Are آپ ever embarrassed to be a پرستار of something?

I know it's a funny سوال to ask, but I was wondering if anyone gets what I mean. Like something آپ love, think about it a lot, are undeniably a پرستار of it in all but name- because for whatever reason, you're too embarrassed to call yourself a پرستار of it. For me there's two things:

Taylor Swift- While I don't like all of her music, there's a lot of it that I love. I love her early country sound and I also love her حالیہ album "Lover." Her songs get stuck in my head all the time and it's not even annoying. The reason I'm embarrassed to be a پرستار of her is basically because she's a pop star. In my black and white mind, pop stars aren't meant to be good. I'm scared people are going to judge me for liking such a mainstream but also somehow controversial artist. That people are going to think I'm some child who knows nothing about music. People who I agree with on a lot of points- I have to disagree on this. Also my entire family dislikes her- which makes me feel like I'm naughty to like her یا something.

Disney Pixar Cars- What makes it even worse is that I didn't even see it as a kid. I first saw it at almost 18 when my then almost 7 سال old brother made me watch it because he was obsessed. And I ended up thinking about it a lot at night. Sometimes still do. I wish I could say I forgot about it in time but- not even that long ago, I saw a boy with a Lightning McQueen شرٹ, قمیض and ٹوپی and I lost focus and bumped into someone. It even once got to the point where my brother once had to tell me to "stop saying ka-chow." Please don't judge me. I know it's a kids' movie and I don't want to be a پرستار of something my brother's crazy about. That's why I'm embarrassed to like it.

Don't share if you're too embarrassed. I only started this because I couldn't find a سوال like this and for some reason I wanted to share what I was embarrassed about- even though I knew people might judge me. So I really hope the fact that this exists doesn't upset any of you.