Ever since I could remember
Everything inside of me
Just wanted to fit in (Oh oh oh oh)
I was never one for pretenders
Everything I tried to be
Just wouldn't settle in (Oh oh oh oh)


I slam the bathroom door. I walk in front of the counter and put my head in my hands while leaning on the counter. I tried to to pretend like I didn't care what I said, but it's impossible.
What have I done?
I looked up in the mirror at my myself.
What is wrong with me?
Musa told me that she was offered a ٹمٹم, gig, لٹو at a very مقبول club around the corner. I wanted to say “Congratulations.” but instead I said,
“Pfft, yea right. آپ can’t even sing.” We got into another big fight.
I don’t know what I was thinking.


If I told آپ what I was
Would آپ turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous
Would آپ be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me


I look back in the mirror. This time I see nothing but a man that put down their own girlfriend when she got her dream job. I don’t know why such a thing would come out of my mouth, یا even pop into my brain. I feel some tears roll down my face. A sorry won’t fix what’s going on inside of me.


I'm only a man with a candle to guide me
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me
A monster, a monster
I've turned into a monster
A monster, a monster
And it keeps getting stronger


I walk out of the bathroom and see that Musa is gone. I grab a piece of paper and a pen then sit down at my desk.
Dear Musa,
I don’t know why I کہا what I did. I’m so sorry I کہا that to you. I’ll be sure it never happens again. I love you. I fold the paper up and put it in an envelope then place it on her desk. I grab the keys to my car. I get in and I head to the docks. I am no human being. the countless times I’ve put her down. I am a monster. A letter won’t make Musa forgive me for what I said. I cannot let myself hurt her anymore.


Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest
Do I have to run and hide? (Oh oh oh oh)
I never کہا that I want this
This burden came to me
And it's made it's ہوم inside (Oh oh oh oh)


I don’t know what else will help me forget what I’ve کہا besides going to the docks. I don’t know what to do to...to get rid of the monster inside of me. I just know that it is destroying me and if I try to ignore it won’t do anything but become worse and hurt مزید people I hold dear to me. That monster isn’t coming out, it’s embedded in my heart. I drive to the bridge and stare out to the water… the solution to all of this. I roll the windows down and take a deep breath.


I'm only a man with a candle to guide me
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me
A monster, a monster
I've turned into a monster
A monster, a monster
And it keeps getting stronger
I'm only a man with a chamber who's got me
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me
A monster, a monster
I've turned into a monster
A monster, a monster
And it keeps getting stronger


I slam my foot on the gas. The car speeds on the dock. I know some people may call this crazy. But if I can’t get rid of the monster inside of me, I must get rid of all of me. The car goes off the bridge and plunges into the water. The car immediately starts to fill with water, and starts sinking.It’s the only way to save Musa from myself.
I cannot hurt آپ anymore my Musa.