[i] dearest Caspian [i/],
its weird, but i have no flowery words یا philosphical musings, not even a detailed discriptions of my day. i just feel....Shocked. and i cant be even bothered to find a better word for it. Im in the play. one of the main roles, which is ironic....I've always felt like im in a play. آپ know, like آپ dont make your own mind up, like آپ keeping to a script....

But now, i sucessfully ripped up the script (and with a bit of improvisation) made this play my own. making it up as i go along: i dont feel like i have to play a roll anymore....sorry the curse of flowery words is back again/

There's been this odd new girl, not from here: with things she calls mobiles and cameras and most irratating of all; makeup. very heavy makeup: she's only my age if not younger! she calls herself Cindy...thats when i realised she wasnt from telepax. we call her veevee. telepaxian for: "Shooting star." like telemira is telepaxian for "telepathic" یا my name is telepaxian for...ur, "vibbibrinnia" its a flower, which grow up a weed. what does that say about me and my parents taste in names?

Oh caspian, i think she's here to stay! and we really dont get on. Her sudden movements scare me.....the other دن she basically just randomly jumped on me. She's-- without me being rude-- no, wait screw that! im six now (its been a while), im a big girl now, so here goes: SHES A COMPLETE AND UTTER BU*GER! Caspian, your still four, but i bet آپ would of used those words if it wasnt for the T word. I miss you. It feels like i made آپ up...two long years, i can't even remember the colour of your eyes, so why am i so attached to you?

[i]
waiting for a reply,
-vibbie. [i/]

"How were rehearsals?" Asked tina. Veevee looked impressed: "Cool, your in a movie!" she grinned.
[i] movie [i/] this girls nuts...."Ur, m-m.....Movie??"
"Yeah MOVIE! :D :D so wat kind of movie are آپ in??"
"Musical?"
"Cool! like-like, Grease! Your probably playing Danny right?"
"...isnt danny-- isnt danny a boys name?"
i gave up around then once i realised this was an insult. "And your probably not even in one!" cut in tina.
Veevee got bored with the conversation: "BOO!" i flinched again, she laughed. then pouted when i tried to stop flinching i wish i could do that.. i mean do that without looking like a miserable loner. veevee pulls it off, oh yeah thats because shes not a miserable loner...

I practised every دن and night for my big break as parcially-human. but im only particulary good at songs i can---feel for. other songs are just back to the script again. Each دن got مزید stressful and stressful untill i looked at my calender after 2 months of hard work: 1 دن untill performance.

The اگلے day:

"Your fired."
Ok then, i really better stop the whole saying to soon thing....
TO BE CONTINUED
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