I wanna run but I cannot chase the sun I'm hiding from the light because it is so bright I don't wanna fight because i'm filled with fright look there is the spirites they come only in the night آپ wouldn't find me in the دن of light morning when I'm out of your sight trying to escape the night the stars are so bright آپ call to me and I'm full of fright I carefully look to the sky but then I look all around and see nobody is to be found I run from the sun I run from آپ آپ are not who i had thought I knew I can't I can't be blue as long as I'm far away from آپ Is this true what آپ are feeling that you're no longer peeling far far away where آپ can't find me it is my time to fly and now I will say GOODBYE.

Tell me why I've been lied to
Tell me why there are secrets hidden from me
سے طرف کی my sister

Explain to me why she choose this
Explain to me why I hurt so much
Explain to me why I don't care any more
About my life

Answer me why I want to cry
Answer me why I want to die
Answer me why I want her to just
Leave already
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I've been hurt سے طرف کی a sister. She has lied openly to my face, hidden secrets from me when she promised me she wouldn't, and threw me out like I was trash. I'm wrong for being hurt, یا am I just an idiot?

Go to sleep and close your eyes

And dream of broken butterflies

That tore their wings against a thorn

آپ know the pain that which they’ve born

Silver metal shine so bright

Scarlet blood that feels so right

Dream of that blood trickling down

And wake up just before آپ drown

The moonlight shining off your tears

As آپ bleed out your worst fears

So tonight when آپ start to cry

Whisper the cutters lullaby:

Hushabye baby, your almost dead

آپ don’t have a pulse and your pillows red

Your family hates you, and your دوستوں let آپ bleed

Sleep tight with a knife, cause thats all آپ need

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred

آپ didn’t know life would be this hard

Time to end the pain آپ hid so well

And down آپ go baby

Straight back to hell

hope, for me, is a place uncharted
and extreamly over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
frozen my very soul.

my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forwarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.

the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my دل is numb.

and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my دل can not ache,
nor can it brake.

the lie of a life
i'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explination.
so i ask, Why?

why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?

so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope آپ understand...

I draw a pretty picture A picture on my wrist The picture keeps getting bigger Every time my feelings are dismissed آپ think the words don’t hurt me That the actions don’t cause me pain آپ think that if I smile I must be happy again I’m not going to blame it on آپ Because I know that its my choice But it only ever happens when آپ raise your voice I hear the screams and shouts And I reach out for the blade I do it without thinking Then I look at the mess I’ve made It looks ugly and it stings But it takes away the pain And the hurt Of all the other things I know you’ll tell me its wrong If آپ ever find out That’s why I keep my arms covered I don’t want آپ to scream and shout I keep my arms covered so no one else can see The scratches ive made on my arms There something that’s private to me.

Life is often like a fire, it dies out, and it does not last forever,
while some people hide behind smiles and joy, others embrace the fear, the fear that everyone drowns in, for fear is the one thing we can be sheltered by.
So as I کہا before, life is like a fire, it burns out, because it will not last, just like everything else in this world, the only remains left behind are the burning ashes.
Its hard to say whether یا but change will come to our lives on this earth, but if it does, it surly will not be in this lifetime.

Restless
© Gina
I wake up everyday,
mainly to my dismay,
the pain it caused will never end,
I never had the strength to tell a friend,
how do آپ open up,
when your whole life آپ kept it shut up,
how do آپ get the pain to subside,
when all آپ want to do is curl up and hide,
this whole thing is my fault,
I couldn't tell my mother I was his default,
even when I escaped the crime,
I knew I would never regain the time.



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