My Dad walked in the room and sat on the corner of the bed. He let out a sigh...I knew where this was going.
"Sweetie, why do آپ keep doing this. This is the سیکنڈ time you've been in the hospital for trying to kill yourself." I looked at him. Did he just really say this out loud.
"Well, it's quicker than pills" I کہا back, my head bowed down.He grabbed my face and stroked my hair.
"Tell me why آپ keep doing this Ladybug." He pleaded.
"Everything is always my fault.Mom's dead because of me. We had to اقدام because of me." I started to sob quietly to myself. My dad pulled me in a hug.
"Your mom's death was not your fault, a drunk driver hit her car and that's what killed her and we moved because I got a better job and I could see how everything around آپ was causing آپ pain because it reminded آپ of her because I was going through the same thing." He کہا to me and I held him closer.
They released me from the hospital a couple of days ago. I would have got out earlier if it wasn't for me "suicide" attempt. I was getting ready to go to the store one Saturday when Kim and Nessie showed up, who were my best friends.
"Hey Lanise!" They both کہا and hugged me. We went to go sit on the couch.
"How have آپ been?" They asked me.
"I've been good, I was about to go to the store.Why?" I asked them. They looked shocked.
"What??We can't ask آپ a question??"Nessie کہا sounding to sound surprised. I gave her a look that told her I wasn't buying it.
"You guys, cut the crap! Just tell me what آپ came here to tell me." I basically demanded them to do. They looked at each other.
"It's Seth." She paused and waited for my reaction.I trend to hide the brightness in my eyes.She continued" We're worried about him. He won't eat یا sleep. They only thing we get a reaction out of is when we mention your name. آپ need to talk to him. I think He's losing it." I sighed. Why were they telling me this, to torture me??
"He has a girlfriend remember?" I told them and they rolled their eyes. Nessie looked at me and I could tell she was pissed.
"Lanise, what the hell is your problem!?"She shouted at me"Why are آپ torturing him like this??You and I both know آپ still love him. We see how it makes آپ whenever he is around. آپ want to take him back but can't,you're scared, he's scared. Just talk to him before he kills himself over you." I sighed she was right why am I torturing the boy I love...Why am I torturing Me? I got up and walked to his house.
When I got there, his sister Leah, answered the door.She pulled me into a hug.
"Thank god you're here. I was worried sick about him, we just got him to take a nap. He'is in his room" She کہا and released me from his hug. I walked back to his door. I hesisated before opening it. I gasped at what I saw. He looked like he was about to die. He was skinner and had bags under his eyes. I felt the tears starting to come. I went and sat on the edge of his بستر and held his hand in mine. I started to recite 'Forever my love will be' سے طرف کی Anthony Lane Ferguson.
" When troubles bring آپ down
and آپ don't know what to do,
just look inside your دل
and you'll know that I love you.

Every one has a destiny to find,
looking in your eyes I have found mine.
You're all I ever wanted,
you're all I'll ever need.

I will be yours always,
آپ will have my love for eternity." I felt a hand on my cheeks, who wiped the tears away. I looked at him.
" It's okay don't cry Sunshine" he کہا to me. I smiled and wrapped my hands around his waist."Promise that you'll never hurt yourself" He asked me.
"I promise." I کہا and kissed him with so much passion that if the world would come to an end right now, I wouldn't care because I was with the one I love.