This is an EXTRA SAD chapter. Get ready with tissues and a lot of chocolate.
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"Learning how to say Goodbye"
Chapter 4: The Wedding. House POV
The wedding march begins to resound throughout the church. The guests get up and slowly turn to the wooden door. And when it opens, the smiles on their faces let my imagination run free to picture you.
I'm hidden in the most remote part of the church, hoping that آپ will not see me, hoping not to make آپ sad on your wedding day.
Today I'm not wearing my usual jeans and un-ironed shirt. I'm wearing a tuxedo, but you'll never know this. Even the guests won't see it, because I plan on leaving before آپ can say the two words that will end everything.
While I see آپ moving آگے with that wonderful dress I think what a lucky man Lucas is. Wilson is اگلے to you, accompanying آپ down the aisle. I laugh because he is مزید nervous than you. آپ look آگے impassively. Wilson looks rather uncertain, as if he can make آپ think about going back. But آپ give him a little nudge, and he returns his gaze to the altar where Lucas awaits you.
I do not know if you're making the right choice, but I hope you're happy with him. I hope آپ can have your own family, the family that آپ have wanted for your entire life.
And every single step آپ take towards the altar makes the memories come to my mind, مزید vivid than ever.
I am an idiot, I know. I've spent the last twenty years hiding from you, secretly following you, sabotaging آپ whenever I could without being overly malicious. And for all these years we have done nothing but build a دیوار between us, between the past and the present and the future. We must admit to ourselves that we broke through the دیوار a couple of times. All the times that we have spent together, I think I will miss them all. Well, I'll miss you. I would never admit it to anyone, but I took the biggest step: I admitted to myself.
Now Wilson is kissing your hand. He walks down from the altar and sits with the other guests. I can see his tears. I laugh to myself again - he's too emotional. I think he would have been better off if he'd been born as a woman. I haven't even told him that I am here. I have kept it a secret from everyone: I کہا that I would never come to the wedding and that I would leave after we lost our chance. Oh god! I'm pathetic. Mayfield has made me become emotional! Well, maybe it's not that bad. I've learned so many things over the years that I had never been taught in all my years of study. I know how to love someone, I realized my mistake, I deleted a part of my life and now I'm redoing part of it. And I'm losing you. This time it's forever.
آپ are at the altar and the most amazing thing is to watch آپ in that beautiful dress. Well, even without that dress you're beautiful. I impassively watch the priest and your future husband. آپ don't look happy. I haven't even seen آپ smile. Give me a sign; tell me that you're happy, that we are not making the greatest mistake of your life. I need آپ to do something. I need آپ to let me leave this place with the certainty that you're happy and آپ do not need me anymore.
It's time for the rings. Rachel has just started walking, accompanied سے طرف کی your sister, bringing the rings. I can still see Wilson, comforting your mother. She weeps with joy for this moment in your life. But آپ do not cry یا smile. Who knows what is going through your head.
Rachel finally reaches you. Julia takes the rings and puts them on the میز, جدول اگلے to you. He takes your hand and, while expressing his love, he slips the ring on your finger. Now you're taking his ring from the table. I get up and walk outside the church. I don't want to see the scene happening behind me. I want to go out and avoid this thing. I realize it's a bit masochistic on my part to be here. I open the door and go out, just in time not to hear آپ speak your vows. I walk along the corridor to where Nolan is waiting for me.
I'm leaving again. آپ don't need me anymore. Since I've known آپ were getting married I'd wondered how I would live afterwards. I considered various options: returning to Mayfield, moving to another state, I also thought about suicide. I tried but I failed.
"Can we stop سے طرف کی the hospital for a minute?"
"Of course Greg."
"Thanks."
We climb into the car and go to the hospital. I walk past the automatic doors and into your office. I leave a letter for you, hoping that you'll read it and not throw it in the trash.
Lisa
All your nightmares are gone. Now begins your new life.
Unless this is not the life آپ want.
House
P.S. Your dress was fabulous. You're beautiful.
Nolan approaches me.
"Are آپ sure?"
"No ..."
"I can wait as long as آپ need me to. Take all the time آپ want یا need..."
"I'm ok. I have to leave."
"Why do آپ want to go back to Mayfield?"
"It's the first place that came to my mind."
"Greg ..."
"No. I have to go back there."
"I'll ask my سوال again: are آپ sure about this whole thing?"
"No."
"Ok. I'll wait for آپ in the car."
I look at your desk, the one I brought here with your mother's help. At least you'll remember me. I look at the تصاویر آپ have framed. I take a picture of آپ and Rachel. I hope آپ don't mind.
I leave your office for the last time.
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اگلے chapter will be up tomorrow morning (Italian time). Get ready for Cuddy's POV.
Lemme know what آپ think. تبصرے are always مزید that appreciated!
xxx
-Sissi
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"Learning how to say Goodbye"
Chapter 4: The Wedding. House POV
The wedding march begins to resound throughout the church. The guests get up and slowly turn to the wooden door. And when it opens, the smiles on their faces let my imagination run free to picture you.
I'm hidden in the most remote part of the church, hoping that آپ will not see me, hoping not to make آپ sad on your wedding day.
Today I'm not wearing my usual jeans and un-ironed shirt. I'm wearing a tuxedo, but you'll never know this. Even the guests won't see it, because I plan on leaving before آپ can say the two words that will end everything.
While I see آپ moving آگے with that wonderful dress I think what a lucky man Lucas is. Wilson is اگلے to you, accompanying آپ down the aisle. I laugh because he is مزید nervous than you. آپ look آگے impassively. Wilson looks rather uncertain, as if he can make آپ think about going back. But آپ give him a little nudge, and he returns his gaze to the altar where Lucas awaits you.
I do not know if you're making the right choice, but I hope you're happy with him. I hope آپ can have your own family, the family that آپ have wanted for your entire life.
And every single step آپ take towards the altar makes the memories come to my mind, مزید vivid than ever.
I am an idiot, I know. I've spent the last twenty years hiding from you, secretly following you, sabotaging آپ whenever I could without being overly malicious. And for all these years we have done nothing but build a دیوار between us, between the past and the present and the future. We must admit to ourselves that we broke through the دیوار a couple of times. All the times that we have spent together, I think I will miss them all. Well, I'll miss you. I would never admit it to anyone, but I took the biggest step: I admitted to myself.
Now Wilson is kissing your hand. He walks down from the altar and sits with the other guests. I can see his tears. I laugh to myself again - he's too emotional. I think he would have been better off if he'd been born as a woman. I haven't even told him that I am here. I have kept it a secret from everyone: I کہا that I would never come to the wedding and that I would leave after we lost our chance. Oh god! I'm pathetic. Mayfield has made me become emotional! Well, maybe it's not that bad. I've learned so many things over the years that I had never been taught in all my years of study. I know how to love someone, I realized my mistake, I deleted a part of my life and now I'm redoing part of it. And I'm losing you. This time it's forever.
آپ are at the altar and the most amazing thing is to watch آپ in that beautiful dress. Well, even without that dress you're beautiful. I impassively watch the priest and your future husband. آپ don't look happy. I haven't even seen آپ smile. Give me a sign; tell me that you're happy, that we are not making the greatest mistake of your life. I need آپ to do something. I need آپ to let me leave this place with the certainty that you're happy and آپ do not need me anymore.
It's time for the rings. Rachel has just started walking, accompanied سے طرف کی your sister, bringing the rings. I can still see Wilson, comforting your mother. She weeps with joy for this moment in your life. But آپ do not cry یا smile. Who knows what is going through your head.
Rachel finally reaches you. Julia takes the rings and puts them on the میز, جدول اگلے to you. He takes your hand and, while expressing his love, he slips the ring on your finger. Now you're taking his ring from the table. I get up and walk outside the church. I don't want to see the scene happening behind me. I want to go out and avoid this thing. I realize it's a bit masochistic on my part to be here. I open the door and go out, just in time not to hear آپ speak your vows. I walk along the corridor to where Nolan is waiting for me.
I'm leaving again. آپ don't need me anymore. Since I've known آپ were getting married I'd wondered how I would live afterwards. I considered various options: returning to Mayfield, moving to another state, I also thought about suicide. I tried but I failed.
"Can we stop سے طرف کی the hospital for a minute?"
"Of course Greg."
"Thanks."
We climb into the car and go to the hospital. I walk past the automatic doors and into your office. I leave a letter for you, hoping that you'll read it and not throw it in the trash.
Lisa
All your nightmares are gone. Now begins your new life.
Unless this is not the life آپ want.
House
P.S. Your dress was fabulous. You're beautiful.
Nolan approaches me.
"Are آپ sure?"
"No ..."
"I can wait as long as آپ need me to. Take all the time آپ want یا need..."
"I'm ok. I have to leave."
"Why do آپ want to go back to Mayfield?"
"It's the first place that came to my mind."
"Greg ..."
"No. I have to go back there."
"I'll ask my سوال again: are آپ sure about this whole thing?"
"No."
"Ok. I'll wait for آپ in the car."
I look at your desk, the one I brought here with your mother's help. At least you'll remember me. I look at the تصاویر آپ have framed. I take a picture of آپ and Rachel. I hope آپ don't mind.
I leave your office for the last time.
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اگلے chapter will be up tomorrow morning (Italian time). Get ready for Cuddy's POV.
Lemme know what آپ think. تبصرے are always مزید that appreciated!
xxx
-Sissi
When does Love become something we need, rather than something we want? Love was seen as something special a long time ago. Now Love is what we are expected to have with us everyday of our lives. Love is common currency when آپ are a teenager, but turns to worthless pennies the older آپ get. Do we not care about the substance of what Love was and not what it has been made into today سے طرف کی commercialisation from American فلمیں and ویژن ٹیلی commercials and soap operas? Only when we experience Love for real, can we تبصرہ and judge others who are in Love. Love means something different to everyone. Not two people’s feeling of Love is the same. Why do we generalize, rationalize and compartmentalize Love? Love is and will continue to be an enigma. Only a handful of people will ever unlock it and witness its true beauty and essence. The essence we all crave.
Love.
Love.