Prologue
We all have that shy kid in class who keeps to themselves and doesn't utter a word. They never raise their hand to answer a سوال and they need try to socialize with others. Well, one دن آپ might decide to go up to that shy kid and start a conversation. آپ immediately ask them their name, how old they are, and what is their interest. That shy kid isn't participating. They answer your سوال in one word and never دکھائیں emotion. آپ feel uncomfortable so آپ leave. آپ leave the shy kid سے طرف کی themselves and آپ go and talk to your band of friends.
Half way through the school year, آپ try again to talk to the shy kid who still hasn't made any attempt to socialize with anyone. And again, that shy stays shy and doesn't say a word. You, again, run off to your دوستوں to get away from the uncomfortable shy kid.
Maybe one دن آپ are walking down the سٹریٹ, گلی to go to your house. آپ happen to look to your right nod happen to see someone who looks similar to the shy kid in your class. It can't be them. The person آپ see across the سٹریٹ, گلی is arguing with someone and screaming. آپ quickly go about your business, ignoring the screaming, anger, kid over there.
Finally it is the last دن of school. آپ go around asking and laughing with the other students. Yu at enjoying yourself and everyone is having a wonderful time. Your mind intently goes back to the shy kid. Where is the kid? آپ ask some o your دوستوں but they haven't seen the kid. They don't even notice the kid. آپ ask anyone and everyone. The teacher informs I آپ that the shy kid had died of an unknown cause yesterday. آپ feel horrible. آپ remember that دن where آپ saw someone that looked similar to the shy kid. آپ think that maybe آپ could have prevented their death. That guilt hangs over your head a couple of منٹ before one of your دوستوں suck آپ into a conversation.
A lot of things happen for a certain reason. Things that آپ can't explain. Just because آپ can't explain it, doesn't mean that the cause doesn't exist. Things about those words for a few minutes. Ponder strange cases where آپ didn't understand it. Think. Think until your brain becomes numb. آپ can't think of a cause because everything isn't determined سے طرف کی thinking. Sometimes آپ have to causally go out and see for yourself. Then again, that isn't sometimes the best thing to do
We all have that shy kid in class who keeps to themselves and doesn't utter a word. They never raise their hand to answer a سوال and they need try to socialize with others. Well, one دن آپ might decide to go up to that shy kid and start a conversation. آپ immediately ask them their name, how old they are, and what is their interest. That shy kid isn't participating. They answer your سوال in one word and never دکھائیں emotion. آپ feel uncomfortable so آپ leave. آپ leave the shy kid سے طرف کی themselves and آپ go and talk to your band of friends.
Half way through the school year, آپ try again to talk to the shy kid who still hasn't made any attempt to socialize with anyone. And again, that shy stays shy and doesn't say a word. You, again, run off to your دوستوں to get away from the uncomfortable shy kid.
Maybe one دن آپ are walking down the سٹریٹ, گلی to go to your house. آپ happen to look to your right nod happen to see someone who looks similar to the shy kid in your class. It can't be them. The person آپ see across the سٹریٹ, گلی is arguing with someone and screaming. آپ quickly go about your business, ignoring the screaming, anger, kid over there.
Finally it is the last دن of school. آپ go around asking and laughing with the other students. Yu at enjoying yourself and everyone is having a wonderful time. Your mind intently goes back to the shy kid. Where is the kid? آپ ask some o your دوستوں but they haven't seen the kid. They don't even notice the kid. آپ ask anyone and everyone. The teacher informs I آپ that the shy kid had died of an unknown cause yesterday. آپ feel horrible. آپ remember that دن where آپ saw someone that looked similar to the shy kid. آپ think that maybe آپ could have prevented their death. That guilt hangs over your head a couple of منٹ before one of your دوستوں suck آپ into a conversation.
A lot of things happen for a certain reason. Things that آپ can't explain. Just because آپ can't explain it, doesn't mean that the cause doesn't exist. Things about those words for a few minutes. Ponder strange cases where آپ didn't understand it. Think. Think until your brain becomes numb. آپ can't think of a cause because everything isn't determined سے طرف کی thinking. Sometimes آپ have to causally go out and see for yourself. Then again, that isn't sometimes the best thing to do
This is a poem I came up with
The pain is far greater
the pain is almost blinding
آپ کہا you'd always love me
a rope of love wrapped around me, a binding
But now I know the truth
You're nothing but a fake
آپ took my دل and played with it
and now my دل does nothing but ache
I wish to hear your voice again
I wish آپ had never hurt me
for now I can't even look at آپ
without having to turn and flee
This pain has gotten worse
I can't stand it much longer
but if I take a blade....
I can take the pain آپ gave me and make a different pain stronger.
The pain is far greater
the pain is almost blinding
آپ کہا you'd always love me
a rope of love wrapped around me, a binding
But now I know the truth
You're nothing but a fake
آپ took my دل and played with it
and now my دل does nothing but ache
I wish to hear your voice again
I wish آپ had never hurt me
for now I can't even look at آپ
without having to turn and flee
This pain has gotten worse
I can't stand it much longer
but if I take a blade....
I can take the pain آپ gave me and make a different pain stronger.