Why? Had she come back to finish destroying what was left of my peace? I could see she was crying, yet I felt no urge to comfort her.
"I just came سے طرف کی to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to آپ first."
I walked backwards onto the porch. I looked over to see Liz's expression. It wasn't happy. She was really mad at something. یا about something.
Bella, followed me onto the porch. I shut the door behind her.
"What,"I asked, placing a mask of no emotion over my face. I didn't want her to see how bad this was.
"I want آپ back, I still love you. I see how much I need آپ now. How can I have done that to you, choosing Jake..."
She trailed off, waiting for me to answer.
"I'm sorry, I can't do this."
"Can't do what? I know that this is hard, I still want آپ though, I will always want you, we were perfect together. How could I not?"
"Bella, your so fickle. Can't آپ see how much you're hurting him? I know I love you, but آپ chose him, so آپ should stick with him, go back, back to that dog and آپ apologize. Please don't come back, I just can't take it. آپ are too bad for me, and I really don't want آپ anymore. Please, just leave."
"But, Edward,...I... I love you."
"But, I don't love you, not anymore."
She looked down, مزید tears overflowing her eyes. I wanted to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں my arms around her, but there was someone else that meant مزید to me now.
"Go,"I said.
She stood there, then she slowly walked around me and toward her motorcycle.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I closed my eyes and went inside, my eyes pricked, like I would be crying, if I could. That was one of the worst things I've ever done, but I know now that it was for the best. That way I could have Liz.
I looked up at my revelations into the most beautiful eyes in the world.
"Are آپ okay?"
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found something better. I also need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About the mind reading thing."
"Mind reading thing?.... Oh, آپ mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand if آپ don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if آپ can forgive me, I don't like having آپ mad at me. I want to tell آپ how much آپ really mean to me, but I don't want آپ to leave, I don't want آپ to hate me...."
She cut me off,"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even آپ I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was all my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
This time I cut her off.
"It's not your fault. I know آپ think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure آپ won't really have it until you're a vampire, if آپ become a vampire, but still I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, آپ didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. آپ on the other hand, آپ didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
She stared at the floor, silent tears flowing down her cheeks. I felt the urge, once again, to comfort, and so I did. For the first time, I wrapped my arms around her, and I held her close to me, letting her cry herself out. I drug her over to the couch, so she could sit and I sat with her.
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I looked up as the front door opened. I didn't know how long I had been sitting here. Liz had fallen sleep. Her head rested on my lap. I let her there, for who knows how long, just not wanting to disturb her.
"How is everything?"
"Everything is fine. She feels horrible, but I think she is the one, she means مزید to me than Bella did. I think that is مزید than I can ask for. And I think she loves me back."
"That's wonderful, but, آپ should let her in the bed."
"I don't want to wake her."
"Well it's almost time for sunset, so I'll go make her something to eat."
Liz stirred. She slowly opened her eyes. Then she stretched, sort of like a cat, and sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So do آپ still want me?"
Of course I want you, I think I'm in love with you, and I never want آپ to leave me.
She smiled at me. I smiled back.
"What do آپ want for dinner?"
"I think I want some spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make آپ some."
"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since آپ make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"Liz replied.
Alice came through the door.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. آپ are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"I کہا cutting her off,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to آپ Edward,"she said, sticking her tongue at me.
I rolled my eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
"Okay, I love to shop, maybe I can get آپ a present, since I love آپ and my feelings are returned. Besides. It's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for آپ too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"she کہا jumping up.
I watched her leave. Then I grabbed the box and headed upstairs to my room. I was curious as to what Bella brought back.
"I just came سے طرف کی to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to آپ first."
I walked backwards onto the porch. I looked over to see Liz's expression. It wasn't happy. She was really mad at something. یا about something.
Bella, followed me onto the porch. I shut the door behind her.
"What,"I asked, placing a mask of no emotion over my face. I didn't want her to see how bad this was.
"I want آپ back, I still love you. I see how much I need آپ now. How can I have done that to you, choosing Jake..."
She trailed off, waiting for me to answer.
"I'm sorry, I can't do this."
"Can't do what? I know that this is hard, I still want آپ though, I will always want you, we were perfect together. How could I not?"
"Bella, your so fickle. Can't آپ see how much you're hurting him? I know I love you, but آپ chose him, so آپ should stick with him, go back, back to that dog and آپ apologize. Please don't come back, I just can't take it. آپ are too bad for me, and I really don't want آپ anymore. Please, just leave."
"But, Edward,...I... I love you."
"But, I don't love you, not anymore."
She looked down, مزید tears overflowing her eyes. I wanted to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں my arms around her, but there was someone else that meant مزید to me now.
"Go,"I said.
She stood there, then she slowly walked around me and toward her motorcycle.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I closed my eyes and went inside, my eyes pricked, like I would be crying, if I could. That was one of the worst things I've ever done, but I know now that it was for the best. That way I could have Liz.
I looked up at my revelations into the most beautiful eyes in the world.
"Are آپ okay?"
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found something better. I also need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"About the mind reading thing."
"Mind reading thing?.... Oh, آپ mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand if آپ don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if آپ can forgive me, I don't like having آپ mad at me. I want to tell آپ how much آپ really mean to me, but I don't want آپ to leave, I don't want آپ to hate me...."
She cut me off,"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even آپ I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was all my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
This time I cut her off.
"It's not your fault. I know آپ think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure آپ won't really have it until you're a vampire, if آپ become a vampire, but still I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, آپ didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. آپ on the other hand, آپ didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
She stared at the floor, silent tears flowing down her cheeks. I felt the urge, once again, to comfort, and so I did. For the first time, I wrapped my arms around her, and I held her close to me, letting her cry herself out. I drug her over to the couch, so she could sit and I sat with her.
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I looked up as the front door opened. I didn't know how long I had been sitting here. Liz had fallen sleep. Her head rested on my lap. I let her there, for who knows how long, just not wanting to disturb her.
"How is everything?"
"Everything is fine. She feels horrible, but I think she is the one, she means مزید to me than Bella did. I think that is مزید than I can ask for. And I think she loves me back."
"That's wonderful, but, آپ should let her in the bed."
"I don't want to wake her."
"Well it's almost time for sunset, so I'll go make her something to eat."
Liz stirred. She slowly opened her eyes. Then she stretched, sort of like a cat, and sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So do آپ still want me?"
Of course I want you, I think I'm in love with you, and I never want آپ to leave me.
She smiled at me. I smiled back.
"What do آپ want for dinner?"
"I think I want some spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make آپ some."
"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since آپ make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"Liz replied.
Alice came through the door.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. آپ are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"I کہا cutting her off,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to آپ Edward,"she said, sticking her tongue at me.
I rolled my eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
"Okay, I love to shop, maybe I can get آپ a present, since I love آپ and my feelings are returned. Besides. It's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for آپ too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"she کہا jumping up.
I watched her leave. Then I grabbed the box and headed upstairs to my room. I was curious as to what Bella brought back.
