ارے guys, when posting this on FanFiction.net I decided to change the ending a little bit, add مزید on. Just in case آپ didn't want to be left out I thought I would post it again with the corrections.
I opened my eyes slowly, noticing the time was 5:34. Early. I closed my eyes again rolling over to my other side. I could sleep for another گھنٹہ before I had to get up and start my morning routine for school. I could hear Charlie moving around the house downstairs, probably making himself breakfast, and then I smelled burnt toast. Yup. Definitely making himself breakfast. I turned a few times trying to get comfortable when I heard the rocking chair in the corner creak. I peeked through my eyelashes holding my hand over my eyes, shielding the light coming in through the window. It wasn't at all who I expected.
“Morning.” Alice whispered.
I sat up, leaned against the headboard and rubbed my eyes. I definitely wasn't going to get the extra گھنٹہ of sleep. Alice got out of the chair and sat on the end of my بستر looking uncomfortable.
“I'd miss آپ ya know.” She said, looking anywhere but directly at me
My دل dropped.
“Alice...” I began.
“I know, I know, trust me, I know better than anyone. Things can change, and آپ haven't made up your mind yet. I'm just telling آپ that I would miss آپ if آپ left, but I understand why.” She mumbled in what seemed to be one big run on sentence.
I didn't want to ask Alice about the future right now, I didn't really want to think about the future anymore. My head was aching, not to mention my hand, and I barely got any sleep. I pulled the covers off of me and stumbled onto the cool floor. At this point I didn't know what to say to her. She just followed me with her eyes as I walked to my dresser and grabbed the bottle of Asprin. I opened the bottle and took two pills. A little rough to get down without water. The water that Edward would usually place beside my بستر every morning.
“Do آپ always talk like that in your sleep” She asked as she stared at my bed. My blankets and sheets were all messed up from tossing and turning.
“Depends I guess. I don't normally kick the sheets off.” I کہا as I looked at the mess, noticing one of my pillows was on the floor beside my bed.
“Well..” She کہا slowly. “I better head back before Edward realizes I lied about going to buy stamps” She کہا as she turned towards the window.
“Alice... I...um..would appreciate it if آپ kept your visions to yourself, until I figure out what I need to do” I said, trying to avoid eye contact. I could tell she wasn't happy about my conflicting futures. It's hard enough when آپ feel like one decision would not only hurt the one person آپ love most, but also his family, one آپ loved as if it were your own.
“Will do, see آپ in a bit” She smiled slightly as she stepped out the window.
I was alone again. I looked around the room, finally realizing that Edward didn't come at all during the night. I glanced at the clock again, 5:56. Realizing that there was no point in going back to بستر for half an hour, I grabbed my towel from the back of the door and headed for the bathroom. The hot water stung the cuts in my hand but it was bearable. Washing my hair with one hand was somewhat of a challenge that I didn't even bother with conditioner. Normally I would take an extra long shower, considering it was still early, but the cuts in my hand we're hurting even مزید now that the soap had made its way into fresh wounds. I finished quickly and shut off the taps. Stepped out of the tub and into my towel. I took a hand towel off the hook and wiped away the steam on the mirror. I stood there for a while, looking myself over in the mirror. My eyes were still a little puffy, and I was going to need a bit of foundation to cover up the huge black circles under them. I found myself thinking of last night, the glass, the cuts, Jasper. Edward. The pain, not just mine, but his. My eyes started watering, it didn't seem like I could control this anymore. I wiped my wet eyes quickly and turned the cold water on. I leaned over and splashed my face twice before I looked back up. Looking at myself again I forced my frown into a slight smile and headed back to my room.
I removed my towel and quickly dressed in some old jeans and a navy blue tee. “Tight.” I thought to myself as I pulled at the bottom of the شرٹ, قمیض trying to stretch it out a bit. “I'm never letting Charlie do my laundry again” I chuckled to myself as I pulled off the tee and grabbed a burgundy one from my closet, knowing that I haven't worn it in a couple months, there was no chance of Charlie cleaning it.
I heard the door of Charlie's کروزر shutting and glanced out the window as he pulled out of the driveway. I grabbed my hair brush and started working through the mess. “Next time, use conditioner, no matter how painful” I thought out loud as I struggled with the knots. After a good amount of brushing I gave up and just threw my hair into a ٹٹو tail. I quickly fumbled with the foundation and dabbed a little under each eye. It looked a little bit better, but آپ could still tell I didn't sleep much. I gathered my کتابیں and stuffed them into my backpack and headed downstairs. I glanced at the clock again while heading for the cupboard beside the fridge. 6:33. I grabbed a box of cereal and a bowl and set it on the counter. I opened the fridge and took out the milk, poured some into my cereal and put it back in the fridge. As I closed the door I noticed the picture of me and Edward before prom was crooked. I looked a bit uncomfortable in the picture. Edward had this huge grin on his face. I quickly straightened it out and turned my back to it, heading for the میز, جدول with my breakfast. I sat there staring at the clock while I mindlessly stuffed my mouth with cereal.
“BEEP!” the sound of a car horn startled me and I choked on my cereal, I coughed repeatedly as I walked to the window. Edwards Volvo was sitting in the driveway beside my truck. I was actually expecting to drive myself to school this morning, so I quickly put my dishes in the sink, I'd clean them later. I grabbed my backpack and checked my reflection in the mirror سے طرف کی the door. Let go of my bottom lip that I was biting, turned my stiff expression into a smile again and opened the front door. As I walked towards the car I could hear Edward and Alice talking.
“Whatever would آپ need stamps for?” Edward asked accusingly.
“To mail something..” Alice answered as she glanced at me. “Morning Bella” She کہا with a smile.
I climbed into the back نشست and caught Edwards face in the rear view mirror. His eyes were still black, but he gave me a loving smile. My دل wrenched. I smiled back, trying to appear cheerful.
“Alice...why are آپ reciting the Declaration of Human Rights?” Edward questioned looking at his sister intently as he pulled out of the driveway
“Personal Interest” Alice replied as she twisted a piece of hair, staring out the window.
Edward just stared at his sister, who refused to look at him. He glanced once مزید back at me, and the moment he caught my eye I looked down at my fidgeting hands.
"Whats going on?" He asked both of us. I could feel my eyes start to water up again. Alice turned to face me and gave me a sad look, if her دل still worked, I'm sure it would be breaking right now.
"I'm sorry Bella, I can't" She کہا as she grabbed one of my hands, giving it a light squeeze and looked at Edward.
"Oh" Edward said, understanding, listening to Alice's unspoken words. He glanced back in the mirror at me, with the most دل breaking expression, the tears wouldn't stop. I couldn't breathe.
I opened my eyes slowly, noticing the time was 5:34. Early. I closed my eyes again rolling over to my other side. I could sleep for another گھنٹہ before I had to get up and start my morning routine for school. I could hear Charlie moving around the house downstairs, probably making himself breakfast, and then I smelled burnt toast. Yup. Definitely making himself breakfast. I turned a few times trying to get comfortable when I heard the rocking chair in the corner creak. I peeked through my eyelashes holding my hand over my eyes, shielding the light coming in through the window. It wasn't at all who I expected.
“Morning.” Alice whispered.
I sat up, leaned against the headboard and rubbed my eyes. I definitely wasn't going to get the extra گھنٹہ of sleep. Alice got out of the chair and sat on the end of my بستر looking uncomfortable.
“I'd miss آپ ya know.” She said, looking anywhere but directly at me
My دل dropped.
“Alice...” I began.
“I know, I know, trust me, I know better than anyone. Things can change, and آپ haven't made up your mind yet. I'm just telling آپ that I would miss آپ if آپ left, but I understand why.” She mumbled in what seemed to be one big run on sentence.
I didn't want to ask Alice about the future right now, I didn't really want to think about the future anymore. My head was aching, not to mention my hand, and I barely got any sleep. I pulled the covers off of me and stumbled onto the cool floor. At this point I didn't know what to say to her. She just followed me with her eyes as I walked to my dresser and grabbed the bottle of Asprin. I opened the bottle and took two pills. A little rough to get down without water. The water that Edward would usually place beside my بستر every morning.
“Do آپ always talk like that in your sleep” She asked as she stared at my bed. My blankets and sheets were all messed up from tossing and turning.
“Depends I guess. I don't normally kick the sheets off.” I کہا as I looked at the mess, noticing one of my pillows was on the floor beside my bed.
“Well..” She کہا slowly. “I better head back before Edward realizes I lied about going to buy stamps” She کہا as she turned towards the window.
“Alice... I...um..would appreciate it if آپ kept your visions to yourself, until I figure out what I need to do” I said, trying to avoid eye contact. I could tell she wasn't happy about my conflicting futures. It's hard enough when آپ feel like one decision would not only hurt the one person آپ love most, but also his family, one آپ loved as if it were your own.
“Will do, see آپ in a bit” She smiled slightly as she stepped out the window.
I was alone again. I looked around the room, finally realizing that Edward didn't come at all during the night. I glanced at the clock again, 5:56. Realizing that there was no point in going back to بستر for half an hour, I grabbed my towel from the back of the door and headed for the bathroom. The hot water stung the cuts in my hand but it was bearable. Washing my hair with one hand was somewhat of a challenge that I didn't even bother with conditioner. Normally I would take an extra long shower, considering it was still early, but the cuts in my hand we're hurting even مزید now that the soap had made its way into fresh wounds. I finished quickly and shut off the taps. Stepped out of the tub and into my towel. I took a hand towel off the hook and wiped away the steam on the mirror. I stood there for a while, looking myself over in the mirror. My eyes were still a little puffy, and I was going to need a bit of foundation to cover up the huge black circles under them. I found myself thinking of last night, the glass, the cuts, Jasper. Edward. The pain, not just mine, but his. My eyes started watering, it didn't seem like I could control this anymore. I wiped my wet eyes quickly and turned the cold water on. I leaned over and splashed my face twice before I looked back up. Looking at myself again I forced my frown into a slight smile and headed back to my room.
I removed my towel and quickly dressed in some old jeans and a navy blue tee. “Tight.” I thought to myself as I pulled at the bottom of the شرٹ, قمیض trying to stretch it out a bit. “I'm never letting Charlie do my laundry again” I chuckled to myself as I pulled off the tee and grabbed a burgundy one from my closet, knowing that I haven't worn it in a couple months, there was no chance of Charlie cleaning it.
I heard the door of Charlie's کروزر shutting and glanced out the window as he pulled out of the driveway. I grabbed my hair brush and started working through the mess. “Next time, use conditioner, no matter how painful” I thought out loud as I struggled with the knots. After a good amount of brushing I gave up and just threw my hair into a ٹٹو tail. I quickly fumbled with the foundation and dabbed a little under each eye. It looked a little bit better, but آپ could still tell I didn't sleep much. I gathered my کتابیں and stuffed them into my backpack and headed downstairs. I glanced at the clock again while heading for the cupboard beside the fridge. 6:33. I grabbed a box of cereal and a bowl and set it on the counter. I opened the fridge and took out the milk, poured some into my cereal and put it back in the fridge. As I closed the door I noticed the picture of me and Edward before prom was crooked. I looked a bit uncomfortable in the picture. Edward had this huge grin on his face. I quickly straightened it out and turned my back to it, heading for the میز, جدول with my breakfast. I sat there staring at the clock while I mindlessly stuffed my mouth with cereal.
“BEEP!” the sound of a car horn startled me and I choked on my cereal, I coughed repeatedly as I walked to the window. Edwards Volvo was sitting in the driveway beside my truck. I was actually expecting to drive myself to school this morning, so I quickly put my dishes in the sink, I'd clean them later. I grabbed my backpack and checked my reflection in the mirror سے طرف کی the door. Let go of my bottom lip that I was biting, turned my stiff expression into a smile again and opened the front door. As I walked towards the car I could hear Edward and Alice talking.
“Whatever would آپ need stamps for?” Edward asked accusingly.
“To mail something..” Alice answered as she glanced at me. “Morning Bella” She کہا with a smile.
I climbed into the back نشست and caught Edwards face in the rear view mirror. His eyes were still black, but he gave me a loving smile. My دل wrenched. I smiled back, trying to appear cheerful.
“Alice...why are آپ reciting the Declaration of Human Rights?” Edward questioned looking at his sister intently as he pulled out of the driveway
“Personal Interest” Alice replied as she twisted a piece of hair, staring out the window.
Edward just stared at his sister, who refused to look at him. He glanced once مزید back at me, and the moment he caught my eye I looked down at my fidgeting hands.
"Whats going on?" He asked both of us. I could feel my eyes start to water up again. Alice turned to face me and gave me a sad look, if her دل still worked, I'm sure it would be breaking right now.
"I'm sorry Bella, I can't" She کہا as she grabbed one of my hands, giving it a light squeeze and looked at Edward.
"Oh" Edward said, understanding, listening to Alice's unspoken words. He glanced back in the mirror at me, with the most دل breaking expression, the tears wouldn't stop. I couldn't breathe.
People wonder how I feel about being able to predict the future. Is it fun? Is it a curse?
Sometimes I stand for hours looking outside my window trying to figure out a way to prevent what I see as inevitable. The sun sets, then after a while, rises again. I still stand there, motionless, thinking, wondering.
Finally, I grab my scarf, لپیٹ, لفاف کریں it around my neck, then go out with a smile and see my beloved standing there waiting for me,patiently. Jasper knows my turmoil.
I've learned to hide most of my emotions so those closest to me can't always see the dark clouds in my eyes as I see a vision. My smile hides alot. So, is it fun? No, but it's a gift that I hope I can use to help those that I love.
Sometimes I stand for hours looking outside my window trying to figure out a way to prevent what I see as inevitable. The sun sets, then after a while, rises again. I still stand there, motionless, thinking, wondering.
Finally, I grab my scarf, لپیٹ, لفاف کریں it around my neck, then go out with a smile and see my beloved standing there waiting for me,patiently. Jasper knows my turmoil.
I've learned to hide most of my emotions so those closest to me can't always see the dark clouds in my eyes as I see a vision. My smile hides alot. So, is it fun? No, but it's a gift that I hope I can use to help those that I love.
Cali
