Tightness in my chest
I cant breath.
The only time I can escape
is when I fall asleep.

Constant nausea
constant fear.
How did this happen
knowing I'm محفوظ here?

It's a constant worry
another will strike.
I worry about it all the time
it makes me lose my appetite.

My sight darkens
my life flashes.
My worries control my thoughts
my دل crashes and burns to ashes.

آپ have no idea what its like
to live one دن in my shoes.
Maybe if آپ did
آپ wouldn't judge me as آپ do.

Her beauty is that of a million diamonds glittering in the sun
Each reflecting its own کرن, رے of light making brilliant patterns
The angels gasp in the wake of her presence
She in herself being a masterpiece of God’s work
As his giant gentle hands molded her he knew exactly who she would be
She would be the one who could make a man stop and gasp
Who could content a man just being within his arms
Making him fill with warmth through just a brush of the lips
Whose smile could light up the surrounding darkness

Whose laugh could make anyone believe they had wings
She would be the one who that young man would fall for
Who would see her true beauty in the surrounding gloom
Who would long for mere منٹ with her
Who would always long for just the feel of her hand

He would know how lucky he was
He wouldn’t mistake infatuation over love
He would realize all prayers had been answered
He would simply pray “I want her to be the one”

It's hiding in the dark
It's teeth are razor sharp
I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within
My veins tainted with monster
Alcohol runs though my body
Foggy mind and running blood
Slices among splices
Drip drop patter splat. 
It cools on the linoleum as my head swirls
My lip quivers and tears fall
Clear liquid stains my cheeks
Mixing with the rustic blood
Delilah screams and kicks at the door, 
waiting to come out. 
My breathing excels,
she claws her way into my mind. 
Taking a back seat,
I let her take over. 
Quitting isn't an option.
The crash to come is great as she inhales toxins
Clouded with thoughts of self raw hate
There is no escape.
The blade hits the floor as Delilah snorts up again. 
Swigging the ووڈکا, شراب and flying on monster. 
Giggling on the height it takes her

It feels like my دل has been ripped out of my chest and crushed into a million pieces. I can't breathe and tears are streaking my face. My lips have a blue tint & air is coming short. I've cussed at the دیوار and screamed into the empty air. I feel myself leaving, but I'm still here. Every thing is wrong and I want your help. I look like I got hit سے طرف کی a bus so says my cousin. I can't eat let alone breathe right. Why are آپ so far yet so close? Just pull me to آپ and call me yours. I need آپ Lucas. I want آپ beside me, to caress my face and kiss me softly... We can just leave and run. We can take Anna and leave, never turning back. I want you, Lucas. Need you. I just want to hear your voice whisper in my ear and tell me آپ love me. I feel myself leaving, maybe. Maybe not. I haven't the sllightest idea, but without you. It feels like I'm fading.

She gave her heart, to a falling star
The news filtered through of this tragedy
All the walls went up,
Around the world she climbs
As the tears from her eyes fall
No one understands and no one will
All she has lost,
If he’s not here, then where?
If he’s not here, then where?
If he’s not here, then where?
If he’s not here, then where?

What she found in there
You’re the cold, blue glare
The words distressed in unfamiliar
Where the feeling’s sear,
an emptiness had hung
And in her chest she clenched
Reality settled as the memories raced.
Well, on a screen he lived.

She teared, “Your selfishness has robbed آپ of the man آپ could’ve been
I won’t change a thing about you, I love آپ dearly, my friend.”
If he’s not here then where?
If he’s not here then where?
My love, I’ve been searching for my Aftermath.
If he’s not here then where?
If he’s not here then where?
My love, I’ve been searching for my Aftermath.

Getting called a whore and a slut
As I walk down the halls
The preps snide remarks
And the jocks jokes.
I guess I’m not normal
With my thick eyeliner, black clothes and worse attitude.
My arms lined with neat slits and they know.
“Go die emo bitch” they taunt.
I smile and accept because I know I will.
Sooner than later I’ll be gone.
I accept the sneers and flip off the jocks.
Tackling the nearest cheerleader.
Pinning her arms above her head,
And swinging away.
Ruining her pretty little face
She screams and yelps with each blow
Watching her nose gush, I spit in her face.
“Do it again Bitch!” I scream
I lean into her ear and whisper “I dare you”
The hide torn away from my knuckles
Theyre covered in blood, hers and mine
I get up and watch her curl into a ball
The dean of students heading my way
“she started it” I say, turning around
And walking away
Into the halls they stretch on and on
To whom of which I got lost.

Breathless kisses
Burning touches
Soft-spoken words of love
Urgently spoken words of passion.
A man and a woman
One complete love
Since time began
Predestined to be as one.
We've been together before
In other lifetimes
We've fought dragons
And have been torn from each others arms
Yet our love prevailed.
We've walked on this earth many times together
Perhaps for a moment
Perhaps for years
But our دل is one heart
And we were meant to be.
So when our time on earth
Once again comes to a close
Have no worries my dear
For we will find each other again
And again
And again.
For our love is ageless
Eternal
A love for all time.