WARNING: Somewhat depressing. If آپ do not want to read my thoughts, don't look any further and press the back button.
The dynamic of Damon/Bonnie has in all honesty, never been easy for me to support openly. Why? Because when I do openly support Bamon, I never feel comfortable. The ultimate truth is that when it comes to Damon/Bonnie in both the کتابیں and on the show, I have gone through a bit of a rollercoaster ride in terms of my hope and faith in them. I know that many of آپ Bamonators are not surprised سے طرف کی this whatsoever, but it's because I am primarily a rather pessimistic person سے طرف کی heart. I'm a certified pessimist and I'm cynical. Hence, why I feel the way I do especially if I see something negative about Bamon. For me, shipping Bamon has been all easy rainbows for me. I have gone through various different feelings, thoughts and emotions when it comes to supporting them. Now whether that's a good thing یا not, I'm not sure. I'm thinking that part of the reason why I have gone through such a rollercoaster ride when it comes to Damon/Bonnie is because I'm such an emotional and passionate person سے طرف کی nature (as آپ can tell). And Bamon, believe it یا not, is a really ....passionate and yes, controversial ship, especially within the TVD fandom. I'm not going to lie, it is what it is. But the pairing and dynamic of Damon/Bonnie is talked about. The sad reality is that most of the talk about Bamon happens to be negative. And آپ know what? It deeply hurts me and it makes me lose faith and confidence. But when it comes down to it, I don't think that it's Bamon, THE DYNAMIC/COUPLE, that makes me lose all my hope, faith and optimism. I think it's all of the outside influence surrounding Bamon that makes me lose hope and faith. I'm one of those shippers where things that people say outside of my ship in which I support, deeply affect me. Negative تبصرے about something that I support indefinitely make me lose any hope and faith. Now, when it comes to Stelena, I've had my ups and downs from time to time, but in all honesty, I haven't had as many with Stelena. I think part of the major reason why this is so is because Stelena is an actual solid couple. I know that they are there, they are a stamp. With Damon and Bonnie on the other hand, I feel like they are a future ship, while Stefan/Elena are a current ship. Even Delena is مزید of a current ship then Bamon. The reason why I get the way I do is because sometimes, I lack patience. The only couple یا ship in which I had any patience for was Clark/Lois on Smallville. Even another one of my fave couples, Dan/Blair from Gossip Girl, would be considered somewhat of a "future ship" but I guess it's different for me when it comes to them, because in all honesty, I didn't ship Dair from the very beginning of Gossip Girl. I didn't even expect them to be romantically put together on the show. But then I saw so much potential between them in season 3 and I knew that I was in love with Dair. The مزید interactions that Dan/Blair had on the show, the مزید enthusiastic and confident I became in their potential. Until season 4 happened, Dair began to become explored to it's upmost potential and I felt so confident in them and I was so optimistic about their prospects as a dynamic. And even now, I'm so optimistic and hopeful that Dair will have such an amazing and epic relationship in season 5. I feel like season 5 of Gossip Girl will literally be Dair season.
I know that Dair has nothing to do with Bamon, but in my opinion, I feel like Dair and Bamon are very similar. The difference is that I have been shipping Bamon since the books, I already saw their potential long before the دکھائیں ever aired. So, I already knew about the Bamon dynamic and their potential long before this دکھائیں started. Even though Damon/Bonnie on the دکھائیں were so inherently different in terms of characters then the books, I knew I was going to love Bamon on the show; I knew I was going to love their potential. For one, when I saw that Bamon on the دکھائیں would be an interracial dynamic, I was so excited. I knew that it would be different, it would be exotic and they would stand it. But the episode 1x07 Haunted really made me ship them hardcore on the show. When I saw the chemistry between the two in that one scene alone, I literally melted. I knew that they were going to be absolutely amazing on-screen if the writers really had the guts to explore them on the show. And I always کہا to myself, the writers and the دکھائیں HAVE to put them together, it is A MUST in TVD. And even though I knew that this دکھائیں was about a love مثلث to begin with, a part of me was saying constantly to myself that Bamon would be in the background, growing slowly and organically, kind of like the Book Bamon dynamic. I never expected that many scenes between Damon/Bonnie in season 1. In fact, I was really expecting anything at all. But nonetheless, I still managed to get some very good scenes between them in season 1. Then season 2 came and I expected much مزید Bamon scenes. Although I did get some good Bamon scenes, I still felt like the writers chickened out. Not just in terms of Bamon, but in terms of Bonnie as a character. I feel like the دکھائیں treated her like a secondary and non important character, when in reality, I consider Bonnie to be the سیکنڈ heroine of the story. Yet, the دکھائیں constantly treated her like she was not that important, when in fact, Bonnie is the BEST FRIEND of the main protagonist of this series. I just hated the fact that the writers wouldn't actually put time and effort into Bonnie as a character. And it's incredibly frustrating especially as someone who really loves Bonnie. I feel like the writers just don't want to write for Bonnie whatsoever. I feel like they put no effort into her scripts and that they only include her in the دکھائیں when witchy ju-ju magic has to be done for who else? None other then the Salvatore brothers. It's always about Bonnie Bennett serving the Salvatore brothers on the show. She is always kissing their پچھواڑے, گدا and the only reason why Bonnie even does such a thing in the first place is because of the sake of Elena, because her best friend happens to be strongly connected to them (one of the reasons is because Stefan came in Elena's life and is her boyfriend, and because Damon is the brother of the guy whom Elena loves). Because let's face it, if it weren't for Elena, Bonnie wouldn't give a shit about both of the Salvatore brothers (even as someone who ships Bamon, I can admit that). Let's be real here: vampires and witches are natural enemies. And witches don't like being pulled down سے طرف کی vampire problems. So the only reason why Bonnie ha sin any ways helped the Salvatore brothers is because of Elena. When it's all کہا and done, everything on the دکھائیں goes back to Elena Gilbert. The writers of this دکھائیں have failed to prove to me that they view Bonnie as an important and essential character on this show. They constantly say in their interviews how important Bonnie is, with her being the only main witch of the show, but they never prove it in یا through actions. What they say is just words and no produce. They don't give the recognition and attention to Bonnie on the دکھائیں that she really deserves. They just treat her like she is a filler and a servant for Elena and the Salvatore brothers. Because of this, it has also caused me to lose any belief in the Elena/Bonnie friendship. In season 1, I LOVED their friendship. I believed in their friendship. Because in season 1, Elena actually acknowledged that Bonnie was there, that she was her best friend in the world and that she needed her مزید then anything, especially in times of crisis یا in times of grief, یا pain یا heartbreak. But in season 2, it's like the writers of the دکھائیں have just thrown that away and treated Elena/Bonnie's friendship like it's so incredibly one-sided. Because in all honesty, that is what Elena/Bonnie's friendship on the دکھائیں really comes off as: one-sided. It seems like the writers have made Elena ungrateful to Bonnie for all of the things that she has been willing to do for her. BONNIE HAS BEEN WILLING TO SACRIFICE HER OWN LIFE TO KEEP ELENA SAFE. Yet, I feel like even though this is the case, Elena doesn't appreciate that. She treats Bonnie's risky sacrifices for her as if it's nothing and that hurts me. مزید then anything, the friendship and the family dynamics are the most important. And I feel like ever since season 2, the دکھائیں has thrown away and tarnished the Elena/Bonnie friendship and they have managed to replace their friendship with Elena being torn between the Salvatore brothers. When it comes to Elena, EVERYTHING is about the Salvatore brothers. Elena's ordinary life, including the likes of her family, دوستوں and everything else in between that was important to her before she met Stefan and Damon, has gone out the window and it's been seriously taken for granted سے طرف کی Elena. Elena takes her دوستوں and her family for granted, because she's become so inherently selfish in regards to the Salvatore brothers. Her whole life revolves around them. And this bothers me, because it his managed to actually ruin Elena as a character quite a bit. Now, don't get me wrong. I in no way hate Elena Gilbert on the دکھائیں (like I do in the books). In fact, I actually really loved her in season 1 and I thought she was a great heroine and protagonist. However, Elena changed rather dramatically for the worst in season 2. I don't know if it's because of all the shit she went through due to being entangled with the Salvatore brothers but whatever it is, it's changed her as a character a lot. And I'm sympathetic to her, because I know what she's going through and it must be really hard for her. But when it comes to her friendship with Bonnie, I wish I could see that the friendship is not one-sided, that it's mutual. In the episode 2x18 The Last Dance, I got a glimpse of that and I bawled my eyes out when Elena saw Bonnie "dead", but one thing that stuck out for me was when Bonnie asked Elena if she would do the same for her if she possibly had to risk یا sacrifice her life to save Bonnie. Elena hesitated, and that really bothered me. If Bonnie is her best friend in the world, I would have expected her to say yes with certainty, there would be no سوال about it.
Another thing is that when it comes to Bonnie's characterization on the show, I feel like they just threw her together with Jeremy so that she could have a relationship for the sake of having a relationship. I apologize for any Beremy shippers on here but I feel like Beremy was just too rushed to the point where they don't make any sense. Bonnie has known Jeremy forever and all of a sudden, in the exact same season that she got with him, she's already in love with him? This is a guy that she's known forever, since they were kids, someone whom she's never taken notice of. I have always felt like Beremy was created out of desperation just so Bonnie could have a love interest. And it was purely sloppy. Completely and totally sloppy. And this is an example of what I mean when I say that the writers are very sloppy when it comes to the character of Bonnie Bennett. You're probably all wondering what any of what I'm saying has to do with Bamon, but the truth is, it has quite a lot to do with Bamon on the show. How can I expect that Bamon will be explored effectively on the دکھائیں when the دکھائیں constantly treats Bonnie like she's so incredibly unimportant as a character??? The writers haven't even explored Bonnie's personal life, such as her family and her innermost thoughts. I have gotten nothing a kind from this show. And when the دکھائیں is asked about such a thing, they treat it like it's meh. Like it's so what? It's frustrating. On سب, سب سے اوپر of that, the دکھائیں did a very, very good job of turning Damon highly unlikeable in season 2 (again, I apologize to the Damon fangirls on here). I LOVED Damon in season 1 (minus the killing of innocent people); he was sharp, charismatic, charming, funny, witty and highly entertaining. In season 2, he turned into a sappy, self-destructive, emo, vulnerable vampire and he became unbearable to watch for me. So, in regards to both Damon/Bonnie, I feel like they haven't explored one character enough and that they have دیا too much attention to the other character. As a dynamic, I feel like in terms of individual character exploration, they are highly unequal. And it sucks, especially for those who support Bamon. In season 2, the entire focus was on Damon and even less on Bonnie. They were literally like on two opposite ends of the spectrum in regards to attention and exploration and I don't want to say that it's absolutely horrible, but I would say it's rather disconcerting. This is part of the reason why I feel like my faith and hope in دکھائیں Bamon has dwindled in the past season. Because I feel like there is severe inequality in terms of character exploration and recognition in regards to Damon/Bonnie. If Bonnie was seriously being explored almost as much as Damon was in season 2, I would probably have much مزید optimism, faith and hope in regards to Bamon on the show. I know all about Damon on the show, but sadly, even though Bonnie is my favourite female character on the show, I really know nothing about her. I only know the surface of her, I don't know the depth of her. And that's sad, it's really sad for me. Because I'm only seeing the surface of Bonnie, I;m not seeing what's underneath. I understand that Damon is a very important character in this series and happens to be one of the main character in the show, but as someone who has read the کتابیں before the دکھائیں aired, it really does bother me that Bonnie doesn't get the recognition and exploration that she really deserves. Because in the TVD novel series, Bonnie is listed as the most important character of the series after the main trio (Elena, Stefan and Damon). But the دکھائیں doesn't display that. It's really tough for me, because everything is about Elena and while I respect that because Elena is the main protagonist of the series, I wish the دکھائیں would at least give me some in depth exploration into Bonnie's character because i haven't gotten anything. I know I sound like I'm whining but I;m just tired of Bonnie being treated like she's non-important and that she is irrelevant in this series, because she is not. She's so important and I feel like the دکھائیں takes her character for granted and instead, chooses to over expose Damon and Elena instead. The دکھائیں has literally become The Delena Diaries and it's caused me to lose some serious interest in this show. Hell, in all honesty, I feel like the دکھائیں has actually managed to ruin the book series as well. Even the کتابیں aren't the same anymore (Shadow Souls anyone?) The کتابیں have lost their shine and it sucks, especially as someone who read the original TVD trilogy almost 10 years ago.
Now, when it comes to the books, I admit that I have also lost a lot of my faith and hope in them as well. To be completely frank, I started losing my faith in Book Bamon after hearing that L.J. Smith was fired from writing the books. Before that, I was so optimistic about Bamon, even after the ghastly Shadow Souls. Shadow Souls got me really down, but I knew that Bamon would grow over time. But hearing about L.J. Smith being fired from the books, it did nothing but dishearten me. The truth is, even though I lost a lot of respect for L.J. Smith because she played all of the TVD پرستار bases left and right, there still wouldn't be any other person whom I would want to write TVD then L.J. Smith, ghastly Shadow Souls and all. L.J. Smith created Bamon, it's her creation. And no one is going to make me believe that someone else is just going to take her place and write the dynamic of Bamon just as amazingly and effectively as Ms. Smith. Hell, I feel cynical and pessimistic about Bamon's dynamic in The Hunters trilogy. Since L.J. Smith has been saying that the publishers only want the focus to be on Stelena, I have felt all along that Bamon will be completely brushed under the rug and it will look like nothing happened. I would be lying to myself if I کہا that I wasn't concerned. Because the truth is, I am concerned. I'm actually very concerned about the future of Bamon in the upcoming books. And no amount of words یا emails from L.J. Smith is really going to change that. How can I believe that Bamon will be okay in the books, when the person who created this dynamic in the first place is no longer writing it. Bamon is an L.J. Smith dynamic, it's not a TVD dynamic. It's primarily L.J. Smith's creation. Stefan/Elena on the other hand, and even Damon/Elena, are TVD dynamics. I have کہا this many times before. Because in all honesty, I feel like when she writes Stelena and Bamon, she's writing for the readers, but when she writes Bamon, she's writing for herself and for her دل and from the heart. I feel like when it comes to where L.J. Smith's true passion lies in terms of the TVD couples یا pairings, it's most definitely Bamon that she is passionate about. Which is why I don't believe that anyone could take her place in terms of writing the dynamic of Bamon. I don't know, maybe my feelings and thoughts about this will change after I read The Hunters: Phantom. Maybe that's what needs to happen. Maybe I need to read the new کتابیں in order to regain my confidence, because right now, I don't have it. And I put on a brave face, pretending that everything will be OK, when I don't feel OK deep down inside. I feel so unsure, confused and unconfident. L.J. Smith کہا that part of the reason she was fired in the first place was because of Damon/Bonnie as well as Damon/Elena. If this is true, how can we get مزید Bamon moments in the upcoming books? It just doesn't add up at all. I can't feel confident when shit like this happens, I just can't. It's not like Bamon in the کتابیں have been a couple since the very beginning of the series and they have that extremely solid foundation like most of L.J. Smith's couples and dynamics in her series. Bamon was barely existent in the original trilogy and wasn't really explored in depth until The Return trilogy.
On سب, سب سے اوپر of it all, the تبصرہ regarding Bamon both on the دکھائیں and in the books, severely depress me. They bring me down and they make me feel even مزید hopeless and pessimistic. Some of the تبصرے are beyond terrible and I would be lying if I کہا that the تبصرے that a lot of people make within this fandom against Bamon don't bother me. Because they do. They REALLY bother me. And آپ know what? They also get to me and they get to my head. When it comes to what other people say and think, I do take it to heart, especially when it comes to something that I strongly support and love. And unfortunately, their hateful words against Bamon actually manage to tear down my faith, hope and optimism in my own ship. It sucks but that's just what happens to me unfortunately. I don't respond well to all the negativity that Bamon receives within this fandom. I take it very hard, harder then a lot of آپ guys do. A lot of آپ Bamon شائقین on here are so strong. آپ have all of this optimism and this eternal hope that Bamon will be OK. And I constantly سوال myself on how some of آپ guys do it. Because there's so much negativity and hatred that surrounds Bamon in this fandom, it's really hard for me to not become dejected, hopeless, pessimistic and discouraged. Almost everything I see in regards to Bamon is negative. I see a few positive تبصرے about them here and there, but I see much مزید negative then positive and it hurts me like hell. It deeply saddens me and it's painful. Shipping Bamon has been painful for me, but at the same time, Bamon for me is one of those ships that I can't let go of ever. It's one of those couples that I will always love and support no matter what, even if I try to shut it out and try to walk away. It's like Bamon and I are Twin Flames; something always draws me back to this dynamic and I have no control over it. On the outside, it looks like a unhealthy addiction. But on the inside, it's just something that I could never do; walk away completely. There have been so many times where I have wanted to walk away completely because of all of the negativity surrounding Bamon, but I just can't. I know this sounds selfish, but part of the reason why I write مضامین is to constantly reassure myself that everything is going to be OK. That Bamon is going to be OK. It does give me a little bit مزید confidence and hope in regards to Bamon. Does it always work? No. But it works for me most of the time. However, the hatred that comes from the opposing ships manages to blacken my Bamon دل and it's something that happens over and over again. I hope I didn't depress آپ guys with this مضمون and I really don't want to bring anyone down. But I really needed to get this off my chest and I know that Bamon شائقین are some of the most open-minded and understanding people in the TVD fandom. So, I guess I'll continue to watch all the hatred being thrown at Bamon, even if it continues to dampen my spirits and blacken my heart. Because when آپ have a Bamon heart, it's forever. ♥
-N.
The dynamic of Damon/Bonnie has in all honesty, never been easy for me to support openly. Why? Because when I do openly support Bamon, I never feel comfortable. The ultimate truth is that when it comes to Damon/Bonnie in both the کتابیں and on the show, I have gone through a bit of a rollercoaster ride in terms of my hope and faith in them. I know that many of آپ Bamonators are not surprised سے طرف کی this whatsoever, but it's because I am primarily a rather pessimistic person سے طرف کی heart. I'm a certified pessimist and I'm cynical. Hence, why I feel the way I do especially if I see something negative about Bamon. For me, shipping Bamon has been all easy rainbows for me. I have gone through various different feelings, thoughts and emotions when it comes to supporting them. Now whether that's a good thing یا not, I'm not sure. I'm thinking that part of the reason why I have gone through such a rollercoaster ride when it comes to Damon/Bonnie is because I'm such an emotional and passionate person سے طرف کی nature (as آپ can tell). And Bamon, believe it یا not, is a really ....passionate and yes, controversial ship, especially within the TVD fandom. I'm not going to lie, it is what it is. But the pairing and dynamic of Damon/Bonnie is talked about. The sad reality is that most of the talk about Bamon happens to be negative. And آپ know what? It deeply hurts me and it makes me lose faith and confidence. But when it comes down to it, I don't think that it's Bamon, THE DYNAMIC/COUPLE, that makes me lose all my hope, faith and optimism. I think it's all of the outside influence surrounding Bamon that makes me lose hope and faith. I'm one of those shippers where things that people say outside of my ship in which I support, deeply affect me. Negative تبصرے about something that I support indefinitely make me lose any hope and faith. Now, when it comes to Stelena, I've had my ups and downs from time to time, but in all honesty, I haven't had as many with Stelena. I think part of the major reason why this is so is because Stelena is an actual solid couple. I know that they are there, they are a stamp. With Damon and Bonnie on the other hand, I feel like they are a future ship, while Stefan/Elena are a current ship. Even Delena is مزید of a current ship then Bamon. The reason why I get the way I do is because sometimes, I lack patience. The only couple یا ship in which I had any patience for was Clark/Lois on Smallville. Even another one of my fave couples, Dan/Blair from Gossip Girl, would be considered somewhat of a "future ship" but I guess it's different for me when it comes to them, because in all honesty, I didn't ship Dair from the very beginning of Gossip Girl. I didn't even expect them to be romantically put together on the show. But then I saw so much potential between them in season 3 and I knew that I was in love with Dair. The مزید interactions that Dan/Blair had on the show, the مزید enthusiastic and confident I became in their potential. Until season 4 happened, Dair began to become explored to it's upmost potential and I felt so confident in them and I was so optimistic about their prospects as a dynamic. And even now, I'm so optimistic and hopeful that Dair will have such an amazing and epic relationship in season 5. I feel like season 5 of Gossip Girl will literally be Dair season.
I know that Dair has nothing to do with Bamon, but in my opinion, I feel like Dair and Bamon are very similar. The difference is that I have been shipping Bamon since the books, I already saw their potential long before the دکھائیں ever aired. So, I already knew about the Bamon dynamic and their potential long before this دکھائیں started. Even though Damon/Bonnie on the دکھائیں were so inherently different in terms of characters then the books, I knew I was going to love Bamon on the show; I knew I was going to love their potential. For one, when I saw that Bamon on the دکھائیں would be an interracial dynamic, I was so excited. I knew that it would be different, it would be exotic and they would stand it. But the episode 1x07 Haunted really made me ship them hardcore on the show. When I saw the chemistry between the two in that one scene alone, I literally melted. I knew that they were going to be absolutely amazing on-screen if the writers really had the guts to explore them on the show. And I always کہا to myself, the writers and the دکھائیں HAVE to put them together, it is A MUST in TVD. And even though I knew that this دکھائیں was about a love مثلث to begin with, a part of me was saying constantly to myself that Bamon would be in the background, growing slowly and organically, kind of like the Book Bamon dynamic. I never expected that many scenes between Damon/Bonnie in season 1. In fact, I was really expecting anything at all. But nonetheless, I still managed to get some very good scenes between them in season 1. Then season 2 came and I expected much مزید Bamon scenes. Although I did get some good Bamon scenes, I still felt like the writers chickened out. Not just in terms of Bamon, but in terms of Bonnie as a character. I feel like the دکھائیں treated her like a secondary and non important character, when in reality, I consider Bonnie to be the سیکنڈ heroine of the story. Yet, the دکھائیں constantly treated her like she was not that important, when in fact, Bonnie is the BEST FRIEND of the main protagonist of this series. I just hated the fact that the writers wouldn't actually put time and effort into Bonnie as a character. And it's incredibly frustrating especially as someone who really loves Bonnie. I feel like the writers just don't want to write for Bonnie whatsoever. I feel like they put no effort into her scripts and that they only include her in the دکھائیں when witchy ju-ju magic has to be done for who else? None other then the Salvatore brothers. It's always about Bonnie Bennett serving the Salvatore brothers on the show. She is always kissing their پچھواڑے, گدا and the only reason why Bonnie even does such a thing in the first place is because of the sake of Elena, because her best friend happens to be strongly connected to them (one of the reasons is because Stefan came in Elena's life and is her boyfriend, and because Damon is the brother of the guy whom Elena loves). Because let's face it, if it weren't for Elena, Bonnie wouldn't give a shit about both of the Salvatore brothers (even as someone who ships Bamon, I can admit that). Let's be real here: vampires and witches are natural enemies. And witches don't like being pulled down سے طرف کی vampire problems. So the only reason why Bonnie ha sin any ways helped the Salvatore brothers is because of Elena. When it's all کہا and done, everything on the دکھائیں goes back to Elena Gilbert. The writers of this دکھائیں have failed to prove to me that they view Bonnie as an important and essential character on this show. They constantly say in their interviews how important Bonnie is, with her being the only main witch of the show, but they never prove it in یا through actions. What they say is just words and no produce. They don't give the recognition and attention to Bonnie on the دکھائیں that she really deserves. They just treat her like she is a filler and a servant for Elena and the Salvatore brothers. Because of this, it has also caused me to lose any belief in the Elena/Bonnie friendship. In season 1, I LOVED their friendship. I believed in their friendship. Because in season 1, Elena actually acknowledged that Bonnie was there, that she was her best friend in the world and that she needed her مزید then anything, especially in times of crisis یا in times of grief, یا pain یا heartbreak. But in season 2, it's like the writers of the دکھائیں have just thrown that away and treated Elena/Bonnie's friendship like it's so incredibly one-sided. Because in all honesty, that is what Elena/Bonnie's friendship on the دکھائیں really comes off as: one-sided. It seems like the writers have made Elena ungrateful to Bonnie for all of the things that she has been willing to do for her. BONNIE HAS BEEN WILLING TO SACRIFICE HER OWN LIFE TO KEEP ELENA SAFE. Yet, I feel like even though this is the case, Elena doesn't appreciate that. She treats Bonnie's risky sacrifices for her as if it's nothing and that hurts me. مزید then anything, the friendship and the family dynamics are the most important. And I feel like ever since season 2, the دکھائیں has thrown away and tarnished the Elena/Bonnie friendship and they have managed to replace their friendship with Elena being torn between the Salvatore brothers. When it comes to Elena, EVERYTHING is about the Salvatore brothers. Elena's ordinary life, including the likes of her family, دوستوں and everything else in between that was important to her before she met Stefan and Damon, has gone out the window and it's been seriously taken for granted سے طرف کی Elena. Elena takes her دوستوں and her family for granted, because she's become so inherently selfish in regards to the Salvatore brothers. Her whole life revolves around them. And this bothers me, because it his managed to actually ruin Elena as a character quite a bit. Now, don't get me wrong. I in no way hate Elena Gilbert on the دکھائیں (like I do in the books). In fact, I actually really loved her in season 1 and I thought she was a great heroine and protagonist. However, Elena changed rather dramatically for the worst in season 2. I don't know if it's because of all the shit she went through due to being entangled with the Salvatore brothers but whatever it is, it's changed her as a character a lot. And I'm sympathetic to her, because I know what she's going through and it must be really hard for her. But when it comes to her friendship with Bonnie, I wish I could see that the friendship is not one-sided, that it's mutual. In the episode 2x18 The Last Dance, I got a glimpse of that and I bawled my eyes out when Elena saw Bonnie "dead", but one thing that stuck out for me was when Bonnie asked Elena if she would do the same for her if she possibly had to risk یا sacrifice her life to save Bonnie. Elena hesitated, and that really bothered me. If Bonnie is her best friend in the world, I would have expected her to say yes with certainty, there would be no سوال about it.
Another thing is that when it comes to Bonnie's characterization on the show, I feel like they just threw her together with Jeremy so that she could have a relationship for the sake of having a relationship. I apologize for any Beremy shippers on here but I feel like Beremy was just too rushed to the point where they don't make any sense. Bonnie has known Jeremy forever and all of a sudden, in the exact same season that she got with him, she's already in love with him? This is a guy that she's known forever, since they were kids, someone whom she's never taken notice of. I have always felt like Beremy was created out of desperation just so Bonnie could have a love interest. And it was purely sloppy. Completely and totally sloppy. And this is an example of what I mean when I say that the writers are very sloppy when it comes to the character of Bonnie Bennett. You're probably all wondering what any of what I'm saying has to do with Bamon, but the truth is, it has quite a lot to do with Bamon on the show. How can I expect that Bamon will be explored effectively on the دکھائیں when the دکھائیں constantly treats Bonnie like she's so incredibly unimportant as a character??? The writers haven't even explored Bonnie's personal life, such as her family and her innermost thoughts. I have gotten nothing a kind from this show. And when the دکھائیں is asked about such a thing, they treat it like it's meh. Like it's so what? It's frustrating. On سب, سب سے اوپر of that, the دکھائیں did a very, very good job of turning Damon highly unlikeable in season 2 (again, I apologize to the Damon fangirls on here). I LOVED Damon in season 1 (minus the killing of innocent people); he was sharp, charismatic, charming, funny, witty and highly entertaining. In season 2, he turned into a sappy, self-destructive, emo, vulnerable vampire and he became unbearable to watch for me. So, in regards to both Damon/Bonnie, I feel like they haven't explored one character enough and that they have دیا too much attention to the other character. As a dynamic, I feel like in terms of individual character exploration, they are highly unequal. And it sucks, especially for those who support Bamon. In season 2, the entire focus was on Damon and even less on Bonnie. They were literally like on two opposite ends of the spectrum in regards to attention and exploration and I don't want to say that it's absolutely horrible, but I would say it's rather disconcerting. This is part of the reason why I feel like my faith and hope in دکھائیں Bamon has dwindled in the past season. Because I feel like there is severe inequality in terms of character exploration and recognition in regards to Damon/Bonnie. If Bonnie was seriously being explored almost as much as Damon was in season 2, I would probably have much مزید optimism, faith and hope in regards to Bamon on the show. I know all about Damon on the show, but sadly, even though Bonnie is my favourite female character on the show, I really know nothing about her. I only know the surface of her, I don't know the depth of her. And that's sad, it's really sad for me. Because I'm only seeing the surface of Bonnie, I;m not seeing what's underneath. I understand that Damon is a very important character in this series and happens to be one of the main character in the show, but as someone who has read the کتابیں before the دکھائیں aired, it really does bother me that Bonnie doesn't get the recognition and exploration that she really deserves. Because in the TVD novel series, Bonnie is listed as the most important character of the series after the main trio (Elena, Stefan and Damon). But the دکھائیں doesn't display that. It's really tough for me, because everything is about Elena and while I respect that because Elena is the main protagonist of the series, I wish the دکھائیں would at least give me some in depth exploration into Bonnie's character because i haven't gotten anything. I know I sound like I'm whining but I;m just tired of Bonnie being treated like she's non-important and that she is irrelevant in this series, because she is not. She's so important and I feel like the دکھائیں takes her character for granted and instead, chooses to over expose Damon and Elena instead. The دکھائیں has literally become The Delena Diaries and it's caused me to lose some serious interest in this show. Hell, in all honesty, I feel like the دکھائیں has actually managed to ruin the book series as well. Even the کتابیں aren't the same anymore (Shadow Souls anyone?) The کتابیں have lost their shine and it sucks, especially as someone who read the original TVD trilogy almost 10 years ago.
Now, when it comes to the books, I admit that I have also lost a lot of my faith and hope in them as well. To be completely frank, I started losing my faith in Book Bamon after hearing that L.J. Smith was fired from writing the books. Before that, I was so optimistic about Bamon, even after the ghastly Shadow Souls. Shadow Souls got me really down, but I knew that Bamon would grow over time. But hearing about L.J. Smith being fired from the books, it did nothing but dishearten me. The truth is, even though I lost a lot of respect for L.J. Smith because she played all of the TVD پرستار bases left and right, there still wouldn't be any other person whom I would want to write TVD then L.J. Smith, ghastly Shadow Souls and all. L.J. Smith created Bamon, it's her creation. And no one is going to make me believe that someone else is just going to take her place and write the dynamic of Bamon just as amazingly and effectively as Ms. Smith. Hell, I feel cynical and pessimistic about Bamon's dynamic in The Hunters trilogy. Since L.J. Smith has been saying that the publishers only want the focus to be on Stelena, I have felt all along that Bamon will be completely brushed under the rug and it will look like nothing happened. I would be lying to myself if I کہا that I wasn't concerned. Because the truth is, I am concerned. I'm actually very concerned about the future of Bamon in the upcoming books. And no amount of words یا emails from L.J. Smith is really going to change that. How can I believe that Bamon will be okay in the books, when the person who created this dynamic in the first place is no longer writing it. Bamon is an L.J. Smith dynamic, it's not a TVD dynamic. It's primarily L.J. Smith's creation. Stefan/Elena on the other hand, and even Damon/Elena, are TVD dynamics. I have کہا this many times before. Because in all honesty, I feel like when she writes Stelena and Bamon, she's writing for the readers, but when she writes Bamon, she's writing for herself and for her دل and from the heart. I feel like when it comes to where L.J. Smith's true passion lies in terms of the TVD couples یا pairings, it's most definitely Bamon that she is passionate about. Which is why I don't believe that anyone could take her place in terms of writing the dynamic of Bamon. I don't know, maybe my feelings and thoughts about this will change after I read The Hunters: Phantom. Maybe that's what needs to happen. Maybe I need to read the new کتابیں in order to regain my confidence, because right now, I don't have it. And I put on a brave face, pretending that everything will be OK, when I don't feel OK deep down inside. I feel so unsure, confused and unconfident. L.J. Smith کہا that part of the reason she was fired in the first place was because of Damon/Bonnie as well as Damon/Elena. If this is true, how can we get مزید Bamon moments in the upcoming books? It just doesn't add up at all. I can't feel confident when shit like this happens, I just can't. It's not like Bamon in the کتابیں have been a couple since the very beginning of the series and they have that extremely solid foundation like most of L.J. Smith's couples and dynamics in her series. Bamon was barely existent in the original trilogy and wasn't really explored in depth until The Return trilogy.
On سب, سب سے اوپر of it all, the تبصرہ regarding Bamon both on the دکھائیں and in the books, severely depress me. They bring me down and they make me feel even مزید hopeless and pessimistic. Some of the تبصرے are beyond terrible and I would be lying if I کہا that the تبصرے that a lot of people make within this fandom against Bamon don't bother me. Because they do. They REALLY bother me. And آپ know what? They also get to me and they get to my head. When it comes to what other people say and think, I do take it to heart, especially when it comes to something that I strongly support and love. And unfortunately, their hateful words against Bamon actually manage to tear down my faith, hope and optimism in my own ship. It sucks but that's just what happens to me unfortunately. I don't respond well to all the negativity that Bamon receives within this fandom. I take it very hard, harder then a lot of آپ guys do. A lot of آپ Bamon شائقین on here are so strong. آپ have all of this optimism and this eternal hope that Bamon will be OK. And I constantly سوال myself on how some of آپ guys do it. Because there's so much negativity and hatred that surrounds Bamon in this fandom, it's really hard for me to not become dejected, hopeless, pessimistic and discouraged. Almost everything I see in regards to Bamon is negative. I see a few positive تبصرے about them here and there, but I see much مزید negative then positive and it hurts me like hell. It deeply saddens me and it's painful. Shipping Bamon has been painful for me, but at the same time, Bamon for me is one of those ships that I can't let go of ever. It's one of those couples that I will always love and support no matter what, even if I try to shut it out and try to walk away. It's like Bamon and I are Twin Flames; something always draws me back to this dynamic and I have no control over it. On the outside, it looks like a unhealthy addiction. But on the inside, it's just something that I could never do; walk away completely. There have been so many times where I have wanted to walk away completely because of all of the negativity surrounding Bamon, but I just can't. I know this sounds selfish, but part of the reason why I write مضامین is to constantly reassure myself that everything is going to be OK. That Bamon is going to be OK. It does give me a little bit مزید confidence and hope in regards to Bamon. Does it always work? No. But it works for me most of the time. However, the hatred that comes from the opposing ships manages to blacken my Bamon دل and it's something that happens over and over again. I hope I didn't depress آپ guys with this مضمون and I really don't want to bring anyone down. But I really needed to get this off my chest and I know that Bamon شائقین are some of the most open-minded and understanding people in the TVD fandom. So, I guess I'll continue to watch all the hatred being thrown at Bamon, even if it continues to dampen my spirits and blacken my heart. Because when آپ have a Bamon heart, it's forever. ♥
-N.