Today is Saturday edward and the cullens are going hunting so i guess edward is goin to tell everyone what happened i bet alice will be over later.I got up and got dressed i ate breakfast and started watching tv.I was trying to think what i could do today,i havent seen Jacob in a while not since he told me he was a werewolf edward کہا it was dangerous.But he cant tell me what to do,so i got up and called jacob.
"Hello?"it was jacob it was good to hear his husky voice.
"Hi jake it's bella"i کہا to him.
"Bella!,hi how are ya!"he کہا now sounding really happy i chuckled a bit.
"Im fine how are you"i asked.
"Im fine i miss you"he کہا back to me.
"I miss آپ too"i said,"That is why i called to see if آپ are free to hang out"
"Ya,but i have to come down to آپ its way too busy up here"he کہا he sounds happy سے طرف کی the idea od us hanging out.
"Thats fine when do آپ want to come up?"i asked i hope its soon.
"Now is that okay"he کہا perfect.
"Thats great cya in a few"i said.
"Cya"he کہا then hung up.
I went back into the front room,then i rememberd jake hadnt seen me pregnant how will he react?,i guess i will have to wait and see.After a couple of منٹ i heard his car coming into the driveway.Then i heard a knock on the door,i got up and opened it.Jake looked at my face then my stomack his eyes nearly came out of his head,then his knees starteed to wobble and he crabed the door frame.
"You better sit down"i کہا and led him to the sofa.
"What the hell did آپ do?"he asked but i dont think he ment to ask that because he knows how babies are made.
"I'm pregnant"i کہا my voice going low.
"I really hope آپ cheated on him"he کہا it really sounded like he was hopeing.
"No i'm sorry she is half vampire"i کہا while putting my hand on my stomack.
"It's a girl"he کہا sounding مزید careing.
"Ya she is due on the 13th of September my birthday"i کہا i looked at him his eyes were fixed on his stomack.
"Thats good"he کہا half paying attention.Then he lookeed up at me.
"I'm sorry it's just alot to take in,its gross because its his and he is a vampire"he کہا then shivered with disgused.
"Where is he any way i thought he would be with the mother of his child یا monster"he کہا joking.I punched him in the arm.
"She is not a monster,and edward is hunting.....we are not together anymore"i کہا angry at first but then went sad.
"What did he do"he کہا getting angry.
"He was going to leave because he کہا it was time to go,but then i told him i was pregnant and he stayed.But hhe was going to leave me and that is why we are not together.Then yesterday i was on my way to forgive him so we could be together when i saw jassica and edward kissing,it broke my دل again then we had a fight a big one and we having talked since"i said.jakes eyes were wide.He didnt say anything he just hugged me.
"I'm sorry,so what are آپ calling her"he asked changing the subjeact.
"I dunno what do آپ think i should call her"i کہا because i really had no idea.
"Sarah.....Jane....Amy..."he کہا thinking of random names.
"No"i کہا and i kept on thinking.
"Renesmee"i کہا i like it renee and esme together is beautiful.
"Renesmee ya thats nice"he کہا back thinking about how the name sounds.
"Renesmee Carlie but with a C for charlie and carlisle"i کہا my daughter is going to have a beautiful name.
"Thats nice,but what is her سیکنڈ name"he کہا unsure,thats a goos point is she going to me سوان, ہنس یا cullen.
"I dunno i think i have to talk to edward about that one"i کہا because i really do need to talk to edward about baby stuff.
"Ya sorry and good luck,i better go sam has me on pertrol cya another time"he کہا as he got up.
"Okat then cya soon"i کہا the he left.I dont know why but i felt a bit sad that jake was going i felt happy when he was here.It felt different from the other times i would hang out with him.
I turned the t.v on again and started watching it,i am so bord i am normally working but since i got pregnant i stoped.After about an گھنٹہ later i heard a knock on the door,i sighed and went and answered the door.It was edward he looked scared,he saw me and sighed then walked in.
"Come in"i کہا as he sat down on my sofa it was a bit rude to walk into my house just like that.
"You cant just walk into my house like that anymore"i کہا sitting down on the sofa.
"Sorry its just alice saw your future dissapere and that normally means that آپ are dead so i came to see if آپ were alive"he said,then i remembered when i plan to see jake my future goes because alice cant see werewolfs.
"Ya alice cant see werewolfs "i کہا edwards eyes widened.
"What آپ were with a werewolf that is so dangerous i told آپ not to go near them"he nearly shouted.
"It was jacob and i dont have to listen to you,you are nothing to me but the father of my child"i کہا angrley.I looked at him it looked like what i just کہا hurt him.After a moment of silence he said:
"Is that how آپ feel about me"me murmered.
"I am not having this conversation"i کہا as i stood up.
"Bella wait i just want to know"he کہا while crabbing my hand.I looked at my hand and pulled it away firsley.
"I am not just going to forget what آپ did to me edward,you were going to leave me and that broke my دل that آپ were going to leave me.Then i finaly forgive آپ and then آپ are kissing my friend,i cant forget that normal people can but i'm not normal آپ have hurt me to much"i whispered,he looked like i was burning him alive.
"Bella i know i hurt آپ but---"but before he finished i said:
"But it was for me to keep me safe,cut the crap!kissing someone else is not for my own good,i know its none of my buisness who آپ are with but please dont let me see if آپ are with someone it is horrible i just cant bare being pregnant and seeing someone آپ love kissing someone else"i کہا sounding hurt his eyes widened shocked at what i said,he came over to me with his hands out as if he was going ot hug me but i turned away.
"Dont please"i whispered then he put his hands down.
"So why were آپ with jacob and not your other friends"he asked looking at me with interest.
"Because one of them thinks im a slut for being pregnant,mike is not aloud because his parents say i am a bad influence being pregnant so young,and the rest are all getting applacations ready for collage which i am not going to because i will have a baby to look after,and will get even harder when آپ have to dissappear,all of it revolves around you,you want me to go on about how else آپ ruined my life and almost destroyed it completly"i shouted his teeth were clenched together.
"You can still go to collage"he murmered.
"No i cant,you will have to go soon because آپ dont change and people will see that and will be left with a half human half vampire baby to care for on myself.And someday someone will want to kill me یا my baby it might be victoria since james didnt do it and i cant protect my self and my baby from vampires.You will be gone forever with someone else forgetting about me مزید everyday while i am stuck with a reminder of آپ for the rest of my days."i کہا back to him.
"I wont leave آپ ever"he said.
"You cant promise that because آپ cant keep it آپ will have to leave,you will leave me and آپ will leave Renesmee eventually"i said.
"Renesmee she is called Renesmee"he کہا lovingly.
"Yes i named her Renesmee Carlie but with a C for Carlisle and Charlie"i said.
"Its beautiful"he said.
"Edward can آپ please go because i am angry hurt and upset and being pregnant makes it ten times worse so just go back hunting okay"i کہا to him.
"Okay i'm sorry"he کہا then walked to the door.
"Cya"i کہا i saw a bit of a smile on his face when i کہا that.
"Cya"he کہا then left.
I made charlie رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا and told him my babies name,he loved it.I decided to go to بستر after that because i was so tired,i went up stairs and changed into a سب, سب سے اوپر was like skin tight and آپ could see my bump clearly and a pair of shorts.I got in my بستر and layed down,i could not get asleep renesmee would not stop moving.I think she wants edward because she was not moing when edward was here earlier.I took out my cd player and put in the cd edward made for me for my birthday in it,i put headphones in and it started playing.After a while she stoped moving and calmed down,After about an گھنٹہ woke up but didnt open my eyes but i felt cold hands around me and on my stomack.Edward i was going to tell him to leave but i was so hot and his cold embrace was so nice,and i miss edward at night holding me in his arms and so did renesmee.Just then she kicked and was right on the spot were edwards hand was i heard him gasp,after that it was like she went to sleep she was happy and peaceful when edward was here.After a while i was still hot around my chest,i rolled over and put my arms around edwards waist as if i had rolled over and grabed a teddy.A moment later i felt his arms embrace me again it felt so nice to have his arms around me.Then i felt him take the headphones out of my ears and leave the cd player on my bedside desk.Then i heard him whisper:
"I love آپ and i know آپ love me too آپ always will no matter what we go through"i was shocked he sounded serious but it was ture i will always love him no matter what he does to me,but i still dont forgive him he has hurtme so much.