Song: Katy Perry – Thinking of آپ (though some words are changed to fit the storyline)
AN: I've written a few oneshots of Brucas in Fanfiction.net but this is my first time posting one at this site. I hope آپ guys like it.
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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an سیب, ایپل hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
Everybody has always compared my relationship with Brooke and Peyton. Time and time again, people have شدہ تبصرہ that Peyton suits me مزید instead of Brooke. Nonetheless, both of them meant a lot to me. Though, during junior سال I knew it was Brooke who had a hold on my heart. Granted I'm married to Peyton and we have a daughter, but Brooke still has a part of me I've never دیا to anyone else.
You کہا اقدام on
Where do I go
I guess سیکنڈ best
Is all I will know
When آپ کہا آپ didn't love me anymore, I was crushed. At first, I couldn't believe your feelings for me had faded but after hanging out with Peyton, I knew I had chosen her over آپ سے طرف کی spending every spare moment I had with her. The night we won the Championship game, it was آپ that I wanted to spend it with. However, after seeing آپ pushing me towards her, I realized that I cannot be with آپ unless I explored the feelings between Peyton and me. After all I have put آپ through; I guess I deserve to be with someone who is سیکنڈ best to you.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What آپ would do if
آپ were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Every time I'm with her, I imagine that it's آپ I'm with. When I get up, I picture آپ beside me. Your brunette locks fanning your face, your mesmerizing soulful eyes looking up at me and that infectious grin that brings out those two dimples I love so much. However, when I see her beside me, I'm disappointed to see yellow curls and limpid green eyes staring back at me.
When I see her there, I can't help but wish it was آپ that I had married and it is آپ who is the mother of my child. Do not get me wrong, I love Sawyer but I had always pictured having a kid that looks like آپ with my personality. That way, I would be able to have a piece of آپ with me always.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
آپ کہا there's
Tons of مچھلی in the water
So the waters I will test
I never thought I would fall for you. When I first knew you, I heard that آپ were nothing مزید than a party girl. However, after getting to know you, I recognize that there was مزید to Brooke Davis that one sees. آپ were unlike anyone I have ever known. آپ were fun and cheery and yet, at the same time آپ were vulnerable and insecure. I love learning the different sides of آپ and I'm forever grateful that آپ showed me the real you.
I was devastated when آپ pushed me towards Peyton. Granted, I understand آپ did it to help me. سے طرف کی exploring a relationship with Peyton, it removed any doubts that آپ and I were not meant to be as it showed me how much آپ were truly the one for me. Although we aren't together, I have never stopped loving you. People say that The Unkindness of Ravens and The Comet are about my love for Peyton and they are wrong.
Unkindness is about my relationship with both of آپ and the loss I felt over Keith while The Comet is actually my تفصیل of how آپ came into my life. I'm sorry for being such a coward that I cannot blurt out the truth. The honest truth is Peyton doesn't mean that much to me the way آپ do. I made my بستر when I chose her and now I've no choice but to lie in it.
She kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
She pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Whenever I'm with her, I'm thinking of you. When we kiss, I picture آپ instead. At times it seems we're passionate for each other but that's far from the truth as all that fills my head is آپ and no else. I'm sorry that I fell into her plans. I knew in senior سال she had feelings for me but I brushed it aside hoping it would never be revealed. How wrong was I when it blew up in my face and I loss آپ in the process.
The point is I see myself as a hero. Thus, I'm a sucker for saving people. Peyton knows this and she puts herself in these kinds of situations since she knows I will always save her. Therefore, no matter how hard I try to pull away, she has the ability to suck me right back in.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What آپ would do if
آپ were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let آپ go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think آپ should know
Everyone seems to think that آپ were سیکنڈ best compared to her and they are wrong. You've always been the first choice. But, I had screwed it up with آپ too many times that I knew I didn't deserve another chance. I wanted so badly to call آپ at the airport but I was scared that آپ would reject my advances. Guess I'm a wimp. For so long, Ive acted that آپ were سیکنڈ best when in actuality آپ aren't.
Every دن I think about what would have happened if I was honest with آپ from the beginning, starting with the kiss in the library. Sometimes, I wish I hadn't been so stupid. How could I let آپ go after getting آپ back in senior year? I promised myself I would not hurt آپ when we got back together and yet I did it again.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What آپ would do if
آپ were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't آپ walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no مزید mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
When I see آپ with him, I get jealous. He has the luxury of being with آپ when I've none. Sometimes, I wish آپ would realize that I've never stopped loving آپ and آپ would come and declare your love for me. آپ know the last time we کہا I love you, I meant it as مزید than a friend. I prayed that آپ would hear it that way but instead آپ replied the same, like آپ meant it as a friend too.
I long to have آپ in my arms like before. Nowadays, آپ look at him the way آپ use to do with me and it hurts me to see آپ looking at him that way. People say that آپ were سیکنڈ best for me. But, that is clearly far from the truth. It is I who settle for سیکنڈ best and in the process I became سیکنڈ best to him.
