I felt like for the first time in a long time, i was ہوم again. I wasnt running from my life anymore, and its problems and most importanly i wasnt running from Bella anymore.
The fact that she wanted to be with him "the bloodsucker" and that she was one of them already made it even مزید harder to breath for me.
I sat at my پسندیدہ spot in all "La Push" the edge of the earth and sky and sea.
The last time i was here i wanted to be alone and suffir in my anger and agony, just cumble to pieces.
But this time it was diferente i still have the stingin pain from Bella's goodbye. It had been 3 months since she lefted with to Alaska with Edward and Renesmee there daughter.
I allways felt guilty for almost killing her یا even havening the thought of it once in my mind.
But when i saw her i couldnt , Nessie was a part of Bella she had her chocolate brown eyes and i couldnt bring myself to harme her.
So i become like an older brother for her, i would go hunting with her and play with her and protected her as well(But Nessie was half-vampire, half-human and haved 7 vampires who would always defend her so she really didnt need that much of protection)i was here for Bella and Nessie.But i couldnt keep my feelings under wraps. She could see that i hurting, i loved her soo much it was burying me alive to have her soo close and not being hable to be with her.
I closed my eyes and tried to clear my head and sort my thoughts. But i lost my chain of thought when i heard a مزید then familiar voice.
Leah کہا abruptly distracting me from my loading
she stand اگلے to me with her arms پار, صلیب her chest
"really Jacob Black آپ are just to predictable for your own good" shaking her head in disapprovel.
I sighed and then کہا in a low emotionless tone.
It was silent for a minute.
I glanced at Leah to see if she was still there her expression was diferent, she seemed diferent in some way.
i couldnt tell what it was.
She had a almost teary-eyed smile on her face i thought that she looked kinda pretty like before, mayby even beatiful the smile just lasted a instante and then it was gone.
So i was sure what it was,her face was emotionless now.
"Soo you're staying this time??" she asked with the same emotionless mask on.
I nodded to confirmed my staying.
She sat down اگلے to me.
"Good!! because i was getting tired picking up you'r slack!" She muttered with smug grin.
I rolled my eyes at her and laughed a short almost sourly laugh "Ha, i dont remember putting the guys to clean my room when i was here"
I picked up a sandy colored rock from the ground and throw it the farest i could over the cliff into the gray water below my feet.
"That was like one time i just wanted to see if they would do it and they did" she chuckled at the thought.Then picked up a rock similerto the one i had just throwed to the far end of the sea.
She throw it in the aire several times in her hand then stopped and turn to face me.
" آپ know like it یا not آپ and me are a lot alike in many ways" I turn to look at her with my eyes widden in disbelif to what i was hearing.
"In what?... i guess were are both werewolves but ... i think thats it" Stil not understanding what she meant.
She sighed and turn to look at her feet dangleing over the edge.
"No thats not what i meant... i mean we both had falling for someone that wasnt meant for us"
I stared and studied her face her eyes already dark seemed to darken مزید with sadness. I understood way she had changed why she became a کڑوا, تلخ harpy when she used to be such a pretty girl,i thought she was even beatiful for a time being but it was long ago.
She tured to face me once more.
"But it wasnt meant to be i guess"
I swallowed my pain and decided to agree with her سے طرف کی nodding emotionless.
"Well i better go see Billy, he hasnt seen me yet since i got back" I frowned in disappointment for me leaving Billy for such a long time i was a being a terrible son and i know that, i didnt like having him worry soo much about me and my "periods absents" has i called them.
When Bella lefted i escaped from the pain the only way i know in wolf-form, t had been gone for months and would came back every few weeks to check up with the Cullens for news of Bella and pass through La Push to check on everyone but i was long gone before the rest could caught me.
But i wasnt going to keep doing that i was tired and done.