Don't get it wrong. I still love all the Moonwalkers and Michael. I don't want to explain everything that much. Just let آپ know. Okay. For start I want to say "I didn't become his hater یا disliker. I still like and respect Michael. I still love you, Moonwalkers" Just I felt that I have to stop. I took off all my MJ stuff in my room. I threw out a lot of it. I unjoined all his کلب here in fanpop. I unsubscribed all his themed channels on youtube. I deleted all my printerest boards with his pics. Just because I didn't want to be his پرستار anymore. I understood that being a پرستار of dead person is not good for me. All this crying, wanting to die to meet him. Sadness. It is not for me. Slowly I lost my interest of him. Stopped to listen to his music, watch his videos. I am planning to change my banner and شبیہ in my club. I started a new life - being a پرستار of a lot of different things. فلمیں - Me before you, The notebook, Fault in our stars. A lot of others. (I will post pic of my new دیوار decorations so آپ can see what I like now). I was MJ پرستار a سال and four months. It's enough for me. Sorry if someone is angry to me یا something else like that.