season, man. At least we got a break during season four because of those newguys. Though now I have to deal with them... ehh who cares. I wa walking wih Gwen. We happened to not be on the same team. She was able to talk with Trent and Leshawna. I had Geoff but he only kissed Bridgette. There was the dweeb Harold to mess with I was going to be ok! Though I had to deal with... with Courtney!
Season 5! Ughhhhh! I hate this wretched show. At least I can get revenge and pull out Duncan's eyebrow ring! They put him on my team. Yeaaahhhh, very 'sadly'- I thought to myself. I have no feelings left for him whatsoever! I don't so quit thinking it! I walked into our trailers- It was Total Drama Camp. I sat my bag down on the closest bed- It was also under Bridgette's. Distracted سے طرف کی Heather walking in I dumped my bag out. Beth picked up 2 items I snatched them back. She looked at me funny.She said,"A wooden skull and picture of آپ and Duncan!" She shouted it and just my luck The Duncan was right اگلے door! Face it we both know Duncan knows who that skull was for. No need to even say Courtney.
Does she?I mumbled. Geoff said,"You say somethin' dude." "Nah," I replied. I thought Courtney stilllll wanting me! Man I am good! That sudden party feeling went away and replacing it was guilt. My soft side only came out to Courtney. I felt cruel & mean from cheating! Dang, STUPID SOFT SIDE!
It was the morning of the first challenge- A Hike. That was the easy part. The hard part was partners! Chris picked them 4 us. I knew who I'de get stuck with. And that is exactly what happened. Yay, and گھنٹہ secluded with Duncan, after lastnight! Gwen was with Trent, they had to feel weird!
I was laughing. Trent was hilarious! He brought his guitar, & was going to write me a song! However I felt uneasy- Being with Duncan and being with Trent was weird. HE never done a thing to me-Heather did. Worse I kinda think I like him- not a I will soon اقدام on but the growing kind. But Duncan, he gave me that special feeling. I no longer new where to stand, It was like standing on a bluff-take a risky jump for Trent یا go safely with Duncan.
Do I hold my breath? I admitt I have feelings left over that were always covered سے طرف کی anger. Do I say a word? I would play the game not let Duncan distract me. But his bad boy antics yet...soft side.His چیتی, نیلگوں ہرا blue eyes ae so.. so dreamy! I began gazing. "See something آپ like,princess?" Duncan questioned. I replied "No!" trying not to blush سے طرف کی that lastword he said-Princess! We started our 1 mile hike. A quarter of the way in we saw Gwen and Trent in the lake splashing and chasing each other. I thought of how Duncan would feel.However he showed no signs- he only glared and kept walking. Being my sometimes annoying and abnoxious self I said,"wonder how the cheater feels now?" Duncan didn't say a thing he shoved me. Not that there was an answer 4 that besides I'm sorry, and we all know Duncan doesn't say that.
Trent and I were not going to win. We had 3 quarters to go and were still playing around. All of a sudden the loudseker came on. It anounced e could all return because Brik- a new guy and Eva won. Trent grabbed my am and stopped me. He said," I have that song for آپ sit." He started strumming the گٹار and then singing.
آپ are so beautiful every single day.
آپ seem to be my everything.
Falling Harder with every way
So now I have to say, Baby I love youmore than anything..........................................................
He finished his song. It was beautiful. I jumped up and hugged him. Noticing what I was doing I let go. Feelings were to uncontrolable. I needed to be careful. I was still Duncan's.
Courtney and me did not say much else we walked back n silence. I could not bare it any longer an کہا the unthinkable. I am sorry. Ourfirst challenge was over. The campers that mad it the least of the way had to leave. We all کہا bye to new girl Mary and Owen. Court had never responded. It as weird like something was there یا something I need was there. Did I need to make a decision? I bruShed it off and went to eat رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا with Gwen and Trent. In the mess hall Trent went to hug Gwen. I was standing right there. Idiots! Worse Gwen huggged back! Shecould tell was uneasy and kissed me. That killed the pain for the night. I walked back to my کیبن seein Court sitting on the steps. She looked up and said," Sorry for being jerk last season. It as my fault 4 the cheating-I annoyed آپ drove u away." I stopped her, it wasn't all her fault. We are both big headed, blaming it on the other, now she put all on her. I gave her a frendly hug and said, "Don't only blame your pretty littleself." I walked away. SOFT SIDE! I laye down and بستر knowing I could chill 2 days until the اگلے challenge.
We had no challenge and was laying lake side with Duncan and Trent. It felt nice but wanting to hold hands with both of them without the other knowing made that awkward edgy feeling. I don't know what happened but I grabbed Trents. Duncan noticed منٹ later and walkd off. I chased after him. Before I کہا a thing he said," Go have fun. I'll talk later." We were hanging on سے طرف کی a thread, me knowing I wasn't the one keeping it that way.
A Challenge Later!
Duncan and I had talked little. We were starting our third challenge. Animal rescuing. I had to catch a racoon. This only made me think of Brittany. I کہا to myself God in my everything. Duncan is just a guy. Just a crush. I used my stealth smart and sneaky skills and was the first one back. I handed over the raccoon and was done for the day. I went and sat سے طرف کی the lake. I took off my sandals. The water crept to my tes and would run away.Exactly how I felt with Duncan. I wanted to be with him but afraid of pain and rejection.Later Duncan sat سے طرف کی me. He کہا he was confused. He کہا him and Gwen was breaking down. I replied with "Don't ask me. We fell apart so many times, we came back together- but in the end look where we landed." I couldn't believe my attitude. I could be such a jerk. He walked off.
2 Challenges Later During Break!
It happened.Gwen and me broke up. I'll give youdetails. Gwen and Trent hung more. He wrote anothe mushy song. They hugged more. Played round more. Ad one دن they just kissed. It was at a campfire. Gwen giggled at something he said. All at once they grabbed each others face and kissed. And that was the end of DxG. Gwen technically cheated. I didn't blame her. Feelings are unontolabele. Full of Do You's. Seriously's. I love you's. It's how good things go bad. It took all this for me to realize. Court and I brought each other down. We brought out the best and worst of each other. We both were big headed and confused. We both loved the other. We both messed it up. I realized I loved her. I wanted to tell her. First I went and got support from Geoff. I was afraid.
I liked him alot. I stood on the dock leaning on the rail. M hair blew back in the wind. I thought about how he as single. We could happen again I mumbled to myself. It hurt to think of what was. Don't Forget, I کہا to myself.
Being with Trent was awesome. We were so mushy. I took a pic of us and then sketched it out. I hung both copies in my cabin. I loved him he loved me. I am glad I chose the risky jump. :)
I was happy. Gwen forgave me. She was mine again. Her beautiful self. She could draw, loved to watch scary movies, and was just awesome to be with.
Courtney was on the dock. I walked right up to her. She gave an uneasy "Hey." It hurt me to see her worried. Like she was holding her breath. Clammed up, not even being herself. She was scared too. I decided to wait to tell her. Instead I pushed her playfully. She pushed me. We ended up in th lake. When we got out she hugged me and told me good night. We hda challenge tommorow.
Our challenge was starting. An obstacle course. We ha to complete it in 5 mins. Dunca helped me with the throwing a football threw a hoop. I could have done easily, but didn't miss him guiding my arm.I finished with 3 tries.
2 Challenges Later Break!
I was going to tell her. I could not risk her یا myself gettin voted off because it was the final 6. Trent and Gwen were voted off.I walked to her cabin. I dragged herout the door. All of a sudden I kissed her and کہا I love you. Courtney was so surprised like I was during our first kiss.And I speakfor boh of I Love HIM/HER!