** just wanted آپ to know how much i love آپ JT and i never meant to hurt آپ سے طرف کی fighting with آپ and i just want آپ to know that every word آپ read is true as hell -Bee **
Ok, آپ know how i used to tell آپ that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the دن i found out آپ went to the hospital....i kept going to your پروفائل and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) گیا کیا پوسٹ the bad news on your دیوار and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with آپ Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment آپ told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the اگلے day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with چیری, آلو بالو and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI مزید LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and چیری, آلو بالو and جے reached your room Chris was already in there with آپ but آپ were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like آپ knew we were there and آپ woke up and me and چیری, آلو بالو and جے just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about آپ یا چیری, آلو بالو یا Spunky جے and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell آپ this cause i just want آپ to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about آپ and i just want آپ to know that i dont hate آپ and that i have ALWAYS LOVED آپ JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I LOVE چیری, آلو بالو AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope آپ know that and i never wanna hurt آپ again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like آپ were ....i hope آپ get better and i am praying for you
Love Back To آپ From
Bianca<3
Ok, آپ know how i used to tell آپ that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the دن i found out آپ went to the hospital....i kept going to your پروفائل and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) گیا کیا پوسٹ the bad news on your دیوار and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with آپ Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment آپ told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the اگلے day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with چیری, آلو بالو and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI مزید LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and چیری, آلو بالو and جے reached your room Chris was already in there with آپ but آپ were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like آپ knew we were there and آپ woke up and me and چیری, آلو بالو and جے just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about آپ یا چیری, آلو بالو یا Spunky جے and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell آپ this cause i just want آپ to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about آپ and i just want آپ to know that i dont hate آپ and that i have ALWAYS LOVED آپ JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I LOVE چیری, آلو بالو AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope آپ know that and i never wanna hurt آپ again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like آپ were ....i hope آپ get better and i am praying for you
Love Back To آپ From
Bianca<3
