My opinion of myself when mad~ not so good. I am usually fairly soft-spoken, calm, cool, but when I am VERY angry the air around me bristles with this intensity and anyone around me can see یا feel that intense vibe. I cannot totally hide my feelings because of that. I do not want to react in the first ways that come to mind یا tell EXACTLY what I think about them یا the situation because that can be very strong- VERY strong. I am a passionate person with deep beliefs. It still does not give me an excuse یا a right to lash out. I'd rather not speak in anger. I DO try to speak rationally &/or resolve the situation in some postive way. I can still end up acting like an idiot یا feeling like one. It is not often I get that ruffled, but when I do I do try to talk it out, and if that does not work I may come back another time. I do not have to be right. I can admit my mistakes, but it can suck when I end up adding to a problem and having to go back and make amends, especially if I owed no apology to begin with! It happens. I do not believe in holding onto anger, staying angry, forming a grudge یا resentment. That only hurts me, just like stuffing feelings. I have seen too often the grievious affects of holding stress in. I have my art, I can pray, and I can also do the negative things like have my really negative thoughts, یا sleep -if I can.
Sexual things are an outlet, lol.
If something still continues to bother me, I end up feeling like I need to let it out and let it go and I may talk to a friend یا someone. I try to forgive, just like I would want. I really don't want regrets, and sometimes it happens. Sometimes it is just a process.
Honestly, I don't react in a way people see. When I'm angry, even thoroughly angry and at the breaking point.. I keep it all in my head. I'm really passive and mellow so.. I never really had to مککا, عجیب الخلقت something یا yell. It's rare when people can see how I really feel.
I don't know, I usually watch my پسندیدہ عملی حکمت یا spend time with my family but I'm SOOOOO pissed off right now because the world has 11 years before a major change in the climate happens if we continue what we're doing and NOBODY seems to give a damn; THIS is what Idle no مزید is about and almost EVERYONE online seems to ignore me when I try to talk about it; I'm trying to save the earth, Damn-it! scientists think it might be too late, but David Suzuki says we can save the earth if we really tried.
I'm so very, royally pissed off. ESPECIALLY at Stephen Harper; that DOUCHEBAG that made things 10x worse سے طرف کی allowing oil companies to exploit Freshwater and giving animals diseases from the pipelines he's building. (BTW, one broke TWO DAYS AGO.)
Normally, I would just let it all out سے طرف کی either writing, playing some instruments, cussing up a storm, playing والی بال یا continuously punching a punching bag without nobody but my closest دوستوں noticing.
When آپ piss me off to the highest level (which only happened once though), I probably would beat that person up.