I feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD!!!

for one: آپ are a true fan! Don't put yourself down like that. آپ realize that there are thousands of people that became a پرستار of Michael after he left us.
It's not bad to start liking an artist after they had died. There's nothing wrong with that.
Please don't feel bad, Michael dosen't want to see anyone feeling like this. آپ are a true fan.
If آپ love him, like we all do, no matter what weather it was his looks, his music, what he did to changer this world, یا what kind of person he was, آپ are a true fan, don't let anyone tell آپ different. Don't tell me آپ can't look at this wonderful man, and say your not a true fan.
آپ love him like a پرستار dose and the love is really all آپ need

Healtheworld65. Honey I been a پرستار since I was 11 years old, now I'm 38. There were moments in my life that I had a though in my mind of his strange life style. But I did my research on his life and pay close attention to the lyrics of his music,he rote موسیقی from his heart,talented singers do that, they put their true filling in their work,and that was it! for me. When he Died I din't even cry! I don't know why, at the memorial I din't cry!, that din't make me a bad fan,I find out I am stronger than I though I was. I still can't cry over knowing that his dead, that doesn't mean that I don't love him, I always will, I'm broken hearted yes!! it hurts sometimes when I remember that his gone. Believe me آپ are not a bad fan, آپ love him and love can't be a bad thing. Be strong follow only the truth and most of all follow your hearth!! take care darling! ok

Don't feel bad because آپ did'nt know who Michael Jackson was befor i mean their are alot of people of who did'nt know who he was befor eaither but now they love him.so why beat your self up about not knowing who he was یا not being his پرستار befor he died because it does'nt matter if آپ knew who he was then یا now because all that really matters is that آپ know who he is now,your his fan,and آپ love him.so don't feel bad about not knowing who he was befor just be happy that آپ know who he is now and آپ love him.

yeah I feel guilty too I mean i've been a پرستار of him =( since I was little and seriously I feel bad cuz I didn't know about his comeback tour b4 he died =(.
and I simply forgot about him cuz of my education was in the way but when he died I had a bad feeling in my stomach and when I saw his موسیقی vids when they did a tribute to him all memories flash back to me.
I even wanna cry at his memorial but I didnt but when I ask mum if I can get a cd of his thats when the tears came out =(.
and now im مزید obsessed with him than ever but still I feel guilty :(.
I blame my mum though I mean she loves his موسیقی but not him =(.
I mean I love him and his موسیقی all together I just feel guilty cuz MJ is all I have in my mind now.
Im even starting to have alot of dreams about him and i just feel guilty to not knowing him alot.

I know exactly how آپ feel. The same thing happened to me. I didnt become a die hard پرستار until his death, but when آپ become a پرستار doesnt matter as long as آپ understand him now. :)


Foreveramjjfan(Alicia) :)

ارے i've been a پرستار sense 1990 یا 1991 and im 21 so i've loved mj for a long time my whole fam loves mj a lot so mj for ever

Its ok آپ are not alone. I was the same, like when Michael was alive I had no clue who he was until he had to go. When I heard his موسیقی I loved it so much. I love Michael Jackson. آپ are a true MJ fan. Dont say your not a true Michael پرستار because آپ are, I felt guily at first but I got over it. It doesnt matter when آپ started liking him. آپ are an MJ fan=)

We're living the same life, healtheworld65. It is like literally the exact same way for me. Then one دن my mom played a cd and thought he was pretty cool. I just felt horrible and still do sometimes that i never got to be a پرستار of him when he was alive. Anyway my advice to آپ is to just TRY to get through it. There really isn't nothing for آپ to do to stop the pain, that'll always be there. but sometimes the feeling eases every now and then. آپ just have to know that he's with you. that's how i get through every day. i know it seems impossible that you'll ever get through this, but just remember that one دن آپ and MJ will meet. know that there's light at the end of the tunnel. know that happines is on its way. i actually get excited when i think about the دن we meet. so til then just keep listening to the music, watch the ویڈیوز and learn the moves. and btw آپ ARE SO A TRUE FAN!!! don't listen to anyone who says otherwise!!!!
and another thing, look out for him on June 25, he might come around to all of us true شائقین :)

hehe don't feel bad,Michael loved آپ even before آپ were a fan. Your special آپ see:)
Not many people realise what a kind,senstive,loving man he was...you just have to be able to see things in his point of view to understand him. Your doing very well and آپ are a TRUE fan.
No-one could say anything bad about you,your a gift from God. Going back in time doesn't help always,just remember what counts is now,your living now. Just remember your a Mj پرستار and your all of our friends:)
xxxhugs

Your story is simillier to mine: before Mj's death I didn't know who he is, when I heard he died i felt weird. it was shocking and i could'nt believe it. since the دن of his death i started love him, and few monthes پہلے I did a biography project about him. now he is the world to me, i won't g oa دن without listenong to his songs and thinking about him.

and my advice for آپ is: it's realy doesn't metter if آپ became a پرستار of him before یا after his death, don't listen to people who think you'r not a real fan. because آپ are! just like me :)