people tell me they love me, but do they really love me, یا do they hate me, i feel worthless and i dont no why but there was this person that i loved with all my دل and he broke up with me i sit here wondering why he did break up with me did i do somethin یا did he just not love me like i loved him,i sit in my house lookin at a دیوار crying ppl dont no i cry because i hide it so no one knows thats how i am though, i dont tell my sister about my life because she says its just a screen and the ppl behind the screen r just ppl that u dont no, but when i look at my screen i see ppl and i rlly no them when they talk to me it feels like i no then in real life. I feel pain everyday my دل stops beating then it goes fast then it stops again i dont no how to keep it a steady beat. i see darkness everytime i look at someone because they dont get me like my family gets me. i look in ppls eyes, all i see is evil and pain but when i look at my family i see somethin differnt, wondering why i see love but not evil there is one family memeber i hate the most thats my cosuin i dont talk about it much because it makes me cry so i keep it hiden in my mind but how can u when u feel it.
In my life i grew up in pain a agony. I was only 2 یا 3 when i was first hit. then i got hit again over and over. another time i was hit was when i didn't take a شاور the morning after i took a shower. i was late 4 school and had cuts and bruses, one went from my shoulder to the middle of my upper arm. no one asked what happened beacause no one cares what happens to me. They wouldn't even care if i died. my dad even کہا "if آپ died i would want to know right away because then i would go buy a boat" (that is what he کہا because if i died he would get all the money from insurence) even when i broke my leg my dad hit my leg on the میز, جدول 3 times then took me to the e.r. it turned in to surgery. i was in a wheelchair and on cruches for 3 in 1\2 months. now i have a scar that goes from my left ankle to just below my knee. now i didn't cry because i dont care to cry.(i do cry but rarly) My life sucks worse every دن and i have been planing to run away. I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!!!
Wow its like been 5 years since ive been gone..i miss my.family on here..im srry I lefy but I.just needed time I guess I needed 5 years..im happy now..i have changed sa lot.i am now 17 years old im turning 18 this year..my past is behind me..welcome to my bright future with my family and friends..i hope that my old دوستوں come back on because I miss them tones..hope ur all not mad at me cause I love u.all very much
Ok so I کہا I would never leave u guys but life wad rough for me I have had.ups and my.downs..im growing from my mistakes everyday..im.healthy I have a.healthy life..and im so happy that some of u that r on my fb helped me through so much shit these 5 years gone..my life is on here and I will never ever let anyone go..im here for now.dont know for how long but im here.
Ok so I کہا I would never leave u guys but life wad rough for me I have had.ups and my.downs..im growing from my mistakes everyday..im.healthy I have a.healthy life..and im so happy that some of u that r on my fb helped me through so much shit these 5 years gone..my life is on here and I will never ever let anyone go..im here for now.dont know for how long but im here.
Not a بادل up in the sky
And then it starts to rain
My defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around
So open and exposed
But I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my troubles
When you're broken
In a Million little pieces
And your tryin'
But آپ can't hold on any more
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't آپ stop believin' in your self
When you're broken
Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat آپ up
Hittin' walls and gettin' scars
Only makes آپ who آپ are
No matter how much your دل is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah
When you're broken
In a Million little pieces
And your tryin'
But آپ can't hold on any more
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't آپ stop believin' in your self
When you're broken
Better days are gonna find آپ once again
Every piece will find it's place
When you're broken
wants to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even tho her دل is broken and the 1 who always brightens your دن even tho she couldn't brighten her own i dont care about my days i care about my دوستوں days and how there doing fuck my life and my days they dont matter anyway counting the days donw as i go.
I'm gonna sit alone in a quiet room and cry until I cant cry no more. I am tired of all the pain inside and I am tired of all the tears falling from my eyes.im tired of bleeding im tired of life im tired of living im tired of fakers im tired of crying lonely with no one
is having one of those nights where she just wants someone to hold her close and tell her it's gonna be alright want someone to tell me how much they love me and how much they need me and how much they want me
When I need آپ the most
Why don't آپ take my hand
I want to be close
Help me when I am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong
So,take my hand and walk with me,
دکھائیں me what to be
I need آپ to set me free
Where are آپ now...
Where are آپ now
Now that I'm half grown
Why are we far apart
I feel all alone
Where are آپ now
When nothing is going right
Where are آپ now
I can't see the light
So take my hand and walk with me
دکھائیں me what to be
I need آپ to set me free, yeah yeah
I need you, to need me
Can't آپ see me,
How could آپ leave me
My دل is half empty
Im not whole when your not with me
I want آپ here with me
To guide me, hold me, and love me now
Where are آپ now
Where are آپ nowSo take my hand and walk with me
دکھائیں me what to be
I need آپ to set me free,