it hurts to live. life to me is a سیکنڈ death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems مزید peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her دل lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my دل over and over untill all the feelings of love and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my دل where my thoughts were محفوظ from causing me any مزید unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much مزید beautiful then me سے طرف کی now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life سے طرف کی being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. یا maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt love me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but سے طرف کی one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my chocolate brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and مزید tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the دیوار and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the ساحل سمندر, بیچ in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him ہوم to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once مزید and broke my دل again.
ALICE AND JASPER:
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS دل FROZEN IN TIME سے طرف کی A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS کہا TO BELLA سے طرف کی EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
LOVE SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN سے طرف کی RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS دل FROZEN IN TIME سے طرف کی A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS کہا TO BELLA سے طرف کی EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
LOVE SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN سے طرف کی RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL
For those of آپ who don't know me, یا have never read my fanfictions, I'm renesmeblack. I write a story from Renesmee, Jacob, Mine, and occasionally Emmett's POV. Now, I have a ton of bad ideas, and some of the things آپ read from me are crash tests. Thankfully, many of my readers enjoy my fanfictions. The dummy is saved!
My stories are for girls who can't stop reading the books. It's for girls who'd pester Stephenie Meyer to write a sequel, if they had a chance! I love Jacob, so that's another reason why girls read my, frankly, ameteur (hope I spelled that right!) writing. آپ wanna know the best part?
Okay, here goes nothing.
IT NEVER ENDS!!!
There. I feel better now. Yup, آپ read correctly. It'll never end until I grow out of the Twilight Stage (like that'll happen.).
For the very few شائقین I have, thanks for the support and I'll see آپ in the reading section!
-Thanks!
renesmeblack xoxo
My stories are for girls who can't stop reading the books. It's for girls who'd pester Stephenie Meyer to write a sequel, if they had a chance! I love Jacob, so that's another reason why girls read my, frankly, ameteur (hope I spelled that right!) writing. آپ wanna know the best part?
Okay, here goes nothing.
IT NEVER ENDS!!!
There. I feel better now. Yup, آپ read correctly. It'll never end until I grow out of the Twilight Stage (like that'll happen.).
For the very few شائقین I have, thanks for the support and I'll see آپ in the reading section!
-Thanks!
renesmeblack xoxo
Here's New Moon Confessions. like I کہا before, I don't any of these, I just گیا کیا پوسٹ them for people's enjoyments.
#1
I can hear Edward in my head too!
#2
If Edward dies, I headed off to Volterra.
#3
Alice چرا لیا, چوری کی my Porsche.
#4
Jane has my پسندیدہ vampire power.
#5
I have Edward's soul. *Evil Laugh*
#6
Bella's Epiphany = Stating the obvious.
#7
Edward didn't go to South America. He was visiting me.
#8
I named all of my dogs after Jacob and his friends.
#9
I skipped all of the chapters without Edward in them.
#10
I سیکنڈ Emmett's vote.
#11
I cut myself in front of Jasper for fun.
#12
If Bella won't marry Edward, I will.
please تبصرہ and rate!
#1
I can hear Edward in my head too!
#2
If Edward dies, I headed off to Volterra.
#3
Alice چرا لیا, چوری کی my Porsche.
#4
Jane has my پسندیدہ vampire power.
#5
I have Edward's soul. *Evil Laugh*
#6
Bella's Epiphany = Stating the obvious.
#7
Edward didn't go to South America. He was visiting me.
#8
I named all of my dogs after Jacob and his friends.
#9
I skipped all of the chapters without Edward in them.
#10
I سیکنڈ Emmett's vote.
#11
I cut myself in front of Jasper for fun.
#12
If Bella won't marry Edward, I will.
please تبصرہ and rate!
i hope آپ like my story sorry for the spelling and stuff like that im trying my best!!!!!
Rennesme POV
When آپ love the one, who left آپ no options at all,and change آپ campletely how can آپ fight with the world to not lose him?
What about if your life depend on the person, what would آپ do to tell him what آپ really feel about him and that آپ want to be with him FOREVER!!!!!!
And آپ have just one مزید chance to do it!!!!
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Rennesme POV
When آپ love the one, who left آپ no options at all,and change آپ campletely how can آپ fight with the world to not lose him?
What about if your life depend on the person, what would آپ do to tell him what آپ really feel about him and that آپ want to be with him FOREVER!!!!!!
And آپ have just one مزید chance to do it!!!!
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