I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let آپ go. I drive myself crazy, wanting آپ the way that I do.
You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him مزید as days pass by. It's been a ماہ since آپ and Randy haven't کہا a single word to each other.
**Randy's POV**
I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was Jamie to me? She changed my life and...she even confessed to me...that she couldn't survive without me. She asked me to stay but look at what a jacka$$ I've bcome. For a whole month! I can't believe I put it up for so long...I feel like a little girl! God! What's wrong with me? How did I survive for this long? This is all my fault. How could I have done this to her? She needed me...she could die any منٹ from her leukemia and I just think of it so lightly...*sigh* Why didn't I know this before? Why couldn't I think of this before? Why do I have to realize this now? That if I leave her, she and I both can't survive...I love her so much...I can't deal with this pain anymore. I have to talk to her. I love her.
**normal: اگلے day**
The whole day, Randy has been trying to talk to آپ but آپ ignore him یا آپ avoid him. At the end of bball practice, آپ see him waiting for you. آپ roll your eyes and آپ walk right past him. Randy runs after آپ and grabs your sports bag and carries it.
jamie: Give it back. I don't need your help anymore.
Randy: Too bad. I'm not giving it back.
Jamie: Giv it back!!
آپ grab it from him and he gives آپ a shocked look.
Randy: Jamie can we talk?
Jamie: There's nothing to talk about. Go away.
Randy: ...
Jamie: I کہا go away!
Randy: Ok. I'm sorry to bother you.
Randy quickly chickens out and walks away from آپ with his head hanging. Deep in your heart, it's killing آپ to see him walk like that but آپ have to be strong. Your not gonna give in just yet when it wasn't even your fault. After آپ see him disapear from your sight *which is definatly not 20/20 vision*, آپ start walking. Your sports bag feels heavier for some reason and آپ kinda limp towards the front gate to get to your house. Your halfway to the gate when آپ feel like آپ can't do it anymore. آپ drop your sports bag and آپ feel tears running down your cheeks. Not only is the bag heavy, but also is your heart. آپ feel like آپ just threw out the love of your dreams. Right when آپ lift up your sports bag to اقدام on, آپ feel your knees abandon آپ and آپ fall to the ground. But before آپ hit the ground, آپ feel hands grabbing آپ and lifting آپ back up to your feet, getting the heavy bag off you. آپ look to see Randy right behind you, holding your sports bag for you. آپ turn to face him and آپ feel tears running down your cheeks. He smiles and he gently wipes your tears off with his fingers.
Randy: C'mon. Lets go to your house.
Randy carries your sports bag for آپ while having his free arm on your waist, supporting you. He drives آپ to your house and he calls Brad to drop off Angie at the house. He agrees and while waiting, Randy tucks آپ in bed. He's sitting at the edge of your bed, looking at آپ under the covers, sick.
Randy: آپ look...sick.
Jamie: I have been. I ran out of medicine.
Randy: ...
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry. This is my fault. I didn't mean for this fight to go on for so long.
Jamie: Don't apolgize.
Randy: Jamie...*touches your hand* I will never let آپ fall. I'll stand up with you, together. And I'll always be here for you. I know I've کہا it before, but now I truly mean it. This fight has hit me like lightning. I understand how much I need آپ now. I'll save you. I'll save آپ Jamie. I can save you.
Jamie: *smile* Thanks Randy. Don't leave me just yet Randy.
Randy: *smile* Of course.
Jamie: Stay until Brad leaves.
Randy: Ok. I promise...
You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him مزید as days pass by. It's been a ماہ since آپ and Randy haven't کہا a single word to each other.
**Randy's POV**
I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was Jamie to me? She changed my life and...she even confessed to me...that she couldn't survive without me. She asked me to stay but look at what a jacka$$ I've bcome. For a whole month! I can't believe I put it up for so long...I feel like a little girl! God! What's wrong with me? How did I survive for this long? This is all my fault. How could I have done this to her? She needed me...she could die any منٹ from her leukemia and I just think of it so lightly...*sigh* Why didn't I know this before? Why couldn't I think of this before? Why do I have to realize this now? That if I leave her, she and I both can't survive...I love her so much...I can't deal with this pain anymore. I have to talk to her. I love her.
**normal: اگلے day**
The whole day, Randy has been trying to talk to آپ but آپ ignore him یا آپ avoid him. At the end of bball practice, آپ see him waiting for you. آپ roll your eyes and آپ walk right past him. Randy runs after آپ and grabs your sports bag and carries it.
jamie: Give it back. I don't need your help anymore.
Randy: Too bad. I'm not giving it back.
Jamie: Giv it back!!
آپ grab it from him and he gives آپ a shocked look.
Randy: Jamie can we talk?
Jamie: There's nothing to talk about. Go away.
Randy: ...
Jamie: I کہا go away!
Randy: Ok. I'm sorry to bother you.
Randy quickly chickens out and walks away from آپ with his head hanging. Deep in your heart, it's killing آپ to see him walk like that but آپ have to be strong. Your not gonna give in just yet when it wasn't even your fault. After آپ see him disapear from your sight *which is definatly not 20/20 vision*, آپ start walking. Your sports bag feels heavier for some reason and آپ kinda limp towards the front gate to get to your house. Your halfway to the gate when آپ feel like آپ can't do it anymore. آپ drop your sports bag and آپ feel tears running down your cheeks. Not only is the bag heavy, but also is your heart. آپ feel like آپ just threw out the love of your dreams. Right when آپ lift up your sports bag to اقدام on, آپ feel your knees abandon آپ and آپ fall to the ground. But before آپ hit the ground, آپ feel hands grabbing آپ and lifting آپ back up to your feet, getting the heavy bag off you. آپ look to see Randy right behind you, holding your sports bag for you. آپ turn to face him and آپ feel tears running down your cheeks. He smiles and he gently wipes your tears off with his fingers.
Randy: C'mon. Lets go to your house.
Randy carries your sports bag for آپ while having his free arm on your waist, supporting you. He drives آپ to your house and he calls Brad to drop off Angie at the house. He agrees and while waiting, Randy tucks آپ in bed. He's sitting at the edge of your bed, looking at آپ under the covers, sick.
Randy: آپ look...sick.
Jamie: I have been. I ran out of medicine.
Randy: ...
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry. This is my fault. I didn't mean for this fight to go on for so long.
Jamie: Don't apolgize.
Randy: Jamie...*touches your hand* I will never let آپ fall. I'll stand up with you, together. And I'll always be here for you. I know I've کہا it before, but now I truly mean it. This fight has hit me like lightning. I understand how much I need آپ now. I'll save you. I'll save آپ Jamie. I can save you.
Jamie: *smile* Thanks Randy. Don't leave me just yet Randy.
Randy: *smile* Of course.
Jamie: Stay until Brad leaves.
Randy: Ok. I promise...
