This is a small book i am writing about the life of Renesmee cullen after (Breaking Dawn) It is in he rpoint of view for almost the whole time (with a few exceptions)She is now a teen and her life seems to be مزید then what she bargained for. I suggest starting from chapter 1 to get the full impact and information (:

Note:
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I understand that this chapter may be a little hard to follow یا confusing at some parts. Although it will all be explained within the اگلے chapter, if آپ would like me to break down what happened within the chapter thenn just message me (:

-Brianna B


Chapter 26: What the heck was that?

A few days had past now since my intial contact with Jacob, and i still refused to see him. It wasn't anything personal, it was just safer this way. To be honest i didn't talk to anyone much. I have alot to reflect on and all the time in the world now.

I have spent the last 2 days running about on my own. I know my family wasn't too fond of this idea though. To be honest, it was مزید of running away then taking time apart. It wasn't an easy seperation, but i really need the time i have now to myself.

I guess my families biggest concern about my leaving was my control. Being only a few days old I am quite dangerous, especialy without having fed yet. I have tried to hunt, animals that is. But whenever I get close enough, it doesn't feel right and i stop. Although it seems as if each دن that passes I feel less thirsty.

I sat down against a rock as nightfall came. The ground was cold and moist, as it had just rained. I stared down at the tiny drops of dew that held onto the blades of grass, although it seemed harder to see in the dark light. I felt as if my eye sight has gotten duller aswell.

I diverted my attention to the general surroundings. The area seemed familiar, very familiar. Maybe i had sub-conciously wanderd back home. یا it could just be me imagineing things, there really wasn't much difference from one درخت to the اگلے anymore. I have felt so directionaly challenged lately, as if I had no sense of left یا right.

Maybe it was time to go home. My family must be worried sick, and i was sure Jacob wouldn't stop harrassing them until he saw me again.
I picked up a small rock, curling my hand around it. It surprised me how much effort it took to turn the small pebble into sand.

Usualy it would only take a pinch of the fingers. Maybe there was مزید to this newborn stuff then I knew

I quickly stood up, letting the sandy remains of the rock fall from between my fingers. I stopped for a moment weighing the options of which direction to go in. I settled for South, although
I was probaly wrong.

I broke into a stride, pushing myself into a sprint. The wind flew through my much neglected curls, blowing them away from my face. But the tree's were no longer clear blurs to me as i passed by. They were regular shapes. Had i gotten slower? No, that's not even possible...I pushed harder on my legs, moving myself faster although it didn't prove to be much help.

The humid early August air wrapped around my skin like a warm blanket. It was nice at first, relaxing almost. But soon i started to feel light headed. I stopped for a moment, leaning against a near-by درخت for support. Once i had regained my composure I broke back into a run.

Only منٹ after the feeling had returned مزید dominate. I felt dizzy and light headed again. A strong urge to breathe came over me, as if i was out of breath. Before I knew it my face was againt the cool, wet ground. I tried getting up, but it felt as if all my bones had turned to rubber. In my سیکنڈ attempt to stand up, I let myself hit the ground in defeat.

Darkness surrounded me, like it had so many times before. Darkness was my friend. Except for this time, this wasn't normal. Suddenly the darkness had been replaced with a white, blinding light. I didn't know what to call this,

Was this death? یا somthing else?

I closed my eyes, protecting them from the blinding light. Suddenly the silence turned into the sound of shuffling feet. I opened my eyes slowly, one سے طرف کی one. I was surprised to find myself in Carlisle's home, back on the balcony where i had first ran away.

I laid there dazed for a moment. What had just happened? Had i imagined my running away? No of course not.

I quickly stood up, looking around. The moon held high in the sky, towering over the river. I entered the house, panicked and dazed سے طرف کی the happenings.

"Mother?" I called out, hoping to get an answer, but nothing had responded.

I listened quietly for a moment. A group of voices not far into the house caught my attention. I quickly exited through the room.

"Hello?" I called again, yet the voices still hadn't responded.

I passed سے طرف کی Carlisle's office and into the livingroom.I peered over the stairs to see who was there.

There stood My mother, Rosalie, Emette, Alice and Esme.

They all had the same worried expression planted on their face. I was curious on what could upset them so. My mother stood hopefully سے طرف کی the door, Esme close by. Alice sat on the arm of the white leather couch. While Emette and Rosalie were placed on the cushons.

"Oh there آپ are" I said. Yet my voice hadn't caught anybdy's attention.

I descended down the staircase, walking towards my mother.

"What's wrong Mother? Did somthing happen?"

I expected her to turn, یا say somthing but she didn't move. None of them did. It was as if i never spoke. bit my lip nervously, watching everybody.

"Rosalie?" I asked quietly.Her eyes still stayed fixed on the door.

It was unusual for them to ignore me like this. Especialy if i was gone for so long, Of course i have no recollection of how i got back...

Esme stood up quickly and walked over to console my mother.

"Don't worry dear" She کہا rubbing her back ".Between Jacob, Jasper, Carlisle, Edward and the Quileutes they are bound to find Renesmee"

I looked curiously at them all. I took a step infront of my mother "Find me? ..But im right here!"

Yet again, none of them showed any aknowlodgement to my appearence. I stared at them all wide-eyed in confusion. My mother looked up finaly, staring in my direction. But her expression was still heartbreaking.

"Im here!" I exclaimed once مزید "I'm fine!"

i saw her mouth twitch as if she was about to speak, I had a spark of hope at that moment.

"Alice?" She asked hesitantly

"No!" I smiled "It's me, Renesmee!"

What i hadn't noticed was her gaze wasn't at me, rather through me. I turned around and sure enough, there sat Alice. My smile turned into a drop jaw.

Alice nodded once and pulled out her phone. she fumbled around with it, her hands shaking as she dialed a number.

Why weren't they speaking to me? Why are they ignoring me as if i don't even exsist? How unobservant could they be! Im right here infront of their eyes, yet they are still searching for me. Nothing explained their odd behavouir..

"Edward?" She was quiet for a moment as the voice on the other line talked at such an alarming rate.

Suddenly Alice stood up, "What do آپ mean?" . Her jaw droped in horror. All eyes stared at her. "Edward, are آپ sure?" Her voice shook. She gased and let the phone shut, falling out of her hands.

Rosalie and Emette were now on their feet, watching her carefully. Alice fell back down. Not a fall of unsteadyness, but a fall of defeat.

Nothing could prepare me for the words that were about to be spoken.

"She's dead." She کہا quietly "Renesmee is dead" Her voice broke at the end.

I gasped in horror. It seemed as if the rest of the room did aswell.

"NO!" I heard my mother shriek "SHE CAN'T- NO!"

Esme held her closer consoling her. Emette and Rosalie each stood silently still staring at the floor. Alice sat, back against the سوفی, لٹانا in shock.

"I'm not dead!" I excalimed loudly "I'm right here!"

Still nobody moved. مزید panic set in. Tears started to form in my eyes, falling against my cheeks.

"You guys, i'm right here! Im fine! Can't آپ see me!?"

No response.

I back away slowly, "No, i can't be dead" I کہا quietly.

Was this really it? Did i die? What was this? Was i damned to forever watch my Family's pain in silence, like a ghost?

I closed my eyes. "No." I whispered.

The voices blurred to the backround.

It seemed like a long time before i dare reopen my eyes again. But finaly i did. Hoping to see my family. Wishing i could demand what was going on, but instead darkness filled the air. I couldn't move, یا speak now. I could only hear. But new voices now were so dulled, blurred. Mere backround noises.

I tried listenting harder. The blurred voices suddenly became cleared.

"Come on Nessie!" I heard Jacobs shaky voice say.

"Carlisle! What's wrong with her" I heard my father's voice demand, speaking almost to quickly to catch.

Although the rest were panicked Carlisle spoke calmly. It seemed to calm me down aswell.

"I'm not quite sure, I don't even know how this is possible..."

"Help her Doc!" I heard Jacob snap "She can't just die!"

" He can't help her if we don't even understand what state she is in, dog!" I heard Jasper retort.

It was followed سے طرف کی some distant growls.

What state i was in? Save me? It seemed as if everything everyone has کہا so far is making no sense. Was I really dead?

"We can try restarting her دل with compressions.." My father suggested quickly.

Compressions? But that would be impossible. Im a Vampire, my دل had been frozen.

There was silence again. The voices faded, and the darkness tried pulling over me again. Except this time, i fought it.

I pushed against the darkness, not wanting to fall into the state of nothing. luckily the voices came back,

"I have a pulse!" I heard Carlisle exclaim.

A pulse? I don't have blood! All of this made no sense, this couldn't be real. It just couldn't.

"Renesmee, can آپ hear me?" I heard my father ask on edge.

I wanted to respond, but i couldn't. My voice had been stolen from me.

"Jacob, carry her to the car. Edward آپ drive, Get her ہوم as soon as possible. I need to go do somthing. Keep her pulse up, and keep her breathing i will be....."

The voice trailed off, getting مزید blurry. No! Come back! i tried to say, but the words couldn't escape my mouth. I thought i felt myself being picked up, but it could have been just in my head. But to my dismay, i have no idea where i was.

But here, in the darkness, i felt nothing. No pain nor pleasure. No happiness یا sadness. Just confusion and worry.