3 months later..
It was Ronnie's first pagenent.
I was so excited,I had bought her a blue glitzy pagenent dress.She looked so cute with her hair in a diamond clip.
Zayn was competitive,He thought Ronnie was the best and deserved that crown.He was right of course,Who else had a blue eyed tan baby?Zayn wouldn't let me put make up on her.
My dad especially wanted her to win.He کہا she was as beautiful as my mother was.The guys sat in the crowd,Cheering Ronnie on.Zayn wore a شرٹ, قمیض that said'Veronice Jane Malik'
I walked on stage with Ronnie in my arms.Shs didn't smile.The guys tried to make her smile,They made faces,Danced around,Nothing made her smile.Then Harry got and idea and kicked Liam in the balls.Ronnie laughed and giggled,She seemed to impress the judges since she was adorable.
She waved to the judges.
"That's my princess!"Shouted Zayn.
I smiled and walked off the stage.Zayn came and got Ronnie from me.She giggled as he tickled her.He then grabbed me and kissed me.Dad walked up and grabbed me.
"My princess."Dad کہا with greed.
"Yup,I'm your princess."I smiled.
"Nooo,She's mine!"Whined Zayn.
"Well آپ have Ronnie."
He gave Ronnie to my dad.
"Now,I don't."he smiled.
He kissed me.
I went out to the car to get Ronnie's passy.When I was in the parking lot I felt a pain in my stomach.I looked down,My water had broke.
"Why today?"I yelled.
"Theres my little Bonquisha."I smiled.
We were at the hospital,Zayn and Anna had walked in with Ronnie.Ronnie wore a medal and a small crown.I took her from Anna.She looked adorable.
Got a text from Matthew:Come meet me outside.
"I'll be right back,Don't have kingsley with out me!"I laughed as I exited the room.
Why would he want to talk to me?We never talked again after that night,That moment,That sweet moment when his lips touched mine.I fell deeply in love with him but I gave up because he wouldn't talk to me.Not one word.
I also had feelings for Amber,She was beautiful and my type of girl,But I kept my feelings,for Louie's happiness.I use to like Anna,But that was a long time پہلے and now she's one of my closest friends,A best friend and that was good enough for me.
So was Amber,I was just glad to see everybody happy,But sometimes I needed to be happy too,I needed somebody to to love.I looked up to see Matthew sitting alone on a bench,I joined him.
"Why did آپ call me out here?"
"I don't know.I just did."He didn't look at me.
I got closer to him.
"Have آپ been thinking about me?"
"Ive been thinking..about that night."he hesitated.
"I have too."I admitted.
I held his hand.He looked at me,I stroked his cheek and kissed him.He look as if he felt regret,He stood up.
"I'm not gay.I can't be."he کہا with much confusion.
My دل shattered.
"But I love you..."I کہا with little hopes.
"You don't get it,I'm not gay,and I don't love you!I'm not a fag!"he کہا with anger.
I ran away from him,I sat on the ground against my car,crying.
I looked back,Anna had heard what he said.She slapped him.
"Why would آپ say something like that!!You know he likes you.Your really shallow and cold."She yelled and defended me.
"Its not my fault,I'm not gay,And I don't love him."
"I don't care if آپ hate him,Why did آپ have to hurt his feelings."
I stood up.I wiped my tears and walked up to him.He looked down at the ground.
"Your stupid,and careless with the way آپ talk,But when آپ walk,Your fake.Your never going to find someone that'll love آپ because آپ just screwed up what could have been your last chance.And when your upset about it,Don't come crying to me."
I started to walk back inside.He ran and tried to grab my hand.I looked him in eye.
I heard the cry of a baby.I felt relief on my body,But everything was blurry.I could see straight,To think gave me a headache.
"Honey?"I heard Louie's voice.
Things started getting dark.I pasted out.
"Oh my god!Amber wake up!!"I yelled
"Sir,You can't be in here,right now"a doctor shouted.
I heard the ringing of a beep,It haunted me.They electroshocked her,They dragged me out of the room.
I seen Louie,He was shouting and yelling.I looked over and seen my lifeless body,Then their was James.He was in the arms of a nurse crying.I heard a voice.
I walk out of the room and seen Anna.She looked at me.
She understood and started to cry.I hugged her.
"Laulaby and good night.."I look on the دیوار I could see my mother holding me as a baby singing.
"Amber..."some one called out.
I looked behind me it was my mother.
"It's time to go."
"But why,I want to stay?I love these people."
"Amber,We love you."my father appeared.
"I'm not leaving,Im happy here.Anna help me."I begged.
"She can't hear you,She can only see you,She's special."father warned.
Everything froze suddenly,The walls off the hospital started to disappear and fade away.I opened my eyes.
I was back in my room.
"Good,Your awake."Smiled Louie with tears in her eyes.
"He's Right here,"Anna gave me him.
He had Light brown hair and looked like Louie.
Louie bent down and kissed me.
"What happened?"I asked.
"You have a reaction to the birth,And آپ were dead for 12 minutes,Its a blessing that your alive."He thanked.
I looked at Anna.
"Did you...?"I asked.
I was amazed,She really did see me.
"Oh nothing,I'll tell آپ later."I told him.
I had all I wanted and mostly needed,And it made me the happiest person on earth,and I almost lost it all,It made realize to except every moment in life,The bad and good,because someone always has it worse.