I was expecting the kind of reaction I used to get when I'd say those kinds of things. But she just looked at me. Speculating. Was she actually thinking about it?! My دل beat faster as I grabbed at the oportunity.
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless آپ wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If آپ did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would آپ tell Charlie, Bella?" She کہا as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do آپ think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she کہا after a منٹ یا two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things آپ don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He کہا he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can آپ get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. آپ could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. آپ can do it. Don't آپ think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will آپ really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do آپ really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed آپ myself?" she was panicing. She was acting so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The سال of آپ being a newborn?"
I was confused سے طرف کی her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I کہا it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The آگ کے, آگ in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And آپ would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I کہا with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, یا had he دیا up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she کہا skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
"I could stay with you." I blurted out, and then thought better of it. "Unless آپ wanted space, then I could find somewhere else. If آپ did not want me crowding you." I was so happy that I might get what I had dreamt of for so long, I was babbling on.
"What would آپ tell Charlie, Bella?" She کہا as though she could not believe I hadn't thought of that already.
I looked down, deflated. No I couldn't give up. Just think, Bella, I told myself. Okay, say this was a normal situation. That was a strech, and it took me a while to لپیٹ, لفاف کریں my head around it, but when I did finally I got some ideas.
"I tell Charlie we're moving in together, and going to college somewhere really far away."
She looked suprised. Perfect.
"And what do آپ think that would help, Bella?" she did not sound mad. Just patient.
"What would it help? Alice...look at me! Do I look okay? What wouldn't it help?"
She opened her mouth to say something, and then shut it again. We sat there for a moment. Just lookig at each other. My eyes were begging, hers were thinking. Hard.
Her eyes grew wide, and suddenly my eyes weren't the only ones begging.
"Bella..." she کہا after a منٹ یا two, in a slightly paniced voice. "I don't even know if I could, and there are so many things آپ don't know, and he'd kill me!" she blurted out.
I knew who she was talking about. Try as I may not to. I knew.
"Why...Why would he care? He left, Alice. He کہا he never wanted to see me again. The only thing he asked is that I be safe...How much safer can آپ get?" I argued. She was about to argue back at me, so I went on before she cold start.
"And what if he did care? So what? It's not his decition anymore. آپ could teach me what I don't know. And I believe in you. آپ can do it. Don't آپ think I have the right to make this decition for myself?"
She paused. Her eyes bored into mine.
"Yes." she answered quietly. "You do."
I jumped up. She stood up, too, and we stared at each other again. "Really?" I asked, breathless. Could this be happening? Did I finally just get what I've been wanting for almost a year?...Was it really only a year? It felt like an eternity...
"Will آپ really make me a vampire?" Excitement made my voice a little louder then it should have been. She, "Shh"ed me.
"There is no guarantee that I will be able to, Bella. You're taking a very big risk. And do آپ really think I'd be able to live without you? Especially if I had killed آپ myself?" she was panicing. She was acting so...human.
"Everything will be okay, Alice. Everything will be perfect." I was a lie. And yet it wasn't. If this worked, then I would be able to follow him...be able to follow Edward. There as no pain in thinking his name now. Not when I had hope. Not when I was going to see him again. Soon.
"And the pain?" she asked, breaking me from my daydream. "The سال of آپ being a newborn?"
I was confused سے طرف کی her use of words. Newborn? I suppose I understood. I would be 'born' in a way. Born to a whole new life. A better life. I smiled. But I made myself focus. "I can handle the pain." It did not sound like a lie, because at the time I کہا it, I thought it was true. Then I remembered the ballet studio. The آگ کے, آگ in my vains. I rubbed my wrist where I would always be scarred as if I could feel it again. Her eyes darted to my wrist and narrowed when she looked back at my face. "And آپ would help me, right?" I asked to distract her. "You wouldn't let me do anything." I کہا with confidence. I was winning this arguement. That was a first.
"Your friends?" she asked.
"Like who? Jessica?" I snorted. But then I thought back on it. The only reason why I hadn't thought of him at first was because it felt like another time. A time before Jacob Black was my best friend. It felt like time switched back to the present when I thought of him. I felt painfully guilty. I would miss him so much. But did he even want to talk to me anymore, یا had he دیا up? I should let him give me up. It would be a lot easier to let him go if I had something other than him to keep me alive. And now I did have that. So I could. It hurt. But I had felt much worse. I could live through it. And so could he.
Alice must have seen the pain on my face, because she کہا skeptically, "Really?"
But I was sure now. So I answered her in a firm voice. "Yes. I'm sure."
This is for people who have been reading Esme's Story:
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please تبصرہ and tell me which ones آپ like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If آپ can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a مزید interesting name so it draws مزید attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a فہرست of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please تبصرہ and tell me which ones آپ like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If آپ can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a مزید interesting name so it draws مزید attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a فہرست of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
Edward's Pov.
I wake up, finding myself asleep, in ropes, mouth covered. Everyone else is sleeping,
and I can't break myself out of it. Then, Jasper and the man, come in. I pretend to sleep.
"Should we do it now? یا later?"
"The killing of Bella? We will wait until she goes through what these guys experienced,
then, we will do them first. Then her."
No. No. NO!!!!! I must get my self out of this! I must find Bella and fast!!
What am I going to do! I can't get myself out!
Rosalie: Uh...
Jasper: Looks like sumbody's up! Can we do it now master? Please!?
Just so I know what to do with the others?
Master: Alright, but just her.
Rosalie: AH Mrjekjsnubgu!!!
NO!!! NOT ROSALIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wake up, finding myself asleep, in ropes, mouth covered. Everyone else is sleeping,
and I can't break myself out of it. Then, Jasper and the man, come in. I pretend to sleep.
"Should we do it now? یا later?"
"The killing of Bella? We will wait until she goes through what these guys experienced,
then, we will do them first. Then her."
No. No. NO!!!!! I must get my self out of this! I must find Bella and fast!!
What am I going to do! I can't get myself out!
Rosalie: Uh...
Jasper: Looks like sumbody's up! Can we do it now master? Please!?
Just so I know what to do with the others?
Master: Alright, but just her.
Rosalie: AH Mrjekjsnubgu!!!
NO!!! NOT ROSALIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Renesmee Pov.
I was excited when I heard that I got to do what my family does!
I was happy until now. That sign creeped me out. Greatly. Mom and
Dad were in front of the crowd, and I stood in the back اگلے to Emmett
and Rosalie. Uncle Emmett hugged me. He knew that I was dyingly scared.
"It will be okay. Uncle Jasper will be back to normal in no time," he کہا gently.
"Right. He will be fine," Aunt Rosalie said.
Suddenly, the large door opened, then, mom and dad entered proudly.
__________________________________________________
I felt a chill spread through my body. Though, I felt like I need to help Jasper. He needs
help. My help.
As we entered the black castle, it was pitch black. There was a bondfire ahead of us and
it wasn't just a regular fire! IT MOVED! It showed us the way until we reached the main room.
Then there were three doors. Through the middle, we heard yelling and screaming from a
girl.
I was excited when I heard that I got to do what my family does!
I was happy until now. That sign creeped me out. Greatly. Mom and
Dad were in front of the crowd, and I stood in the back اگلے to Emmett
and Rosalie. Uncle Emmett hugged me. He knew that I was dyingly scared.
"It will be okay. Uncle Jasper will be back to normal in no time," he کہا gently.
"Right. He will be fine," Aunt Rosalie said.
Suddenly, the large door opened, then, mom and dad entered proudly.
__________________________________________________
I felt a chill spread through my body. Though, I felt like I need to help Jasper. He needs
help. My help.
As we entered the black castle, it was pitch black. There was a bondfire ahead of us and
it wasn't just a regular fire! IT MOVED! It showed us the way until we reached the main room.
Then there were three doors. Through the middle, we heard yelling and screaming from a
girl.
ALICE AND JASPER:
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS دل FROZEN IN TIME سے طرف کی A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS کہا TO BELLA سے طرف کی EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
LOVE SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN سے طرف کی RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN ALMOST A DECADE I FELT HOPE
JASPERS دل FROZEN IN TIME سے طرف کی A SINGLE BITE.
FLYING LIKE A HUMMING BIRDS WINGS (THIS LINE WAS کہا TO BELLA سے طرف کی EDWARD -ECLIPSE-)
HOPE, HAPPINESS, KINDNESS, UNDERSTANDING, AND...LOVE
ALL AT ONCE COMING FROM SUCH A SMALL PERSON.
EMOTIONS HE BEARLY RECONIZED.
EMOTIONS HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE.
EMOTIONS THAT WOULD SOON BE HIS WHOLE LIFE.
EMOTINS THAT BELONGED TO ALICE HIS ONE AND ONLY REASON TO LIVE.
LOVE SO STRONG, THEY WOULD KILL. KILL ONCE, TWICE... UNTIL THEY GOT TO THERE OTHER HALF
ALICE ISNT JUST JASPERS LOVE
SHE IS HIS KEY, HIS KEY TO HAPPINESS
THERE SOULS ATACHED FOREVER
THERE SOULS INTERWINED TOGHETHER
THERE SOULS BELONG TO EACH OTHER
SOULMATES FOR THE REST OF INTERNITY
BROUGHT TO HAPPINESS TOGHETHER AND WHEN IT COMES TIME THEY WILL BE TAKEN OUT TOGHETHER
THANX FOR READING
WRITTEN سے طرف کی RACHEL KETTLEWELL
TWILIGHT GIRL
For those of آپ who don't know me, یا have never read my fanfictions, I'm renesmeblack. I write a story from Renesmee, Jacob, Mine, and occasionally Emmett's POV. Now, I have a ton of bad ideas, and some of the things آپ read from me are crash tests. Thankfully, many of my readers enjoy my fanfictions. The dummy is saved!
My stories are for girls who can't stop reading the books. It's for girls who'd pester Stephenie Meyer to write a sequel, if they had a chance! I love Jacob, so that's another reason why girls read my, frankly, ameteur (hope I spelled that right!) writing. آپ wanna know the best part?
Okay, here goes nothing.
IT NEVER ENDS!!!
There. I feel better now. Yup, آپ read correctly. It'll never end until I grow out of the Twilight Stage (like that'll happen.).
For the very few شائقین I have, thanks for the support and I'll see آپ in the reading section!
-Thanks!
renesmeblack xoxo
My stories are for girls who can't stop reading the books. It's for girls who'd pester Stephenie Meyer to write a sequel, if they had a chance! I love Jacob, so that's another reason why girls read my, frankly, ameteur (hope I spelled that right!) writing. آپ wanna know the best part?
Okay, here goes nothing.
IT NEVER ENDS!!!
There. I feel better now. Yup, آپ read correctly. It'll never end until I grow out of the Twilight Stage (like that'll happen.).
For the very few شائقین I have, thanks for the support and I'll see آپ in the reading section!
-Thanks!
renesmeblack xoxo