A/N: This chapter gives جوابات to some of the سوالات so far but there isn’t a lot of action, sorry.
Chapter Four: Questions
I sat in the living room an گھنٹہ later, Nessie holding my hand on one side and Esme holding my hand on the other. Emmett and Jasper had taken Edward hunting again, Alice had made the decision that keeping Edward and I apart for the moment was probably the best course of action.
“Mom, this isn’t your fault,” Renesmee کہا and smoothed my hair back. I turned to her and I’m sure the agony I felt was present in my eyes.
“Did آپ see him when he left? Did آپ see his eyes?” I couldn’t cry, but I wished I could.
“We aren’t going to do anything یا blame anyone until Carlisle gets home,” Alice said. She was looking out the front window, waiting to announce the boy’s return home. “You can’t blame yourself, Bella. Just because this hasn’t happened before doesn’t mean it’s your fault.”
“Alice, I told آپ something was wrong with me,” I کہا brokenly. “I told آپ that today at school I felt different and Edward tried to jump me in the forest. آپ saw what he looked like before he left, he didn’t want to go. He wanted me even then, when he looked as if he would crumble if someone breathed on him.”
I shook off Esme and Nessie and buried my face in my hands. The guilt tore at me, even when deep down I knew it wasn’t my fault. I couldn’t control my emotions right now; I finally knew what it felt like to be a newborn. It wasn’t bloodlust that was destroying me now; it was another appetite, stronger and مزید powerful than anything I had ever felt before. The problem was that it wasn’t only affecting me; it was affecting the person I loved مزید than anything in my life. I could still feel the hunger coursing through my body, aching for the one person I couldn’t have right now.
I was killing him.
That realization hit me like a crushing blow. I knew I couldn’t really hurt him, no matter what I did he wouldn’t actually die, but somehow I was hurting him. The agony in his eyes was proof that this wasn’t normal. The drastic deterioration of his energy wasn’t normal either. We had spent days on end making love before and never had he needed to hunt مزید than necessary. I, on the other hand, was better than fine. My body surged with adrenaline, much مزید than I knew I had gotten from the hunt with Edward earlier.
I wished Carlisle was here, I needed someone I trusted to tell me what was going on. I needed him to tell me everything was going to work out and things would go back to normal. I hated feeling this helpless.
“Bella, everything is going to be okay,” Jacob told me. He was sitting on the arm of the couch, one arm slung around my daughter’s shoulders. He hadn’t کہا much since Edward had been dragged away سے طرف کی his brothers and I was grateful for that. It was funny, Jacob had always thought Edward would hurt me, but it turned out to be the other way around. It was funny how ironic life was.
“They’re back,” Alice کہا softly, not taking her eyes off the window.
Terror gripped me even as I longed to see Edward’s face. What if he walked in the door and I threw myself at him again? Would I keep hurting him? “Nessie, Esme, don’t let me up unless Alice tells آپ its okay,” I demanded. Neither of them argued with me, instead they each took my hands again and moved just a little closer to me.
“You aren’t going to do anything,” Alice told me, “Your fear has a tight grip on you, it won’t let any other emotion through.” I knew I could trust her, but I didn’t let go of Nessie یا Esme. I needed them for support just as much as I needed them for restraint.
The front door opened and Emmett, Jasper and Edward filed into the living room. One look at Edward told me that he was okay… for now. His eyes met mine and he shot me a grin. “I’m okay,” he promised, knowing instinctively that I had been waiting to hear those exact words.
“You can let her up, she won’t do anything stupid,” Alice کہا softly. I felt the pressure on my hands release and in a سیکنڈ I was at Edward’s side, gazing up into his beloved face. In that moment everyone around us was no longer important. They could have been standing around us in a دائرے, حلقہ and scrutinizing our every word and اقدام but I wouldn’t have noticed them. In that moment it was just us.
“I’m so sorry,” I whispered, not daring to touch him. I was still afraid that if I felt his skin against mine I would lose the fragile hold I had on my self control. Edward didn’t have the same reservations that I did. He snatched me up in a tight hug, crushing me against his chest and pressing a kiss to my forehead.
“This isn’t your fault, Bella. Carlisle will be ہوم soon and I’m sure he will tell us it’s nothing to worry about,” he whispered into my hair. I wasn’t that sure, I couldn’t agree with him that this wasn’t something to worry about. He had been forced to hunt three times in the past two days in order to deal with my new found ardor.
“What if this doesn’t go away? What if I can’t touch آپ anymore without hurting you?” I asked him. This fear was so real to me it was almost paralyzing. Edward was the only thing I had, the only thing I had that was mine and mine alone. I had Renesmee but she belonged to Jacob مزید than anyone else. Edward was mine… and I was terrified to lose any part of our relationship, especially the part that made me feel closer to him than anything else.
He took my face between his hands and touched his forehead to mine. “Whatever happens we will work through it. Nothing is going to take آپ away from me,” he vowed. I felt the stinging sensation in my eyes that meant I was trying to cry, but I had no tears. A choked sob came from my throat and I wrapped my arms around my husband.
“Carlisle will be ہوم in five minutes,” Alice predicted, pulling Edward and I away from our whispered discussion. “I’m sure everything is going to be okay. I see all of us going to school tomorrow.”
I instantly felt better knowing that whatever was wrong wouldn’t keep us from going about our daily lives. Alice wouldn’t lie to me about something this important, so I knew without a doubt that either Carlisle would have some answers, یا this burning need inside me would settle down a bit. Either way I relaxed in Edward’s arms, truly feeling them for the first time since they arrived back from the hunting trip. Surprisingly the touch didn’t bring on the intense need that had been triggered all دن just سے طرف کی a brush of his hand against mine. Maybe it was because this touch was purely comforting and not sexual at all. Whatever it was, I was glad to just have him in my arms for the moment.
We heard Carlisle’s Mercedes coming up the drive and every head turned toward the گیراج door where he would be coming through any moment. The only sound in the room were Jacob and Renesmee’s beating hearts and though they were steady and calm I couldn’t convince myself to be. The moment the گیراج door opened I felt the insane urge to run to Carlisle and throw myself into his arms and sob, just like I would have done with my own father. I fought the urge and clung to Edward even tighter.
When Carlisle walked inside and saw everyone’s tense faces he raised an eyebrow. “I take it we didn’t have a good دن at school.”
In unison everyone turned to look at Edward and I and the expressions on their faces ranged from sympathy, to confusion and in Emmett’s case humor. Jasper turned a disapproving glare on Emmett and my biggest brother just shrugged. “You have to admit it’s kind of funny,” he laughed, “Bella must be a total freak in the sack…”
Emmett didn’t get to finish that thought because snarls erupted around the room. I was shocked to see that Renesmee and Alice were just as furious as Edward and I at the way Emmett was treating our situation. It wasn’t humorous at all. “You are such a bastard,” Alice snapped at him. Emmett rolled his eyes and turned to Rosalie, but he wasn’t getting any sympathy from her either.
“Don’t look at me, I don’t find this funny at all,” she کہا snippily and walked across the room to sit اگلے to Nessie and Jacob.
“Who is in the dog house now?” Alice asked with a satisfied smile. Emmett growled at her and Carlisle stepped in between them.
“What is going on here? I don’t understand,” he turned to Edward and me, “I assume this has to do with the two of you.”
I hung my head guiltily, I felt like I was being reprimanded even though I knew Carlisle wouldn’t do that. Edward pressed a kiss to my forehead before turning to talk to our family patriarch. “Bella and I have had an interesting day,” he کہا and I snorted.
“Interesting isn’t the right word,” I corrected and looked up at Carlisle. He was gazing at Edward and me, concern evident in his eyes. “It started at school…”
I had to give it to Carlisle; he didn’t even bat an eye as I explained everything that had happened starting from the moment in the lunch room where Alice had practically thrown Edward and me outside. I didn’t skip over the fact that my control gradually weakened through the remainder of the دن and سے طرف کی the time school let out I was a complete wreck. I described our run through the woods and how after we had stopped to spend some time alone together Edward seemed exhausted. When I mentioned the fact that Edward had to hunt again Carlisle finally interrupted me.
“What do آپ mean he had to hunt again? We all hunted yesterday,” he was confused, that wasn’t a good sign for me.
“It was like his energy just drained out,” my voice sounded small and scared. I didn’t like it at all.
“Bella, did آپ have the same problem?” Carlisle asked in what I had come to call his doctor voice. He was analyzing and I was grateful.
“No, I actually felt مزید alive than I have in years. The problem was when I tried to get Edward to hunt he didn’t want to. He was still…” I paused, looking for a word that didn’t sound crude.
“A horny little vampire,” Emmett کہا with a self satisfied smile on his face. I snarled at him, baring my teeth. He chuckled but didn’t respond to my anger.
“Anyway,” I went on, gritting my teeth so as not to hit my پسندیدہ brother, “He مزید یا less attacked me, he seemed out of his mind. I got him to hunt and he seemed to be in a much better mood when we headed back home. Once we were back inside… well, the same thing happened again. I felt incredible, almost as though my دل was going to start beating again. Edward on the other hand had to go hunting again. The guys just got back before آپ did.”
“Bella, I’m going to ask آپ and Edward some very important questions, but they may be embarrassing in front of the others, would آپ like everyone to step out?” Carlisle spoke only to me, but I knew everyone else was hanging on my answer. I knew they were all worried about us.
“If Emmett says a single word I’m throwing him out of the house myself,” I grumbled. The tension in the room dropped as soon as I agreed they could all stay. Renesmee smiled at me and Jacob made a face.
“No offense, Bells, but I would prefer not to hear about your love life. If what I heard earlier is any indication of where this conversation is going, I think I’ll head out now,” Jacob said. He looked uncomfortable and I couldn’t blame him. I didn’t think I would want to sit in a room while he dissected his sex life either.
“Wait for me, I don’t think mom and dad would be comfortable talking about sex with me in the room,” she winked at me and I smiled back at her. She took Jacob’s hand and they left the room, much to my (and most likely Edward’s) relief.
Edward and I sat on the couch, holding each others hands and trying not to look at the room still full of family around us. Carlisle sat on the loveseat with Esme across from us, attempting to smile, but it didn’t make me relax. I was still worried that something was really wrong, even with Alice’s assurances that we were all going to school tomorrow.
“Bella, I need آپ to tell me the exact moment آپ started noticing that something was wrong,” Carlisle prompted.
I took a deep breath, مزید to relax myself than anything. “When Edward told me we couldn’t touch each other like normal,” I shot a glance at Emmett and corrected myself before he could make a joke, “He کہا we shouldn’t walk around holding hands یا any of the small things we did unconsciously throughout our normal days.”
“That frustrated you?” Carlisle asked.
“At first it just worried me, but as the morning progressed it got worse and worse. I’m not used to not touching him. Ever since we were first together we were always touching each other in small ways. He would play with my hair یا touch my face, hold my hand. It was as natural for us as breathing is, like a habit we couldn’t control,” I explained.
“So when آپ couldn’t touch him at all آپ began to grow upset?”
I nodded. “As the دن wore on I couldn’t think about anything else, like my desire kind of took control of my head. سے طرف کی the time lunch rolled around I was out of my mind.”
Edward pressed a kiss to the سب, سب سے اوپر of my head and squeezed me into his side. “It’s okay, love, I wasn’t in any better condition,” he reminded me.
“Edward, I’ll ask آپ the same question. When did آپ first notice something wrong?” Carlisle asked him and I could tell his curiosity was growing with each word we spoke.
“I noticed Bella’s irritation at lunch, before then I didn’t feel any different than usual,” he replied and then smiled at me. “Of course, I’m always eager to be with Bella.”
“But at lunch, this was something different than normal?” Carlisle asked. Edward gazed at me thoughtfully before answering; I figured he was trying to understand it himself.
“It was different. This wasn’t a desire any longer, it was a compulsion. We were standing in the lunch line and Alice was thinking about Bella, worrying that something was wrong with her. I turned to look at her myself and the instant our eyes locked and I just about lost any control I had. There was something in her eyes, Carlisle. It changed my desire into something wild and almost uncontrollable,” Edward کہا softly. He was stroking my arm, a gentle brush of his fingers along my skin. I waited for that overwhelming urge to cripple me again, but nothing came. Was it just a product of stress like Edward had thought?
“So, until آپ had made eye contact with Bella everything was fine?” Carlisle questioned.
“That’s right,” Edward confirmed.
“Then what happened, Bella?”
“We made our way back to the lunch میز, جدول quickly. We had decided to spend at least part of the lunch گھنٹہ alone so we were going to pretend to eat our lunch and then leave, but then another wave hit me. If Alice hadn’t told me to leave the cafeteria, I probably would have ruined everything.” I felt awful, knowing that my pitiful self control could destroy our new life here in a second. I dropped my head onto Edward’s chest and he kissed the سب, سب سے اوپر of my head again.
This was the sort of touching I had missed all day, the simple things like being able to have his arm around me, a brief touch of skin, of lips. I lifted my head and looked into his eyes, trying to gauge what I saw in them. A small burst of lust washed through me, but it was normal, the gentle pull I always felt when looking into his eyes.
“Before Alice came over to آپ and آپ had your سیکنڈ ‘wave’ as آپ call it, what brought that on?” Carlisle asked curiously.
I would have blushed if I could have. “I let my shield down so Edward could hear my thoughts. When we locked eyes again that’s when it hit. It was so powerful it was almost crippling.”
Something seemed to click in Carlisle’s head, a light of understanding lit up his eyes and he flicked his eyes to Edward. His jaw clenched and his arm tightened around me, obviously he didn’t like what Carlisle was thinking. “Are آپ sure?” he demanded his voice hard and tinged with fear.
“Sure of what? What is he thinking, Edward?” I asked desperately. If he یا Carlisle had an idea of what was going on I wanted to know. I wasn’t some frail little human anymore who had to stand idly سے طرف کی while her vampire family fixed everything for her. I was a member of this family now; I was as strong and capable as any of them. “Edward, tell me.”
Edward was staring at Carlisle, waiting for an answer to his question. He never ignored me unless there was something مزید important going on, but this time it pissed me off. “Carlisle, are آپ sure?” he asked again, but this time with مزید desperation.
“I can’t be sure of anything, but she is exhibiting all of the signs, surely آپ see that,” Carlisle explained patiently.
“All I know is what you’ve told me and what I’ve seen in your memories,” Edward کہا in frustration.
“What are آپ talking about?” I cried in frustration. No one looked at me; they were too focused on the conversation taking place between Edward and Carlisle. I felt like I was invisible in a room full of people who were dissecting me, it was uncomfortable and infuriating.
“I’m not going to say one way یا the other, only time will tell. In the meantime, I’d like آپ to try something,” Carlisle smiled at both of us.
“I’ll do anything آپ ask. I don’t want Bella to suffer,” Edward کہا eagerly.
“Right, because she is the one that had to hunt twice today because آپ چرا لیا, چوری کی every bit of energy she had,” Emmett کہا scornfully. Everyone turned to stare at him in disbelief, was he really that much of an idiot? Hadn’t he already been snapped at سے طرف کی the entire family for being a complete jerk all day?
“Emmett, I hope آپ aren’t entertaining the thought that آپ are invited in our room tonight,” Rosalie کہا acidly.
“Ah, Rose, don’t be like that, baby,” he moaned and tried to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں his arm around her, but she pushed him off.
“Don’t forget you’ve been a complete idiot all day, first with Alice and Jasper and now with Edward and Bella. If آپ can’t respect other people’s relationships آپ can’t enjoy ours,” she کہا delicately and turned her attention back to Carlisle. Emmett swore.
“Carlisle?” Edward prompted him.
“Tomorrow at school I want آپ to act normal around each other. Hold her hand in the hallway; play with her hair, whatever it is that the two of آپ do. I’d like to see if that helps anything. Also, if آپ need to spend lunch…” he paused as though trying to find the right word, “if آپ want to spend lunch alone together I would suggest آپ make those plans before it becomes a necessity.”
“So, آپ want us to be public about our relationship?” Edward asked in confusion.
“You don’t have to shout it from the rooftops,” Carlisle کہا with a soft smile. “I just think Bella might have better control of herself if she knew she could touch you. That would be one less worry in her day.”
“If that works, does it prove یا disprove your theory?” Edward asked with a calculating look in his eyes.
“Honestly I’m not sure. I’m just hoping to get آپ both through another دن while I think about the possibilities,” he admitted. “If this is what I think it is, Bella, not to mention the rest of the family will be facing a lot of new changes.”
“What are آپ guys talking about?” I stood up, throwing Edward’s hands off me. “I’m sick of آپ guys talking about me like I’m not here!”
Edward’s face fell, his eyes full of worry and fear. He didn’t look like he could answer my سوال so I turned to Carlisle. His eyes were also filled with worry but he had a smile for me. “Bella, I think آپ might be a succubus.”
Chapter Four: Questions
I sat in the living room an گھنٹہ later, Nessie holding my hand on one side and Esme holding my hand on the other. Emmett and Jasper had taken Edward hunting again, Alice had made the decision that keeping Edward and I apart for the moment was probably the best course of action.
“Mom, this isn’t your fault,” Renesmee کہا and smoothed my hair back. I turned to her and I’m sure the agony I felt was present in my eyes.
“Did آپ see him when he left? Did آپ see his eyes?” I couldn’t cry, but I wished I could.
“We aren’t going to do anything یا blame anyone until Carlisle gets home,” Alice said. She was looking out the front window, waiting to announce the boy’s return home. “You can’t blame yourself, Bella. Just because this hasn’t happened before doesn’t mean it’s your fault.”
“Alice, I told آپ something was wrong with me,” I کہا brokenly. “I told آپ that today at school I felt different and Edward tried to jump me in the forest. آپ saw what he looked like before he left, he didn’t want to go. He wanted me even then, when he looked as if he would crumble if someone breathed on him.”
I shook off Esme and Nessie and buried my face in my hands. The guilt tore at me, even when deep down I knew it wasn’t my fault. I couldn’t control my emotions right now; I finally knew what it felt like to be a newborn. It wasn’t bloodlust that was destroying me now; it was another appetite, stronger and مزید powerful than anything I had ever felt before. The problem was that it wasn’t only affecting me; it was affecting the person I loved مزید than anything in my life. I could still feel the hunger coursing through my body, aching for the one person I couldn’t have right now.
I was killing him.
That realization hit me like a crushing blow. I knew I couldn’t really hurt him, no matter what I did he wouldn’t actually die, but somehow I was hurting him. The agony in his eyes was proof that this wasn’t normal. The drastic deterioration of his energy wasn’t normal either. We had spent days on end making love before and never had he needed to hunt مزید than necessary. I, on the other hand, was better than fine. My body surged with adrenaline, much مزید than I knew I had gotten from the hunt with Edward earlier.
I wished Carlisle was here, I needed someone I trusted to tell me what was going on. I needed him to tell me everything was going to work out and things would go back to normal. I hated feeling this helpless.
“Bella, everything is going to be okay,” Jacob told me. He was sitting on the arm of the couch, one arm slung around my daughter’s shoulders. He hadn’t کہا much since Edward had been dragged away سے طرف کی his brothers and I was grateful for that. It was funny, Jacob had always thought Edward would hurt me, but it turned out to be the other way around. It was funny how ironic life was.
“They’re back,” Alice کہا softly, not taking her eyes off the window.
Terror gripped me even as I longed to see Edward’s face. What if he walked in the door and I threw myself at him again? Would I keep hurting him? “Nessie, Esme, don’t let me up unless Alice tells آپ its okay,” I demanded. Neither of them argued with me, instead they each took my hands again and moved just a little closer to me.
“You aren’t going to do anything,” Alice told me, “Your fear has a tight grip on you, it won’t let any other emotion through.” I knew I could trust her, but I didn’t let go of Nessie یا Esme. I needed them for support just as much as I needed them for restraint.
The front door opened and Emmett, Jasper and Edward filed into the living room. One look at Edward told me that he was okay… for now. His eyes met mine and he shot me a grin. “I’m okay,” he promised, knowing instinctively that I had been waiting to hear those exact words.
“You can let her up, she won’t do anything stupid,” Alice کہا softly. I felt the pressure on my hands release and in a سیکنڈ I was at Edward’s side, gazing up into his beloved face. In that moment everyone around us was no longer important. They could have been standing around us in a دائرے, حلقہ and scrutinizing our every word and اقدام but I wouldn’t have noticed them. In that moment it was just us.
“I’m so sorry,” I whispered, not daring to touch him. I was still afraid that if I felt his skin against mine I would lose the fragile hold I had on my self control. Edward didn’t have the same reservations that I did. He snatched me up in a tight hug, crushing me against his chest and pressing a kiss to my forehead.
“This isn’t your fault, Bella. Carlisle will be ہوم soon and I’m sure he will tell us it’s nothing to worry about,” he whispered into my hair. I wasn’t that sure, I couldn’t agree with him that this wasn’t something to worry about. He had been forced to hunt three times in the past two days in order to deal with my new found ardor.
“What if this doesn’t go away? What if I can’t touch آپ anymore without hurting you?” I asked him. This fear was so real to me it was almost paralyzing. Edward was the only thing I had, the only thing I had that was mine and mine alone. I had Renesmee but she belonged to Jacob مزید than anyone else. Edward was mine… and I was terrified to lose any part of our relationship, especially the part that made me feel closer to him than anything else.
He took my face between his hands and touched his forehead to mine. “Whatever happens we will work through it. Nothing is going to take آپ away from me,” he vowed. I felt the stinging sensation in my eyes that meant I was trying to cry, but I had no tears. A choked sob came from my throat and I wrapped my arms around my husband.
“Carlisle will be ہوم in five minutes,” Alice predicted, pulling Edward and I away from our whispered discussion. “I’m sure everything is going to be okay. I see all of us going to school tomorrow.”
I instantly felt better knowing that whatever was wrong wouldn’t keep us from going about our daily lives. Alice wouldn’t lie to me about something this important, so I knew without a doubt that either Carlisle would have some answers, یا this burning need inside me would settle down a bit. Either way I relaxed in Edward’s arms, truly feeling them for the first time since they arrived back from the hunting trip. Surprisingly the touch didn’t bring on the intense need that had been triggered all دن just سے طرف کی a brush of his hand against mine. Maybe it was because this touch was purely comforting and not sexual at all. Whatever it was, I was glad to just have him in my arms for the moment.
We heard Carlisle’s Mercedes coming up the drive and every head turned toward the گیراج door where he would be coming through any moment. The only sound in the room were Jacob and Renesmee’s beating hearts and though they were steady and calm I couldn’t convince myself to be. The moment the گیراج door opened I felt the insane urge to run to Carlisle and throw myself into his arms and sob, just like I would have done with my own father. I fought the urge and clung to Edward even tighter.
When Carlisle walked inside and saw everyone’s tense faces he raised an eyebrow. “I take it we didn’t have a good دن at school.”
In unison everyone turned to look at Edward and I and the expressions on their faces ranged from sympathy, to confusion and in Emmett’s case humor. Jasper turned a disapproving glare on Emmett and my biggest brother just shrugged. “You have to admit it’s kind of funny,” he laughed, “Bella must be a total freak in the sack…”
Emmett didn’t get to finish that thought because snarls erupted around the room. I was shocked to see that Renesmee and Alice were just as furious as Edward and I at the way Emmett was treating our situation. It wasn’t humorous at all. “You are such a bastard,” Alice snapped at him. Emmett rolled his eyes and turned to Rosalie, but he wasn’t getting any sympathy from her either.
“Don’t look at me, I don’t find this funny at all,” she کہا snippily and walked across the room to sit اگلے to Nessie and Jacob.
“Who is in the dog house now?” Alice asked with a satisfied smile. Emmett growled at her and Carlisle stepped in between them.
“What is going on here? I don’t understand,” he turned to Edward and me, “I assume this has to do with the two of you.”
I hung my head guiltily, I felt like I was being reprimanded even though I knew Carlisle wouldn’t do that. Edward pressed a kiss to my forehead before turning to talk to our family patriarch. “Bella and I have had an interesting day,” he کہا and I snorted.
“Interesting isn’t the right word,” I corrected and looked up at Carlisle. He was gazing at Edward and me, concern evident in his eyes. “It started at school…”
I had to give it to Carlisle; he didn’t even bat an eye as I explained everything that had happened starting from the moment in the lunch room where Alice had practically thrown Edward and me outside. I didn’t skip over the fact that my control gradually weakened through the remainder of the دن and سے طرف کی the time school let out I was a complete wreck. I described our run through the woods and how after we had stopped to spend some time alone together Edward seemed exhausted. When I mentioned the fact that Edward had to hunt again Carlisle finally interrupted me.
“What do آپ mean he had to hunt again? We all hunted yesterday,” he was confused, that wasn’t a good sign for me.
“It was like his energy just drained out,” my voice sounded small and scared. I didn’t like it at all.
“Bella, did آپ have the same problem?” Carlisle asked in what I had come to call his doctor voice. He was analyzing and I was grateful.
“No, I actually felt مزید alive than I have in years. The problem was when I tried to get Edward to hunt he didn’t want to. He was still…” I paused, looking for a word that didn’t sound crude.
“A horny little vampire,” Emmett کہا with a self satisfied smile on his face. I snarled at him, baring my teeth. He chuckled but didn’t respond to my anger.
“Anyway,” I went on, gritting my teeth so as not to hit my پسندیدہ brother, “He مزید یا less attacked me, he seemed out of his mind. I got him to hunt and he seemed to be in a much better mood when we headed back home. Once we were back inside… well, the same thing happened again. I felt incredible, almost as though my دل was going to start beating again. Edward on the other hand had to go hunting again. The guys just got back before آپ did.”
“Bella, I’m going to ask آپ and Edward some very important questions, but they may be embarrassing in front of the others, would آپ like everyone to step out?” Carlisle spoke only to me, but I knew everyone else was hanging on my answer. I knew they were all worried about us.
“If Emmett says a single word I’m throwing him out of the house myself,” I grumbled. The tension in the room dropped as soon as I agreed they could all stay. Renesmee smiled at me and Jacob made a face.
“No offense, Bells, but I would prefer not to hear about your love life. If what I heard earlier is any indication of where this conversation is going, I think I’ll head out now,” Jacob said. He looked uncomfortable and I couldn’t blame him. I didn’t think I would want to sit in a room while he dissected his sex life either.
“Wait for me, I don’t think mom and dad would be comfortable talking about sex with me in the room,” she winked at me and I smiled back at her. She took Jacob’s hand and they left the room, much to my (and most likely Edward’s) relief.
Edward and I sat on the couch, holding each others hands and trying not to look at the room still full of family around us. Carlisle sat on the loveseat with Esme across from us, attempting to smile, but it didn’t make me relax. I was still worried that something was really wrong, even with Alice’s assurances that we were all going to school tomorrow.
“Bella, I need آپ to tell me the exact moment آپ started noticing that something was wrong,” Carlisle prompted.
I took a deep breath, مزید to relax myself than anything. “When Edward told me we couldn’t touch each other like normal,” I shot a glance at Emmett and corrected myself before he could make a joke, “He کہا we shouldn’t walk around holding hands یا any of the small things we did unconsciously throughout our normal days.”
“That frustrated you?” Carlisle asked.
“At first it just worried me, but as the morning progressed it got worse and worse. I’m not used to not touching him. Ever since we were first together we were always touching each other in small ways. He would play with my hair یا touch my face, hold my hand. It was as natural for us as breathing is, like a habit we couldn’t control,” I explained.
“So when آپ couldn’t touch him at all آپ began to grow upset?”
I nodded. “As the دن wore on I couldn’t think about anything else, like my desire kind of took control of my head. سے طرف کی the time lunch rolled around I was out of my mind.”
Edward pressed a kiss to the سب, سب سے اوپر of my head and squeezed me into his side. “It’s okay, love, I wasn’t in any better condition,” he reminded me.
“Edward, I’ll ask آپ the same question. When did آپ first notice something wrong?” Carlisle asked him and I could tell his curiosity was growing with each word we spoke.
“I noticed Bella’s irritation at lunch, before then I didn’t feel any different than usual,” he replied and then smiled at me. “Of course, I’m always eager to be with Bella.”
“But at lunch, this was something different than normal?” Carlisle asked. Edward gazed at me thoughtfully before answering; I figured he was trying to understand it himself.
“It was different. This wasn’t a desire any longer, it was a compulsion. We were standing in the lunch line and Alice was thinking about Bella, worrying that something was wrong with her. I turned to look at her myself and the instant our eyes locked and I just about lost any control I had. There was something in her eyes, Carlisle. It changed my desire into something wild and almost uncontrollable,” Edward کہا softly. He was stroking my arm, a gentle brush of his fingers along my skin. I waited for that overwhelming urge to cripple me again, but nothing came. Was it just a product of stress like Edward had thought?
“So, until آپ had made eye contact with Bella everything was fine?” Carlisle questioned.
“That’s right,” Edward confirmed.
“Then what happened, Bella?”
“We made our way back to the lunch میز, جدول quickly. We had decided to spend at least part of the lunch گھنٹہ alone so we were going to pretend to eat our lunch and then leave, but then another wave hit me. If Alice hadn’t told me to leave the cafeteria, I probably would have ruined everything.” I felt awful, knowing that my pitiful self control could destroy our new life here in a second. I dropped my head onto Edward’s chest and he kissed the سب, سب سے اوپر of my head again.
This was the sort of touching I had missed all day, the simple things like being able to have his arm around me, a brief touch of skin, of lips. I lifted my head and looked into his eyes, trying to gauge what I saw in them. A small burst of lust washed through me, but it was normal, the gentle pull I always felt when looking into his eyes.
“Before Alice came over to آپ and آپ had your سیکنڈ ‘wave’ as آپ call it, what brought that on?” Carlisle asked curiously.
I would have blushed if I could have. “I let my shield down so Edward could hear my thoughts. When we locked eyes again that’s when it hit. It was so powerful it was almost crippling.”
Something seemed to click in Carlisle’s head, a light of understanding lit up his eyes and he flicked his eyes to Edward. His jaw clenched and his arm tightened around me, obviously he didn’t like what Carlisle was thinking. “Are آپ sure?” he demanded his voice hard and tinged with fear.
“Sure of what? What is he thinking, Edward?” I asked desperately. If he یا Carlisle had an idea of what was going on I wanted to know. I wasn’t some frail little human anymore who had to stand idly سے طرف کی while her vampire family fixed everything for her. I was a member of this family now; I was as strong and capable as any of them. “Edward, tell me.”
Edward was staring at Carlisle, waiting for an answer to his question. He never ignored me unless there was something مزید important going on, but this time it pissed me off. “Carlisle, are آپ sure?” he asked again, but this time with مزید desperation.
“I can’t be sure of anything, but she is exhibiting all of the signs, surely آپ see that,” Carlisle explained patiently.
“All I know is what you’ve told me and what I’ve seen in your memories,” Edward کہا in frustration.
“What are آپ talking about?” I cried in frustration. No one looked at me; they were too focused on the conversation taking place between Edward and Carlisle. I felt like I was invisible in a room full of people who were dissecting me, it was uncomfortable and infuriating.
“I’m not going to say one way یا the other, only time will tell. In the meantime, I’d like آپ to try something,” Carlisle smiled at both of us.
“I’ll do anything آپ ask. I don’t want Bella to suffer,” Edward کہا eagerly.
“Right, because she is the one that had to hunt twice today because آپ چرا لیا, چوری کی every bit of energy she had,” Emmett کہا scornfully. Everyone turned to stare at him in disbelief, was he really that much of an idiot? Hadn’t he already been snapped at سے طرف کی the entire family for being a complete jerk all day?
“Emmett, I hope آپ aren’t entertaining the thought that آپ are invited in our room tonight,” Rosalie کہا acidly.
“Ah, Rose, don’t be like that, baby,” he moaned and tried to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں his arm around her, but she pushed him off.
“Don’t forget you’ve been a complete idiot all day, first with Alice and Jasper and now with Edward and Bella. If آپ can’t respect other people’s relationships آپ can’t enjoy ours,” she کہا delicately and turned her attention back to Carlisle. Emmett swore.
“Carlisle?” Edward prompted him.
“Tomorrow at school I want آپ to act normal around each other. Hold her hand in the hallway; play with her hair, whatever it is that the two of آپ do. I’d like to see if that helps anything. Also, if آپ need to spend lunch…” he paused as though trying to find the right word, “if آپ want to spend lunch alone together I would suggest آپ make those plans before it becomes a necessity.”
“So, آپ want us to be public about our relationship?” Edward asked in confusion.
“You don’t have to shout it from the rooftops,” Carlisle کہا with a soft smile. “I just think Bella might have better control of herself if she knew she could touch you. That would be one less worry in her day.”
“If that works, does it prove یا disprove your theory?” Edward asked with a calculating look in his eyes.
“Honestly I’m not sure. I’m just hoping to get آپ both through another دن while I think about the possibilities,” he admitted. “If this is what I think it is, Bella, not to mention the rest of the family will be facing a lot of new changes.”
“What are آپ guys talking about?” I stood up, throwing Edward’s hands off me. “I’m sick of آپ guys talking about me like I’m not here!”
Edward’s face fell, his eyes full of worry and fear. He didn’t look like he could answer my سوال so I turned to Carlisle. His eyes were also filled with worry but he had a smile for me. “Bella, I think آپ might be a succubus.”
1. dress as tinkerbell and run through the house saying hes a pixie like alice
2. pretend hes a striper and strip for edward on hes piano
3. take alices porche for a joy ride
4.go to school and yell that jasper thinks he is his boyfriend
5. emmett is never allowed to run through the hospital yelling DADDY!
6. emmett is never allowed to tell alice گلابی is not her color
7. emmett is never allowed to drive a school bus
8. یا drive the bus into a lake
9. emmett is never allowed to tell esma that he will go find a new "fake" mom
10. emmett is never allowed to tell jasper texans are hicks
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*You need bigger hight heels
*I Put all your new clothes on the roof
*Jasper told me that آپ are not good at sex
*you would be perfect for the role of the dwarf in Snow White
*Jasper told me he thinks I'm hot
*Esme told me that I'm her پسندیدہ daughter
*Your power is useless, the visions change
*I think Jane is taller than you
*Your hair looks like a جھاڑو
*Bella hates you
*What was your human mother name?
*I donated your new clothes to Jacob and Sam
*Edward told me that when Charlie first saw آپ he thought that آپ were Bella's 8 years old cousin
*Last night Emmett and I had sex in your car and broke it
1. آپ wake up in the middle of the night to find him climbing through your window to watch آپ sleep.
2. He hates your dog, and all dogs for that matter.
3. He looks at آپ like you're somethig to eat.
4. He frequently tells آپ how nice آپ smell.
5. His parents mysteriously let him ditch school on sunny days just to go CAMPING!
6. He stops a وین from almost crushing آپ to death with his برداشت, ریچھ hands.
7. He can bounce fruit from his feet like a soccer ball (apples are his specialty).
8. He calls آپ مکڑی monkey and runs around with آپ on his back.
9. He seems to know what everyone is thinking.
10. He claims the reason his eyes change color is because of "the fluorescence".
2. He hates your dog, and all dogs for that matter.
3. He looks at آپ like you're somethig to eat.
4. He frequently tells آپ how nice آپ smell.
5. His parents mysteriously let him ditch school on sunny days just to go CAMPING!
6. He stops a وین from almost crushing آپ to death with his برداشت, ریچھ hands.
7. He can bounce fruit from his feet like a soccer ball (apples are his specialty).
8. He calls آپ مکڑی monkey and runs around with آپ on his back.
9. He seems to know what everyone is thinking.
10. He claims the reason his eyes change color is because of "the fluorescence".