You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, آپ start school today. None of your دوستوں know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that آپ are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall کہا he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. آپ still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know آپ don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, آپ stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. آپ nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes آپ wanna cry. آپ sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” آپ explain hoping she would دکھائیں some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make آپ feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make آپ feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him یا her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” آپ ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but مزید like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school آپ don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, آپ think that she got the idea that آپ were annoyed with her. آپ walk in the room and the first person آپ see is you’re best friend, Annie, who آپ haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. آپ walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging آپ immediately, آپ hug her back.
“Hey! How have آپ been,” آپ ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making آپ wanna cry….
“What are آپ doing back here? I thought آپ were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to اقدام back here,” آپ say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” آپ say summing up the best آپ can so آپ don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once آپ got back to South Dakota so they put آپ him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense آپ moved and آپ haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to آپ یا something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. آپ nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend یا something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” آپ say sadly.
“Aww, did آپ really like him?” she asks, آپ nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. آپ smile and nod, آپ pull out a picture of آپ and him, hes hugging آپ from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a درخت سے طرف کی your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” آپ say looking at the picture, آپ flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. آپ put the تصویر back into your folder and sit down اگلے to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past ماہ you’ve been thinking about Lily and آپ have also tried writing some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, آپ cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first سال of ninth grade. آپ miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all آپ have is pictures, آپ keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And آپ tell yourself everyday that someday آپ are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your دوستوں keeping asking آپ why you’re back. آپ kept telling them that آپ would let them know during lunch time so آپ wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch میز, جدول with one of your دوستوں Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, آپ sit down اگلے to Mary and Chelsea. “So are آپ gonna tell us why آپ moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 منٹ of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like آپ guys are disappointed that I came back,” آپ say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. آپ sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” آپ say. They all stare at آپ like your kidding. “Im serious!” آپ sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking سے طرف کی stops and stares at آپ guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. آپ sigh.
“Nice one,” آپ say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and آپ giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” آپ yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” آپ yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do آپ like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. آپ laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. آپ shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” آپ say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” آپ say.
“Hey, Annie told me آپ had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she کہا آپ showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. آپ stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at آپ seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. آپ reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, آپ pull out the picture آپ showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” آپ scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of آپ and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” آپ say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. آپ glare at her. “Not that I would wanna تاریخ him یا anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to آپ after about a second.
After school آپ walk ہوم with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. آپ stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” آپ ask.
“Well did آپ see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” آپ say.
“Do آپ like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” آپ say. “ I really liked Marshall,” آپ say. آپ place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do آپ have something آپ have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” آپ say مزید as a سوال rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, آپ have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do آپ can hate me forever and آپ don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, آپ know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that آپ have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. آپ stop on the side walk سے طرف کی a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if آپ should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby یا not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. آپ nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes آپ wanna cry. آپ sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” آپ explain hoping she would دکھائیں some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make آپ feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make آپ feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him یا her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” آپ ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but مزید like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school آپ don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, آپ think that she got the idea that آپ were annoyed with her. آپ walk in the room and the first person آپ see is you’re best friend, Annie, who آپ haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. آپ walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging آپ immediately, آپ hug her back.
“Hey! How have آپ been,” آپ ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making آپ wanna cry….
“What are آپ doing back here? I thought آپ were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to اقدام back here,” آپ say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” آپ say summing up the best آپ can so آپ don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once آپ got back to South Dakota so they put آپ him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense آپ moved and آپ haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to آپ یا something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. آپ nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend یا something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” آپ say sadly.
“Aww, did آپ really like him?” she asks, آپ nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. آپ smile and nod, آپ pull out a picture of آپ and him, hes hugging آپ from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a درخت سے طرف کی your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” آپ say looking at the picture, آپ flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. آپ put the تصویر back into your folder and sit down اگلے to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past ماہ you’ve been thinking about Lily and آپ have also tried writing some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, آپ cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first سال of ninth grade. آپ miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all آپ have is pictures, آپ keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And آپ tell yourself everyday that someday آپ are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your دوستوں keeping asking آپ why you’re back. آپ kept telling them that آپ would let them know during lunch time so آپ wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch میز, جدول with one of your دوستوں Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, آپ sit down اگلے to Mary and Chelsea. “So are آپ gonna tell us why آپ moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 منٹ of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like آپ guys are disappointed that I came back,” آپ say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. آپ sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” آپ say. They all stare at آپ like your kidding. “Im serious!” آپ sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking سے طرف کی stops and stares at آپ guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. آپ sigh.
“Nice one,” آپ say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and آپ giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” آپ yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” آپ yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do آپ like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. آپ laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. آپ shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” آپ say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” آپ say.
“Hey, Annie told me آپ had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she کہا آپ showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. آپ stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at آپ seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. آپ reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, آپ pull out the picture آپ showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” آپ scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of آپ and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” آپ say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. آپ glare at her. “Not that I would wanna تاریخ him یا anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to آپ after about a second.
After school آپ walk ہوم with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. آپ stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” آپ ask.
“Well did آپ see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” آپ say.
“Do آپ like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” آپ say. “ I really liked Marshall,” آپ say. آپ place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do آپ have something آپ have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” آپ say مزید as a سوال rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, آپ have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do آپ can hate me forever and آپ don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, آپ know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that آپ have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. آپ stop on the side walk سے طرف کی a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if آپ should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby یا not tell her…
