I sat down on the sofa and so did edward,He sat down right beside me.After a while i drifted off to sleep,i dont know when i woke up but it was really dark.Then i noticed my head was on edward's shoulder,when i was asleep i must have leaned on him.I looked at edward he seemed comfortable and happy really happy,i took my head off edwards shoulder and looked at him.
"Your awake"he کہا smiling that dazzleing smile,he had dazzled me one again.
"Ya,i was really tired sorry"i کہا getting akeward.
"Its okay i didnt mind"he کہا smiling even wider.
"Of corse آپ didnt"i کہا and he laughed a bit i looked at my watch it was 9 o'clock.
"Where is charlie?"i asked.
"He called and کہا he would be ہوم tomorrow that something happened and he is sorry"he کہا back to me.I was going to be ہوم alone and i am pregnant something will happen knowing my luck.
"Um..do آپ mind staying here tonight because i will be ہوم alone and me being pregnant makes me مزید unlucky"i کہا smiling shyly.He looked shocked.
"Ya of corse thats fine"he کہا in a normal tone but i could hear that he was well happy.
"The food"i کہا while trying to stand up but he got up before me he smile and held out his hand i took it and got up.
"I saved it,its ready for آپ to eat"he کہا while holding out the chair for me to sit in.I ate my رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا then decided to go to بستر i was still tired.
"I am going to get changed then i am going to بستر so,um decide what آپ are going to do"i کہا then went up the stairs.
I dont go into the bathroom to get changed anymore since edward is never in my room,i got on some shorts then took off my shirt.Just then edward walked into my room i screamed and turned around,i heard the door close.
"Edward!"i shouted.
"I'm sorry i thought آپ were in the bathroom"he کہا i could hear the smile in his voice.
"I dont have to get changed in their anymore your not in my room,and this is not funny"i کہا in a angry tone he laughed a bit.
"It doesnt matter i've seen آپ naked before"he کہا sounding smug.
"Ya but that was when آپ were aloud to,but we are not together anymore so آپ cant see me like that anymore"i کہا to him he went silent.
"Sorry"he said.
"Well آپ should be"i کہا then opened the door the سب, سب سے اوپر i was wearing was skin tight.
"What did آپ want in my room anyway?"i asked while he looked me up and down.
"My eyes are up here"i کہا to him,he looked my in the eyes and smiled.
"Sorry and i am going to sit in the rocking chair if that is fine with you"he کہا to me melting me with his golden eyes.
"Ya fine"i کہا and moved out of the way of the door.He went in and sat in the chair.
I went and sat in my bed,it was really hot again but it was probebly just me.After a couple of منٹ Renesmee started kicking,i gasped because it was like she was playing football.
"Whats wrong?"he asked concerend.
"Come here"i کہا to him,he got off the chair and stood beside the bed,i grabed his hand and pulled him onto the بستر and put my hand to my stomack.Then Renesmee kicked again where his hand was he smiled and looked at me.
"That never gets old"he کہا then gasped realixing that he had just giving away that he had basically been in my room with me when i was asleep,he had been since the دن jacob came to visit everynight but i never told him to go away it was nice having him here.
"Dont worrie i know that آپ are in here everynight i'm not stupid"i کہا laughing a bit.
"H-how?"he stuttered.
"Well when your pregnant آپ dont get much sleep,and آپ are cold so when it feels like the have sunburn all over then coldness comes it normally means your water has broke یا well in my case a vampire has their arms around you.And renesmee calms down when آپ are here"i کہا if i could see him i would most likly see someone really shocked.
"Um-sorry"he کہا shocked.
"Its okay"i کہا then turned on my bedside lamp i turned back round to edward but he face was inches from mine we both breathed in we were about to kiss.
"I cant"i کہا then layed down.
"I know im sorry"he کہا then went and sat back down on the chair,after a منٹ of silence i asked:
"What are آپ doing tomorrrow"
"I dont know i will probebly help them build the house what about you?"he asked
"I going up to La Push to visit jacob he asked me to come up"i کہا to him.
"Okay,be careful آپ never know when they could آپ know explode"he کہا trying to find the right words to say when they get angry and change.
"I know"i کہا to him.
"Goodnight"i کہا to him.
"Goodnight"he کہا i was half asleep in about 30 seonds so i was not really consious.
"I Love You"he کہا to me and without thinking as i was nearly asleep i said:
"I Love آپ too"then i fell asleep.
I woke up that morning feeling not as tired as i normally did,probebly because i knew edward was there.I sat up and edward was in the rocking chair,smiling again.
"Goodmorning"he کہا to me.
"Goodmorning"i کہا back to him.
"Your hair looks like a haystack"he said.
"Where have i heard that before"i کہا to him he smiled again.
"I think آپ should have some breakfast now dont you?"he کہا while getting up.
"Yes i have to change first,and dont come in this time"i کہا to him while getting up aswell.
"I'll try"he کہا then left my room,i went into the bathroom did what o had to do in there then got changed.I was wearing a blue سب, سب سے اوپر with comfortable trousers.Then i went downstairs,i went into the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ and edward just serverd eggs on my plate i sat down and started eating.
"Thank you"i کہا to him.
"Your welcome"he کہا back smiling.
After a while of talking about the house and how edward would come over and help me explain to charlie about moving out and edward will be moving with me.
"I have to go to jakes now"i کہا to him because it was now two o'clock.
"Ya i better get going aswell get started on our house"he کہا in a normal tone again but i could hear he was full of happiness of saying our house.
"Okay then Cya later"i کہا to him.
"Cya"he کہا then drove off,a couple of منٹ later jake turned up I walked outside and jake came out of the car and huged me.
"Hello"i کہا to him.
"Hello and hello to آپ too renesmee,you are getting bigger سے طرف کی the day"he کہا while putting his hand on my stomack.
"I know"i کہا to him we got in his car and drove to La Push.We got there and got out of the car.
"So what are we doing?"i asked.He looked a bit nervous.
"I have a picnic set up for us on thre beach"he کہا while taking my hand and leading me to the beach.
"This lookes lovely"i کہا while sitting down on the mat that was layed down,it did look lovely i was hungry.
"Good"he کہا and sat down too.
We ate our food aswell as talking about,wel everything renesmee,rene and how she was coming over but i didnt tell him about edward ad the house and my new apatite for blood.We were finally finished it was really nice.
"Thanks jake that was great,it was very knid of you"i کہا while standing up and so did he.
"Bella i have to ask آپ something"he کہا to me in a nervous way.
"Okay shot"i کہا to him but then he got down on one knee and pulled out a ring then looked me in the eyes.
"Bella will آپ marry me?"he asked OH MY GOD why is he doing this to me i thought he knew how i felt about him,i wish i didnt have to do this but i do.
"No....i'm sorry jake"i کہا then ran off,i looked back he was still in the same position shocked....hurt.I kept on running until i was at his house i took out my phone and called alice because i didnt have my truck jake brought me here.
"Hello?"it was edward why was he on alices phone.
"Edward wheres alice?"i asked crying.
"Their hunting i am the only one here are آپ okay?"he asked getting worried.
"Ya...um can آپ pick me up?"i asked still crying.
"Yes of corse where are you?"he asked.
"Im at la push dont worrie i'll walk to the line"i کہا remembering the treaty line.
"Thank you,i'll be right there"he کہا then hug up.
I walked to the line i was crying the hole time,when edward showed up i was still sniffling.I walked over to the car and got in,he looked at me and his eyes widened then narrowed probebly thinking what could have made me cry.He started driving i was calming down but my breaths were still sharp and quick.
"Are آپ okay?"he asked in a low voice.
"Not really"i managed to say.
"Did he hurt you?"he asked noticeabley getting angry.
"No"i answered back,it was getting better to breath and talk now.
"Is he hurt?"he asked,he really wants to know.
"Not physically but defentally hurt"i کہا in a low sad voice.He didnt speek.
"What hapened then?"he asked not looking at me just staring out the windsheild.
"He purposed to me"i murmered,then all of a sudden the car stoped i grabed onto the chair so i wouldnt fling forward.I looked at edward,he looked angry,sad,shocked and heartbroken and scared.The his eyes shot down to me left hand looking for a ring.
"I کہا no"i whispered.He let out a sigh of relife but then looked at me and saw i was in pain because of what i had done to jake.
"He shouldnt have asked it,he knew i didnt feel that way he could have saved himself this pain and saved me this pain because i had to break his heart,and watch the pain overcome his face the pain i caused!"i کہا as my voice got higher.
"Its not آپ fault"he finially کہا his voice sad.
"It is i کہا no to him i broke his heart"i nearly shouted.
"But آپ کہا what آپ felt and the answer to his سوال he wanted and answer if آپ wanted to spend the rest of your life with him and آپ کہا no"he کہا to me,he was right.Then we turned into his drive way i dont care that we were going to his house as long as it was away from jake.
We went into his house and sat on the sofa,i sat stareing at nothing not saying nothing just thinking about what had just happened and how jacob must feel.Then Renesmee kicked she was sad too.
"Its okay dont worrie"i کہا and edward looked at me wondering why i was talking to myself.
"I was talking to Renesmee not myself she calms down when i talk to her"i کہا rubbing my stomack.
"I see,but how did آپ know i was thinking about that?"he asked.
"Its not hard to guess i would be wondering the same thing"i کہا laughing a bit.Then i heard:
"She can be so strange sometimes"it was edward i looked at him and he was smiling.
If i wasnt strange i would be me"i کہا to him,he looked at me with wide eyes.
"How did آپ know that?"asked me shocked.
"You just کہا it"i کہا to him.
"No i thought it"he کہا to me.
"Oh....renesmee"i whispered.
"Maybe"he said.
"Well how else could i read your mind if it wasnt renesmee"i کہا to him.
"I dont know it seemes to be her"he کہا but then i got a idea.
"If renesmee can hear peoples thoughts cant آپ hear hers"i asked.
"Maybe"he کہا then started listening.
"Nothing its like a tinnie buzzing because your womb is protecting it"he said.
"Try moving closer"i کہا to him,"Its okay just try"i said.
Then he moved his head up against my stomack then i heard:
"Daddy can hear me"i gasped and so did edward we both heard her edward sat up again.
"I heard her"he whispered.
"I heard her too"i کہا to him both of us were in shock.
"I can hear whats in her head because she is a part of me,so she can read minds so when she hears someones thoughts i hear them too"i کہا finally figuring this out.
"Yes but she only lets آپ hear when she wants too"he whispered.
"She also feels what آپ feel because she is a part of آپ thats why she was upset earlier bacause آپ were too"he کہا
"She is very smart"i said.
"Yes she is her mind is very mature she can understand things that are very complex"he کہا then کہا in his mind"just like her mother".i smiled at him.
"Its going to take a while to get used to آپ being able to hear my thoughts"he said.
"Yes"i کہا laughing a bit.He smiled then کہا "God i love her laugh"then he looked up at me and i was trying not to smile.
"Darn this is going to be hard"he said.
"Now آپ know why i am happy آپ cant read my thoughts"i کہا laughing.
Then everyone came in the door,then saw me and edward laughing an edward was still very close to me.
"Sorry are we interupting something"emmett کہا then sai in his mind"As if she could do anything shes pregnant"i laughed.
"Nothing emmett"edward کہا a bit angry about what emmett کہا in his mind.
"Why are آپ two so happy?"jasper asked then thought"Probebly got back together".
"No jasper we havent got back together"i said,jasper looked at me shocked.
"Oh ya,Renesmee can hear thoughts and when she hears thoughts and she wants bella to hear them well she lets bella hear"edward said.
"And i can also read renesmee's mind"he added,everyone looked shocked.
"That is amazing"carlisle said"Bella and renesmee amaze me مزید everyday"he کہا in his head.
After that everyone was asking مزید about the baby and what she was thinking until i finally said:
"She has gone to sleep now"everyone smile so did i because i wasnt ablw to hear anyone thoughts anymore it was giving me a sore head.
"What else is wrong bella i can feel anger,sadness and آپ also feel apologitic"jasper said.
"Oh ya something else happened today aswell"i sais to them.
"What happened now,renesmee change آپ into something else"emmett joked.
"No,jacob purposed to me"i کہا then everyone's eyes got wide but they all went silent.
"HA"emmett shouted,that woke up renesmee so i could hear everyones thoughts again"why did he ask that he knows he cant have her she is having a half vampire baby for goodness sake!"it was rose saying in her head but everyone elses thoughts were like that too.Then they thought"what did she say?"they all looked at my hand for ring,they sighed when they didnt see one.
"I کہا no"i murmered.
"I'm sorry"esme said.
"how did he take it?"alice asked me.
"Not well"i کہا then esme and alice came and sat beside me
"He was still in the same position when i left him......down on one knee"i کہا like i was in pain because i was i had broken his heart.
"Awww bella,its okay its not your fault he shouldnt have put آپ in that position"esme کہا lovingly.
"I know but he looked so hurt"i whispered.
"It alright"alice کہا then gave me a hug.
"I better go ہوم charlie will be ہوم soon"i کہا to them.
"I'll bring you"edward volountered.
"Thanks"i کہا then stood up with the help of esme.
"Cya"i کہا to everyone.
"Cya tomorrow"they all said.
I got in edwards car and he started driving,i was feeling sad,sorry and nervous.
"Whats wrong?"edward asked i forgot when renesmee is awake she feels what i feel and edward reads her mind.
"I am nervous charlie has probebly heard what happened from billy and he is going to سوال me about why i کہا no and all that"i کہا to him.
He didnt say anything until we turned up at my house.
"Yes he is going to سوال you,sorry"he کہا to me then sighed.
"Its okay its not youre fault"i sighed then got out of the car.
"Thank you,for everything"i کہا to him.
"Your welcome"he کہا back to me.
"Goodbye"i کہا to him.
"Goodbye"he کہا then i closed the door and drove off.I walked into my house and into the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ charlie was sitting at the میز, جدول reading the news paper.
"Hello"i کہا to him.
"Hello"he کہا in a dissaproving tone,ugh this is going to be a long evening.I took some food out of the fridge and put it in the microwave.
"I heard about what happened today"he کہا like it was a normal conversation.
"And...."i added on so he would continue i might aswell get this over with.
"And i think آپ made the wrong choice"he کہا then sighed.
"I dont think so,i am pregnant for one thing,i am going to be moving in with edward and i dont love him so i think that is enough reasons to say no to him"i کہا back to him and he knew i was right because my reasons were good.
"You are not going to be pregnant forever so when آپ are not pregnant آپ could have got married.Jacob could have moved in with آپ instead of edward if آپ کہا yes,and آپ could learn to love him آپ havent tried to love him,you are always around edward he is holding آپ back"charlie کہا giving ulternatives to my reasons.
"No dad آپ cant learn to love someone it just happenes,and of corse edward is around me i am having his child i will have this child for as long as i live and edward will want to see his daughter so edward will always be in my life,and what makes آپ think i dont love edward?"i کہا to him,he was not prepared for me to have answeres to his questions.
"After all he has put آپ through آپ still love him"charlie کہا shocked.I thought about what i was going to say اگلے because i hadnt actually decided myself if i still love edward so i will be telling myself aswell as charlie.
"Yes i still love him,once آپ love someone it doesnt just fade away and there is nothing آپ can do to change my mind okay charlie"i کہا to him his eyes widened then narrowed.
"Okay"he کہا as i gave him food.I ate my رات کے کھانے, شام کا کھانا then went up to my bedroom.I got changed and sat in my بستر i started listening to my cd edward made it for me when i listen to it renesmee calms down.
I fell asleep a while after that but i soon heard edward coming in y window.I didnt open my eyes i just let him come in,this was one of the ways he got to be with me and renesmee.I felt him come and lay down beside me and put his hands on my stomack:
"Dont worrie i will get your mum back even if its the last thing i do"he کہا then kissed my stomack.
He seemes very determined maybe just maybe i will give him a chance to make up for what he has done to me.