The Secrets We Keep- Chapter One
She had to go back to New York, it was past time. Blair took a نشست in her spacious living room and sat down in a relic کرسی, آرام کرسی that dated back to the fifteen hundreds. She had been living in France for the last four years ever since she had run away after the horrible night that Chuck’s father had died. No one knew the true reason that she had disappeared and she certainly wasn’t going to venture that information.
The last four years of her life had been stressful to say the least but she had been happy here in France. Her mother had moved with her and she had opened Waldorf Designs in Paris. Blair had gone into the field of fashion herself and was becoming a highly touted designer for the company. That’s when her life had changed. She had met Ben who was her mother’s assistant and they had embarked on a whirlwind romance.
Ben had turned out to be everything for her. He was an extremely attractive man in the way that he was blond, blue eyed, and muscular. Everything that Chuck wasn’t in another word. She چرا لیا, چوری کی a glance down at her ring finger and smiled at the diamond that rested on it. Ben had proposed to her a few months پہلے and they had yet to set a date. She loved him یا at least she thought she did.
Eleanor was now heading back to the States to do another collection for the line and Blair had no choice to accompany her back there. They were all going. She hadn’t seen anyone from the Upper East Side in four years but that was all about to change. It was time to go back to New York and finally face her past. The only problem with this was that she didn’t want to see Chuck. After she had left it had taken her a good two years to get over him and she still wasn’t completely sure that she was over him for good. The problem with seeing him was that it was going to bring all of those feelings rushing back to her. And with her being back in New York for good it was impossible that he wouldn’t find out what she had been keeping from him all of these years. She knew that Chuck باس, گھنگھور was going to find out her deadly secret and that thought scared her enough that she didn’t even want to go back. There was no turning back now though; she was headed back to New York in less than twenty four hours.
She had finally finished packing and now all that was left was to tell Serena the news. She was the only person that Blair had continued talking to after she had left. Their friendship wasn’t as close as it once was but they still would always be there for each other through anything. Blair sat down at the ڈیسک and picked up the phone. She twirled the cord nervously around her finger while she dialed Serena’s number.
After a few rings, Serena picked up. “Hello?”
Blair smiled at the sound of her friend’s voice. She missed her. “Hi Serena, it’s me.”
“Blair!” Serena squealed with excitement. “I haven’t heard from آپ in a while, it’s exactly so good to hear your voice.”
“You too, S.” They had never gotten out of the stage of calling each other سے طرف کی their first initial. “How are things?”
“Good, Blair. Nate thinks I’m pregnant again and he’s over the moon. I keep telling him that we shouldn’t have a baby so soon after Patrick but he says that he doesn’t care. To tell آپ the truth, I think I am pregnant again. I’ve being feeling so hormonal not to mention incredibly horny.”
Blair laughed with glee at her statement. Serena and Nate had hooked up a couple of months after Blair had left and she had never been angry about it. She had finally realized that she had never loved Nate; she just loved the idea of being with him and what he stood for. She had only loved Chu… She told her mind to stop thinking off him and focused back on her conversation with Serena.
“I’m happy for you, Serena. آپ have made such a life for yourself and I really couldn’t be مزید proud of آپ for it. How is my godchild سے طرف کی the way?”
Serena groaned. “He’s in the terrible twos stage. He screams at everything and whatever آپ ask him to do he has a problem with. His پسندیدہ word is no.”
She laughed even harder at this. “Who does he look like, S?”
“Nate.” She laughed. “He looks exactly like his father; I mean sometimes I have a hard time thinking that he’s actually mine. That’s how much he looks like Nate.”
“I’ll be seeing him soon.”
“What?” Serena asked, not quite believing her ears.
Blair smiled over the phone; she couldn’t wait to see Serena. “I’m coming ہوم for good, Serena. My mother got a contract to make a line in the states and as I’m her سب, سب سے اوپر designer I will be accompanying her.”
“Oh my god, B! I can’t wait to see you. It’s been so long and I’ve missed seeing my best friend every day.”
“I know, that has been one of the things I have missed the most too. Ben’s coming with me, Serena. You’re finally going to meet my fiancé.”
“He must be pretty special if he convinced آپ to marry him. I can’t wait until I meet him. So, you’re going to get married here in New York?”
“Yeah, I was thinking about the Plaza for our wedding.”
A sad grin tilted the corners of Serena’s mouth. “That sounds amazing. I always wanted a big wedding but Nate and I just wound up eloping instead.”
A plan occurred to her suddenly. “We could always have a double wedding, Serena. آپ could have the wedding آپ never had and Ben and I would be married at the same time. Nothing would make me happier then to get married at the same time as my best friend.”
“Do آپ mean that, Blair?”
“Yes.” She could tell how excited Serena was سے طرف کی the whole idea.
“That sounds like the most amazing plan ever and I want nothing مزید than to do it with you, Blair. I’ve always considered آپ to as a sister.”
At her words, Blair knew that she was doing the right thing سے طرف کی returning to New York. She missed it there and of course Serena was there. “Same goes for me, S. I’ll see آپ later tomorrow, okay?”
“I’ll pick آپ up at that airport.”
They کہا their goodbyes and hung up. Blair was excited beyond belief now to go back. France was a great place but it could no way compare to New York. The sights, the sounds, the people, everything was just historic about the place. And of course there was a brown haired and brown eyed devil that she convinced herself she didn’t want to see but he really was behind the reason for her whole visit.
Blair moved onto the deck with Ben after they had finished eating dinner. She sat down in a chair and swirled the سونا liquid around in her wine glass. She was lost in her own thoughts until she heard Ben ask, “Are آپ excited to go back to New York, Blair?”
She grinned at him. “Yes and no. I love New York and I always will but in a way I am sad to leave this place since it has been my ہوم for the last four years. It’s going to be hard, Ben.”
He nodded resolutely while he took a sip of scotch. Whenever she saw someone else drinking scotch it always brought back a picture of someone else doing the same thing.
After a few منٹ of silence she asked, “I’ve been thinking of having our wedding at the Plaza, what do آپ think about that? I also invited Serena to have a double wedding with us since she never actually had a real one.”
He waved his hand around. “Whatever آپ want, Blair.” He dismissed her question. “What about your friends? Are آپ excited to see them?”
A grin titled the corners of her mouth. “Yes, I’m very excited to see Serena. I haven’t seen in her in so long and when I was talking to her today I realized how much I really do miss her. It hasn’t been easy for me, Ben.”
He grabbed her hand and placed a quick kiss in the palm of it. “I know. Everything’s going to be okay though, Blair. And even if it’s not, I’ll be there with آپ along every step of the way.”
She smiled. “Thank you.”
He moved his chair over so that he was closer to her. “What about Nate and that other man’s name that I’ve heard آپ mention to Serena, Chuck was it? Are آپ excited to see them?”
Her eyes had been wandering around the backyard and had lighted on the pool. She would have to have one last swim before leaving. There was nothing better than a nighttime swim. At her question, she quickly brought her head around to face him. “Nate? Chuck?”
“Yeah, don’t sound so surprised Blair. آپ never mention anyone from your life other than Serena and I do want to know everything about you. We’re getting married soon, it’s time آپ tell me some things that happened to آپ in New York.”
Her mouth suddenly felt very dry. “Okay.” She whispered. “You have to promise not to judge me though.”
“I would never judge you. I love آپ Blair, I hope آپ never forget that.”
She nodded and thought back to the pain that had been her past in New York. “Nate as آپ know is now married to Serena but he was actually my boyfriend for many years. I always thought that I was madly in love with him but then everything changed one night and I knew that I just loved the idea of Nate and what he represented instead of actually being in love with him.”
“What made آپ realize that?”
Blair sighed but she couldn’t help the smirk that came over her lips. “Chuck باس, گھنگھور did. Chuck was always Nate’s best friend and Chuck was always somebody that I found disgusting and perverted. He basically only cares about four things, Nate, money, drinking, and womanizing.”
“Wow, he sounds like a great guy.” Ben scoffed.
Her grin disappeared. “He’s actually the reason that I’m the person that I am today. He helped me find the real me.”
He frowned. “I still don’t understand how آپ realized that آپ weren’t in love with Nate.”
“Oh, that. One night Nate and I had another huge argument and we broke up. I went looking for Chuck. We had always been دوستوں and I knew that if anyone could cheer me up, it would be Chuck. I found him at his club and to make a long story short, he dared me to dance onstage at the club, I did, he offered me a ride ہوم and I accepted, and then we had sex in the back of his limo.”
She couldn’t help but laugh at the expression on his face. “Are آپ serious, Blair?”
His سوال made her giggle even more. “I am. That’s when I knew that I didn’t love Nate. At first I thought I just had sex with Chuck to get over Nate but that wasn’t the case at all. There was just always something between us. Some underlying sexual tension and not to mention the fact that we were always scheming against someone.”
He couldn’t help but be intrigued سے طرف کی all of this. “What happened after that night?”
A sad smile came over her face. “We basically had an affair behind Nate’s back. A couple of weeks later Nate found out and he wrote both of us off. Later in the سال though Nate forgave the both of us.”
“What happened between آپ and Chuck?”
The pain still came back to her at the mere mention of his name. Recalling her past with him was not helping in the least. “Well, there was still always this pull between Chuck and I. We will go back and forth between each other every so often but we never made it work. We were both too stubborn to admit how we felt. One thing about Chuck though, he was a womanizer in the worst sort of way and never bedded the same woman twice. That wasn’t the case for me and I knew that he cared مزید for me than any other person in his life. He never told me he loved me though and after his father died that’s when I left and came here to France.”
“Did آپ love him, Blair?”
“I did. When I was a teenager, he was always the one that understood me and got me. He’s the only man that I ever loved.”
Ben gave her a pointed look.
“What?” Blair suddenly realized what she had کہا and gulped in a quick breath of air. “Before آپ of course.”
He stood up abruptly before bending down and taking her hand. “Do آپ still have feelings for him, Blair?”
She shook her head hurriedly. “No, of course not. How can I have feelings for someone that I haven’t seen in four years? I was just reminiscing about him, Ben. آپ know that I love you.”
He didn’t look convinced. “I trust آپ Blair, so I will take your word for it. I’m going to go up to بستر since we have a long دن ahead of us tomorrow. Are آپ coming?”
“I’ll be up in a little while. I want go for a swim before turning in.”
“Sure.” He replied before leaving her alone.
As soon as he was gone, Blair stood up and stripped down until she was left in her chemise. She کبوتر into the water and relished how the water felt over her body. She swam a few laps before coming to a stop. Ben’s سوال about having feelings still for Chuck has caught her off guard. Ben was an amazing person but if she was honest with herself she would admit that his hair was the wrong color, his smirk wasn’t like someone else’s she knew, and he could never make her body hum like a certain باس, گھنگھور could do. Essentially she still had feelings for that so called Bass. She shut her eyes tightly and کبوتر under the water.
Serena walked through the وین der Woodsen باس, گھنگھور ہوم while she still along with, Patrick, Nate, and Chuck. Blair was due to arrive at the airport within the گھنٹہ and she still had to find Chuck and tell him that Blair was coming back. He would undoubtedly سے طرف کی furious سے طرف کی the news. He still hadn’t quite gotten over the fact that she had left all those years ago.
It had been hard for her when Blair left; she had lost her best friend along with the one person that had always stood سے طرف کی her. After she had left, things had quickly fallen apart with Dan once they had discovered that they shared a sibling. Serena had never really been attracted to Nate even while she had cheated with him while he was still with Blair. Though all of that changed when he had been there for her when she had broken up with Dan and the rest was history now.
After Bart’s death, she had become extremely close with Chuck. They were siblings and they loved each other through everything. Their relationship had entirely changed once Bart died; there were no مزید sly innuendos, یا anything else between them. Chuck had changed when his father had died.
She continued walking through the house and finally found him in the parlor with a glass of something in his hand that she presumed was scotch.
He turned around and grinned at her. “Sis. Do آپ find out if you’re pregnant again?”
She returned his smile. “I’m not really sure yet, it’s still too early. But I think Nate’s entirely right in thinking that I am.”
He chuckled. “Leave it to Nate.”
Serena cleared her throat. “I have something to tell آپ and I’m afraid you’re not going to be happy about it.”
He set his drink down and immediately went over to her. “What is it? Are آپ in trouble?”
She shook her head. “It’s nothing like that. I’m fine and so is everyone else. In about an گھنٹہ we’re going to have a visitor.”
“Who?” He asked, curious about who was coming.
“Blair. She’s moving back to New York permanently.”
His whole demeanor changed instantly and the easy grin that had been on his face turned to anger. Just hearing her name again after all this time sent shivers down her spine. “Shit. So after all of these years she’s finally going to دکھائیں her face again?”
“It was a long time ago, Chuck. You’ve got to get over it eventually.”
“Are آپ fucking serious, Serena?” Chuck managed to growl out through his anger. “She left the دن after my father died. After she told me that she loved me and would stand سے طرف کی me through anything. How would آپ feel if she did that to you?”
Serena admitted defeat. “I know that آپ have a right to be angry but…”
He interrupted her. “But nothing, what she did was the lowest thing that is humanely possible. Why the hell is she coming back now?”
She sighed. “I’ve tried to tell آپ what’s been going on in her life for years now but آپ never wanted to hear it. آپ do now?”
“Just tell me why the fuck she’s coming back now. Is it to fuck around with me again?”
“Chuck.” She berated. “Blair’s coming back because she’s the head designer of Waldorf Designs and their doing a line here specifically for New York. But she is staying indefinitely.” Serena took a deep breath before relaying the اگلے piece of news. “She’s going to get married in a couple of months.”
How words knocked whatever fight he had left in him. “She’s engaged?”
“Yeah, I’m sorry.” She laid a hand on his shoulder.
“I don’t care.”
“You’ve moved on, Chuck. I mean you’re always with a new woman, آپ never even cared about Blair. Did you?”
He gave her a hard look. “That’s where آپ wrong, sis. I cared مزید about Blair than I’ve ever cared about another human being in my life. Even مزید than Nate.” He walked away from Serena and headed out the door.
Serena watched him leave and knew that keeping these two from ripping each other’s throats out was going to be a very difficult task. She picked up her پرس, تھیلی and headed out the door to pick up Blair from the airport.
Blair walked through the house on her guard to be on the lookout for Chuck. Although Serena had told her that he wasn’t there. She turned around the corner and saw Nate.
“Nate.” She کہا with excitement.
Nate put down his paperwork and ran over to her and lifted her in a برداشت, ریچھ hug. “Blair! آپ look great, B.”
“So do you. You’re مزید handsome than ever and I have to admit that you’ve landed quite a good wife in Serena.”
He laughed with joy. “Yeah, I certainly have. Have آپ seen Patrick yet?”
She shook her head. “Serena کہا that she was going to bring him down.”
They chatted for a few منٹ until they heard Serena coming down the stairs. Blair turned around and for the first time she saw her godchild. She walked over and plucked him from Serena’s arms. “Oh, آپ weren’t kidding S when آپ کہا that he was a little Nate mini me.”
They both laughed and Nate hooked an arm around Serena’s waist. “We’re glad that آپ finally get to see your godchild, Blair.”
Blair smiled with glee. “You know I’m going to spoil him, right?”
Serena laughed. “Yes, I figured آپ would. His godfather spoils him pretty much though, so I wouldn’t worry about that if I were you.”
“Who’s the godfather?” Blair asked out of curiosity.
Serena looked at Nate but it was she who answered quietly, “Chuck.”
His name still sent a fluttering of butterflies through her entire body.
Serena quickly changed the subject. “So where is this fiancé of yours? Ben?”
“He actually had to take care of some last منٹ things with my mother but he’ll be here within a week.”
Serena ruffled her son’s hair before saying, “Blair, I need to ask آپ something.”
She handed Patrick to Nate. “Sure. What is it?”
“My mother was excited to hear that آپ were coming back to New York and decided to thrown a little gala in your honor.”
“Wow. That’s so nice of Lily. I would love to go, when is it?”
Serena winched. “That’s the problem; the only night she could organize it on was tonight. Is that alright? آپ really have to go Blair since you’re the reason it’s being thrown.”
Blair tapped her fingers against the side of her leg. “It wouldn’t be a problem except that I don’t have anything to wear. A lot of my luggage is still in France.”
Nate chuckled. “I think آپ forget who your best friend is, Blair. Serena’s got a whole closet of things that آپ could wear.”
They all laughed. Blair threw her hands up in the air. “Alright, sounds like my first night back is sure to be an exciting one at that. It’s like I was never gone. Is he going to be there, S?”
Serena didn’t even have to ask who because she knew who Blair was referring too. “He will be, Blair.”
She took a نشست on the sofa and contemplated what would happen that night at the gala. After a four سال absence she was about to meet up with Chuck again for the first time. She had to make sure she was prepared for it, since Blair was determined not to let him ever find out what she had been keeping from him for the last four years.
To Be Continued…
A/N: Another new story in the works for me. I’m a little bit of a workhorse کے, وورخورسی when it comes to writing. Alright, this is the first chapter and I’m not entirely sure on it. So if anyone wants me to continue this آپ must review it. Please? I will be updating Temptation of the Best Kind next. Hopefully سے طرف کی Saturday.