Dear Fang
I am sorry to say that I wont remember آپ that way. I can't seem to remember آپ in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember آپ like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember آپ flying, free. I hope آپ stay free. And if I remember آپ flying I can imagine that آپ are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a سال being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one دن I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let آپ in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got آپ back and then… I lost آپ again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the دل wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why آپ left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I love knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its آپ in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that آپ will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason آپ left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise آپ that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I love you
I cant help but be focused on آپ when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if آپ love something, then آپ have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years آپ aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. آپ don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether آپ will come back. But I will get آپ back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One دن we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise آپ that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I love آپ enough to let آپ go. And I trust آپ enough that آپ will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, آپ leaving has دیا me even مزید motive to do so. I'll meet آپ at the سب, سب سے اوپر of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. آپ know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. آپ can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see آپ next.
I love you.
Max
I am sorry to say that I wont remember آپ that way. I can't seem to remember آپ in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember آپ like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember آپ flying, free. I hope آپ stay free. And if I remember آپ flying I can imagine that آپ are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a سال being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one دن I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let آپ in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got آپ back and then… I lost آپ again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the دل wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why آپ left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I love knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its آپ in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that آپ will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason آپ left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise آپ that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I love you
I cant help but be focused on آپ when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if آپ love something, then آپ have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years آپ aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. آپ don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether آپ will come back. But I will get آپ back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One دن we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise آپ that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I love آپ enough to let آپ go. And I trust آپ enough that آپ will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, آپ leaving has دیا me even مزید motive to do so. I'll meet آپ at the سب, سب سے اوپر of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. آپ know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. آپ can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see آپ next.
I love you.
Max