Chapter 7
*Edward’s pov*
I heard a knock from the door.
“Can I come in?” Alice asked.
I took a deep breath.
“Sure. “ I said.
Alice opened the door. Her face was expressionless. She sat beside me.
“How are you?” she asked.
“Not so good, “I whispered.
“I’m sorry.” She said, sadly.
“I told you, آپ don’t have to blame yourself. It’s not your fault.” I told her.
“It’s not yours, either.” She said
“Yes. it is.” I muttered.
“So are آپ going to tell me what happened? یا I’m going to guess?” she asked.
“Do آپ know Ashley Walker?” I asked her.
“Nope.”
“Well, she’s my high school best friend when I was still human at Chicago.” I started.
“And?” she asked.
“She was also a victim of the disease. I thought she died first because she didn’t دکھائیں up since Carlisle changed me. I wanted to find her but I was told سے طرف کی her mother that she had died.” I said.
“So,” Alice waited.
“I saw her. She’s alive. She told me that she was also bitten سے طرف کی a vampire. At first, I didn’t believe her until she showed me the scar. Ashley’s parents were my father’s best friend. Our parents wanted us to be together and they even made an arranged marriage. Like Tanya, Ashley showed some interest to me. But I didn’t دکھائیں her any. Bella was the only one who has caught my heart. She was the only reason for my existence. “I stopped and took a deep breath.
“A few moments ago, Ashley showed up. I was shocked so I froze, I didn’t realize that she was kissing me. I can’t اقدام my body because I was really dazed. But I really don’t want to kiss her. Unfortunately, Bella saw us. She thought that I betrayed her. But she’s thinking the wrong way Alice. She’s thinking the wrong way!” I کہا as my hands balled into fists.
She touched my shoulder, comforting.
“Thanks so much Alice.” I told her.
She went out the room and leaved me alone so I can rest.
I looked back at the places where Bella usually stay. I’ve decided to went downstairs to the living room because I want to seek some advices from Esme.
Everyone was looking at me.
All of a sudden, Carlisle’s phone buzzed.
“Hello?” he asked.
We waited and then he shouted.
“What?! Okay, were coming. Thank you.” He کہا as he ended the call...
“What happened, Carlisle?” I asked.
He looked at me.
‘Jacob called me, Bella had just fainted.’ He thought.
“What?! How could that be?” I asked.
‘I don’t know either, let’s go.’ He thought as he went out the door.
I was about to follow him but then Alice spoke.
“I’ll come with you.” She said.
I nodded.
“How about us?” Emmett asked, he’s thinking of a fight.
“Don’t worry Emmett; it’s not about a war.” I کہا as I went outside.
I drove quickly. We reached Charlie’s house immediately.
We entered Bella’s room. I saw her on the بستر with Jacob sitting beside her.
“Bella?” I asked as I shook her slowly. I sat at her side.
“What happened to her?” Alice asked.
“I don’t know. She called my name and when I looked back at her, she fainted.” Jacob کہا worriedly.
“How could that be Carlisle? Vampires don’t faint and they don’t even felt dizzy.” Alice said.
“Well I guess, it’s not about her Vampiric nature.” Carlisle said.
“What do آپ mean? I asked.
“We all know that she’s physically strong. Even stronger than Emmett. But Vampires do have their weaknesses, Edward. Like me, my weakness was Esme, Alice’s weakness was Jasper, Rosalie’s weakness was Emmett and Bella’s weakness was… you. Yes, she is physically strong, but she’s emotionally weak. Do آپ remember when آپ thought that she’s dead? آپ went to Italy to provoke the Volturi to kill آپ without even having a سیکنڈ thought. You’re out of your mind. All آپ wanted was to be with her and to make her happy because your weakness was Bella. It’s the same thing. When she thought that آپ don’t love her anymore, it broke her دل so much. Like I said, her weakness was you; she doesn’t want to be hurt سے طرف کی you, and to see آپ being hurt. That’s why she left you. Because she thought that it will make آپ feel happier to be with that girl, whoever she is, though it really hurt her so much.” Carlisle explained.
I stared at Bella’s face.
Jacob suddenly spoke.
“How can آپ do that to her?” he asked me.
I didn’t respond.
“I thought آپ love her.” He said.
“I do.” I told him.
“But why?” he asked.
“I don’t know. I really don’t want to do this to her.” I کہا as I took a deep breath.
“But – “Jacob was about to speak when Alice cut him off.
“Enough. Edward, I think آپ better go out. She’ll be awake in less than 5 minutes. She doesn’t want to see you.” She کہا sadly.
I kissed Bella’s forehead. And I walked away. I stopped at the door and looked back to her. I sighed and continued to walk.
“I wanted to talk to her, alone. please.” Alice told Jacob.
“Sure” he کہا as he went out with Carlisle.
*Edward’s pov*
I heard a knock from the door.
“Can I come in?” Alice asked.
I took a deep breath.
“Sure. “ I said.
Alice opened the door. Her face was expressionless. She sat beside me.
“How are you?” she asked.
“Not so good, “I whispered.
“I’m sorry.” She said, sadly.
“I told you, آپ don’t have to blame yourself. It’s not your fault.” I told her.
“It’s not yours, either.” She said
“Yes. it is.” I muttered.
“So are آپ going to tell me what happened? یا I’m going to guess?” she asked.
“Do آپ know Ashley Walker?” I asked her.
“Nope.”
“Well, she’s my high school best friend when I was still human at Chicago.” I started.
“And?” she asked.
“She was also a victim of the disease. I thought she died first because she didn’t دکھائیں up since Carlisle changed me. I wanted to find her but I was told سے طرف کی her mother that she had died.” I said.
“So,” Alice waited.
“I saw her. She’s alive. She told me that she was also bitten سے طرف کی a vampire. At first, I didn’t believe her until she showed me the scar. Ashley’s parents were my father’s best friend. Our parents wanted us to be together and they even made an arranged marriage. Like Tanya, Ashley showed some interest to me. But I didn’t دکھائیں her any. Bella was the only one who has caught my heart. She was the only reason for my existence. “I stopped and took a deep breath.
“A few moments ago, Ashley showed up. I was shocked so I froze, I didn’t realize that she was kissing me. I can’t اقدام my body because I was really dazed. But I really don’t want to kiss her. Unfortunately, Bella saw us. She thought that I betrayed her. But she’s thinking the wrong way Alice. She’s thinking the wrong way!” I کہا as my hands balled into fists.
She touched my shoulder, comforting.
“Thanks so much Alice.” I told her.
She went out the room and leaved me alone so I can rest.
I looked back at the places where Bella usually stay. I’ve decided to went downstairs to the living room because I want to seek some advices from Esme.
Everyone was looking at me.
All of a sudden, Carlisle’s phone buzzed.
“Hello?” he asked.
We waited and then he shouted.
“What?! Okay, were coming. Thank you.” He کہا as he ended the call...
“What happened, Carlisle?” I asked.
He looked at me.
‘Jacob called me, Bella had just fainted.’ He thought.
“What?! How could that be?” I asked.
‘I don’t know either, let’s go.’ He thought as he went out the door.
I was about to follow him but then Alice spoke.
“I’ll come with you.” She said.
I nodded.
“How about us?” Emmett asked, he’s thinking of a fight.
“Don’t worry Emmett; it’s not about a war.” I کہا as I went outside.
I drove quickly. We reached Charlie’s house immediately.
We entered Bella’s room. I saw her on the بستر with Jacob sitting beside her.
“Bella?” I asked as I shook her slowly. I sat at her side.
“What happened to her?” Alice asked.
“I don’t know. She called my name and when I looked back at her, she fainted.” Jacob کہا worriedly.
“How could that be Carlisle? Vampires don’t faint and they don’t even felt dizzy.” Alice said.
“Well I guess, it’s not about her Vampiric nature.” Carlisle said.
“What do آپ mean? I asked.
“We all know that she’s physically strong. Even stronger than Emmett. But Vampires do have their weaknesses, Edward. Like me, my weakness was Esme, Alice’s weakness was Jasper, Rosalie’s weakness was Emmett and Bella’s weakness was… you. Yes, she is physically strong, but she’s emotionally weak. Do آپ remember when آپ thought that she’s dead? آپ went to Italy to provoke the Volturi to kill آپ without even having a سیکنڈ thought. You’re out of your mind. All آپ wanted was to be with her and to make her happy because your weakness was Bella. It’s the same thing. When she thought that آپ don’t love her anymore, it broke her دل so much. Like I said, her weakness was you; she doesn’t want to be hurt سے طرف کی you, and to see آپ being hurt. That’s why she left you. Because she thought that it will make آپ feel happier to be with that girl, whoever she is, though it really hurt her so much.” Carlisle explained.
I stared at Bella’s face.
Jacob suddenly spoke.
“How can آپ do that to her?” he asked me.
I didn’t respond.
“I thought آپ love her.” He said.
“I do.” I told him.
“But why?” he asked.
“I don’t know. I really don’t want to do this to her.” I کہا as I took a deep breath.
“But – “Jacob was about to speak when Alice cut him off.
“Enough. Edward, I think آپ better go out. She’ll be awake in less than 5 minutes. She doesn’t want to see you.” She کہا sadly.
I kissed Bella’s forehead. And I walked away. I stopped at the door and looked back to her. I sighed and continued to walk.
“I wanted to talk to her, alone. please.” Alice told Jacob.
“Sure” he کہا as he went out with Carlisle.
Well I can go a million miles an hour
But I’ve been bored so try to drag me down into the night
But if the morning I knew the song
In the arms of a miracle
Come back and see where you’re from
I can see the sun is on the rush
The pulse is strong, it warms آپ better than the Joe they left behind
But in the breath before آپ go
In the arms of a miracle
Come back and see where you’ve gone
It starts as a battle of luck
In the end it’s in the hands of a ghost
Well I am
Well I am
I can go a million miles an hour
But I can see the sun upon their eyes
I can go a million miles an hour
I can see it’s all true
آپ start to feel it finally
It starts as a battle of luck
But it ends when the hands of a ghost lay it down yeah
But I’ve been bored so try to drag me down into the night
But if the morning I knew the song
In the arms of a miracle
Come back and see where you’re from
I can see the sun is on the rush
The pulse is strong, it warms آپ better than the Joe they left behind
But in the breath before آپ go
In the arms of a miracle
Come back and see where you’ve gone
It starts as a battle of luck
In the end it’s in the hands of a ghost
Well I am
Well I am
I can go a million miles an hour
But I can see the sun upon their eyes
I can go a million miles an hour
I can see it’s all true
آپ start to feel it finally
It starts as a battle of luck
But it ends when the hands of a ghost lay it down yeah
So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of her young heart
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with آپ man
Don’t آپ see it’s wrong, can’t آپ get it right
Out of mind and out of sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state
Running in a whole new scene
آپ know I haven’t slept in weeks
You’re the only thing I see
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
No matter what آپ do
Yeah I’ll be true to you
Such a waste of her young heart
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with آپ man
Don’t آپ see it’s wrong, can’t آپ get it right
Out of mind and out of sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state
Running in a whole new scene
آپ know I haven’t slept in weeks
You’re the only thing I see
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart
Lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far
آپ stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
No matter what آپ do
Yeah I’ll be true to you
I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your سٹریٹ, گلی light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
چرا لیا, چوری کی me a dog-eared map
And called for آپ everywhere
Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
یا lost you
American mouth
Big pill looming
Now I’m a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain streams
Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounding, bleeding
یا lost you
American mouth
Big pill stuck going down
Diving too deep for coins
All of your سٹریٹ, گلی light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
چرا لیا, چوری کی me a dog-eared map
And called for آپ everywhere
Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
یا lost you
American mouth
Big pill looming
Now I’m a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain streams
Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounding, bleeding
یا lost you
American mouth
Big pill stuck going down