Sorry I haven't written one of these in a while. Forgive me. Just to be clear, Rose is the one that last talked about "the other one", meaning another baby. Neither Bella nor Alice are prego. :) Thanks for waiting!!
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"Hello?" Rose waved her hand infront of our face. "Guys?"
"ANOTHER ONE?" Alice yelled making everyone within a ten mile radius jump.
Rose smiled. "Yeah. I haven't even told Emmett yet."
"Rose. That's awesome!" I leaned across the counter to hug her.
"I think so to." She smiled. "I really hope this one is a girl. Maybe she won't be as much of a handful as Jackson." She laughed.
"If Emmett's blood is in that child," Alice pointed to Rose's stomach "they will be a little bit of a handful."
"Don't worry." I told her. "You can handle it."
"Yeah." She huffed. "If Jackson doesn't kill me first."
"Momma." Emma tugged on my shirt.
"What is it, Baby?" I bent down to her eye level.
"I hungry. I un dat." She pointed to the سب, سب سے اوپر of the fridge.
"You want what?" I asked picking her up with me.
"I un dat." She pointed to the bread.
"Okay. Grilled cheese یا turkey یا bologna?" I set her on the counter and pulled the روٹی off the top.
"Tukey."
"Okay. Go see what bubbie wants." I put her back down on the floor.
I turned around to see Alice and Rose staring at me with a goofy grin on each of their faces. "What?"
"You." Alice giggled. "You're like, the best mother ever."
I rolled my eyes. "Yeah. Such a good mother. A good mother wouldn't have let their 5 سال old out of their sight, یا wouldn't have gave up looking for her."
"Oh, Bella." Rose put Jackson down on the floor and walked over to envelope me in a hug. "Are آپ having nightmares again?"
I nodded. "Her birthday is اگلے week. She would be seven. It's still hard to think about, آپ know."
"Of course Bella. We understand. I would die if I lost Alaigha." Alice came up behind me and joined in the hug.
"I know, that آپ know, that Ever is looking down at آپ right now, wondering why the hell آپ are crying when she is completely happy. She loves آپ Bells and doesn't want آپ to be sad....ever. No pun intended." Rose whispered in my ear.
I nodded and wiped the few tears that had fallen onto my cheeks. "You guys will be here for her memorial اگلے week right?"
"We never miss her birthday Bells." Alice told me.
"Okay." I sucked in a breath and smiled. "I'm better."
"Good." Rose smiled. "Let's make those sandwhichs. We're starving."
~*~*~Later that afternoon~*~*~
I was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا with Ella on my right and Evan on my left, both drinking chocolate دودھ out of ther sippy cups, watching Finding Nemo....after skipping the first scene.
Dory was demonstrating her وہیل, حوت talk and I felt his lips on my neck. "I'm home." His warm breath blew across my ear and neck.
"Hi." I smiled.
The kids were laughing belly laughs at Dory and didn't even notice Edward had walked in. He went to stand infront of the t.v.
"Moob Daddy!" Emma yelled at him.
"Daddy's home!" Evan jumped off the سوفی, لٹانا only for Emma to follow and hugged Edward.
"Hi! Guys!" Edward laughed.
"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice came ober." Emma smiled at him.
"Yeah." Evan agreed. "And جے swobbered on da floowa. Ewww."
"Yeah." Edward laughed. "That is ew."
"Mommy cwide today." Emma looked down and my eyes widened. Edward's head shot up to me.
"Why did Mommy cry?" He asked.
"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice hugged her caus' Mommy stawted taukin bout sissy Eber." Evan looked down too.
I looked down at my hands. He set them down on the floor and sat beside me on the سوفی, لٹانا and pulled me into a hug.
"Why don't آپ two go play upstairs for a minute."
I didn't hear a reply just their footsteps run up the stairs and into their rooms.
"I miss her too." He told me. "I know it's hard for آپ right now."
"I'm so tired of hurting Edward." I cried into his shoulder. "We promised eachother we would stop crying over her because she would want us to be happy if she was but it hurts so bad."
I gripped his shirt.
"I know." He rubbed my back. "I hurt too."
"It's all my fault. If I hadn't had let her out of my sight she would still be here, in our arms, playing with Emma and Evan and smiling a toothless smile, reading to them and loving them and we would still be looking into her sparkling eyes everyday and it's my fault! I should have told her to stay with us! I should have my baby in my arms and in her room where she is supposed to be! Not in a box, rotting under a pile a dirt with only memories and a peice of stone reminding us that she was real and she was here and she was beautiful and she was our first baby. I hate myself for it!"
I could feel his tears run together with mine.
"I was supposed to die before she did. She was five years old damnit!" I pulled back and looked at his red rimmed eyes. "I'm the mother, it's my responceabilitly to keep her safe, and loved, and keep bandaids on her cuts. And look where I got her. Just walk down the road at look."
I stood up and walked to the door.
"Where are آپ going?" He asked.
"To see my baby." I grapped my جیکٹ and pulled on my trainers. "Stay here with them. I wan't to go alone."
I pulled the door open and stepped out into the cool Autum air.
I walked down the block and rounded the corner, following the rod iron fence to the cemetary's entrence.
I walked and weaved through headstones and new flowers relpaced سے طرف کی old ones. My eyes were blury, unable to make out any of the names as I passed them. I didn't really care, I just needed to talk to my baby.
I slowed as I approced her stone. Her white marble stone with a picture of her, Edward and I printed on the front and her saying underneath it.
Don't let anyone see آپ cry
don't let anyone see آپ hurt.
We are Cullen's and we are strong.
I smiled through my pouring tears as I pictured her standing with her fists on her hips like she would do saying this.
Then I remembered just how much I missed her voice and I sobbed and fell to my knees.
"Ever. It's Mommy, Baby. I'm so sorry I let this happen. I love you, Baby, and I wish I could fell آپ and touch آپ and hear آپ again. Daddy misses آپ too. Everyone misses you. Your crazy uncle misses his Baby Bear. Nana Esme misses her little princess. Daddy and I miss our little girl. Our roudy, loving, clumsy, baby girl."
I shuddered a breath.
"I still remember when we brought آپ home. آپ were so quiet. So soft wrapped in your little گلابی fuzzy blanket. آپ loved your Daddy so much. آپ would cry untill he gave up and held you. Then آپ were a Mommy's girl when آپ got a little older. آپ loved having your curly hair brushed and your nails painted."
I shuttered a laughed and relized I was talking to a stone. A stone were the body of my Ever laid.
"Baby, I'm so sorry." I sobbed. "I miss آپ so much. I wish آپ could hear me, baby." I sobbed again.
The wind picked up and I wrapped myself with my jacket. Oh, how I wished I could hear her little voice one مزید time. I put my head in my hands to controll my breathing.
"I love you." Was whispered in my ear. I looked up and looked around only to find no one around.
I felt something on my cheek, something I haven't felt in two years. I felt Ever's little hand on my cheek. "Don't cry Mommy." Echoed through my head. "I miss آپ too Mommy. I miss Daddy and Uncle Emmett and everybody. But I love آپ Mommy and I don't want آپ to cry anymore."
Her little voice was stern, but sure. She was here, and she was talking to me. "I love آپ too, Baby."
"Don't cry Mommy. I'm very happy here. I still see آپ all and I see آپ cry. It makes me sad when آپ cry Mommy."
"I won't cry anymore Baby. Only happy crying now. I promise."
I felt her smile and kiss my cheek. I wish I could see her. Just see her! "Go ہوم Mommy. Daddy misses you."
I stood up and sucked in a long breath. "I will be back on your birthday Baby. With new flowers. گلابی ones. Bye, Baby. I love you."
I couldn't tell her enough.
"Bye, Mommy." It was just a whisper, but it was there.
I smiled and closed my eyes as the wind blew around me. I would no longer cry for her. She کہا she was happy and she wanted me to be happy. I would do that for her.
But right now, I needed to get back to my husband and beautiful daughter and son who love me just as much as I loved them. I turned on my heel and walked back the way I came, but with a new feeling. I felt....whole.
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Okay, I cried writing this...who else cried???
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"Hello?" Rose waved her hand infront of our face. "Guys?"
"ANOTHER ONE?" Alice yelled making everyone within a ten mile radius jump.
Rose smiled. "Yeah. I haven't even told Emmett yet."
"Rose. That's awesome!" I leaned across the counter to hug her.
"I think so to." She smiled. "I really hope this one is a girl. Maybe she won't be as much of a handful as Jackson." She laughed.
"If Emmett's blood is in that child," Alice pointed to Rose's stomach "they will be a little bit of a handful."
"Don't worry." I told her. "You can handle it."
"Yeah." She huffed. "If Jackson doesn't kill me first."
"Momma." Emma tugged on my shirt.
"What is it, Baby?" I bent down to her eye level.
"I hungry. I un dat." She pointed to the سب, سب سے اوپر of the fridge.
"You want what?" I asked picking her up with me.
"I un dat." She pointed to the bread.
"Okay. Grilled cheese یا turkey یا bologna?" I set her on the counter and pulled the روٹی off the top.
"Tukey."
"Okay. Go see what bubbie wants." I put her back down on the floor.
I turned around to see Alice and Rose staring at me with a goofy grin on each of their faces. "What?"
"You." Alice giggled. "You're like, the best mother ever."
I rolled my eyes. "Yeah. Such a good mother. A good mother wouldn't have let their 5 سال old out of their sight, یا wouldn't have gave up looking for her."
"Oh, Bella." Rose put Jackson down on the floor and walked over to envelope me in a hug. "Are آپ having nightmares again?"
I nodded. "Her birthday is اگلے week. She would be seven. It's still hard to think about, آپ know."
"Of course Bella. We understand. I would die if I lost Alaigha." Alice came up behind me and joined in the hug.
"I know, that آپ know, that Ever is looking down at آپ right now, wondering why the hell آپ are crying when she is completely happy. She loves آپ Bells and doesn't want آپ to be sad....ever. No pun intended." Rose whispered in my ear.
I nodded and wiped the few tears that had fallen onto my cheeks. "You guys will be here for her memorial اگلے week right?"
"We never miss her birthday Bells." Alice told me.
"Okay." I sucked in a breath and smiled. "I'm better."
"Good." Rose smiled. "Let's make those sandwhichs. We're starving."
~*~*~Later that afternoon~*~*~
I was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا with Ella on my right and Evan on my left, both drinking chocolate دودھ out of ther sippy cups, watching Finding Nemo....after skipping the first scene.
Dory was demonstrating her وہیل, حوت talk and I felt his lips on my neck. "I'm home." His warm breath blew across my ear and neck.
"Hi." I smiled.
The kids were laughing belly laughs at Dory and didn't even notice Edward had walked in. He went to stand infront of the t.v.
"Moob Daddy!" Emma yelled at him.
"Daddy's home!" Evan jumped off the سوفی, لٹانا only for Emma to follow and hugged Edward.
"Hi! Guys!" Edward laughed.
"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice came ober." Emma smiled at him.
"Yeah." Evan agreed. "And جے swobbered on da floowa. Ewww."
"Yeah." Edward laughed. "That is ew."
"Mommy cwide today." Emma looked down and my eyes widened. Edward's head shot up to me.
"Why did Mommy cry?" He asked.
"Annie Wosie and Aunt Awice hugged her caus' Mommy stawted taukin bout sissy Eber." Evan looked down too.
I looked down at my hands. He set them down on the floor and sat beside me on the سوفی, لٹانا and pulled me into a hug.
"Why don't آپ two go play upstairs for a minute."
I didn't hear a reply just their footsteps run up the stairs and into their rooms.
"I miss her too." He told me. "I know it's hard for آپ right now."
"I'm so tired of hurting Edward." I cried into his shoulder. "We promised eachother we would stop crying over her because she would want us to be happy if she was but it hurts so bad."
I gripped his shirt.
"I know." He rubbed my back. "I hurt too."
"It's all my fault. If I hadn't had let her out of my sight she would still be here, in our arms, playing with Emma and Evan and smiling a toothless smile, reading to them and loving them and we would still be looking into her sparkling eyes everyday and it's my fault! I should have told her to stay with us! I should have my baby in my arms and in her room where she is supposed to be! Not in a box, rotting under a pile a dirt with only memories and a peice of stone reminding us that she was real and she was here and she was beautiful and she was our first baby. I hate myself for it!"
I could feel his tears run together with mine.
"I was supposed to die before she did. She was five years old damnit!" I pulled back and looked at his red rimmed eyes. "I'm the mother, it's my responceabilitly to keep her safe, and loved, and keep bandaids on her cuts. And look where I got her. Just walk down the road at look."
I stood up and walked to the door.
"Where are آپ going?" He asked.
"To see my baby." I grapped my جیکٹ and pulled on my trainers. "Stay here with them. I wan't to go alone."
I pulled the door open and stepped out into the cool Autum air.
I walked down the block and rounded the corner, following the rod iron fence to the cemetary's entrence.
I walked and weaved through headstones and new flowers relpaced سے طرف کی old ones. My eyes were blury, unable to make out any of the names as I passed them. I didn't really care, I just needed to talk to my baby.
I slowed as I approced her stone. Her white marble stone with a picture of her, Edward and I printed on the front and her saying underneath it.
Don't let anyone see آپ cry
don't let anyone see آپ hurt.
We are Cullen's and we are strong.
I smiled through my pouring tears as I pictured her standing with her fists on her hips like she would do saying this.
Then I remembered just how much I missed her voice and I sobbed and fell to my knees.
"Ever. It's Mommy, Baby. I'm so sorry I let this happen. I love you, Baby, and I wish I could fell آپ and touch آپ and hear آپ again. Daddy misses آپ too. Everyone misses you. Your crazy uncle misses his Baby Bear. Nana Esme misses her little princess. Daddy and I miss our little girl. Our roudy, loving, clumsy, baby girl."
I shuddered a breath.
"I still remember when we brought آپ home. آپ were so quiet. So soft wrapped in your little گلابی fuzzy blanket. آپ loved your Daddy so much. آپ would cry untill he gave up and held you. Then آپ were a Mommy's girl when آپ got a little older. آپ loved having your curly hair brushed and your nails painted."
I shuttered a laughed and relized I was talking to a stone. A stone were the body of my Ever laid.
"Baby, I'm so sorry." I sobbed. "I miss آپ so much. I wish آپ could hear me, baby." I sobbed again.
The wind picked up and I wrapped myself with my jacket. Oh, how I wished I could hear her little voice one مزید time. I put my head in my hands to controll my breathing.
"I love you." Was whispered in my ear. I looked up and looked around only to find no one around.
I felt something on my cheek, something I haven't felt in two years. I felt Ever's little hand on my cheek. "Don't cry Mommy." Echoed through my head. "I miss آپ too Mommy. I miss Daddy and Uncle Emmett and everybody. But I love آپ Mommy and I don't want آپ to cry anymore."
Her little voice was stern, but sure. She was here, and she was talking to me. "I love آپ too, Baby."
"Don't cry Mommy. I'm very happy here. I still see آپ all and I see آپ cry. It makes me sad when آپ cry Mommy."
"I won't cry anymore Baby. Only happy crying now. I promise."
I felt her smile and kiss my cheek. I wish I could see her. Just see her! "Go ہوم Mommy. Daddy misses you."
I stood up and sucked in a long breath. "I will be back on your birthday Baby. With new flowers. گلابی ones. Bye, Baby. I love you."
I couldn't tell her enough.
"Bye, Mommy." It was just a whisper, but it was there.
I smiled and closed my eyes as the wind blew around me. I would no longer cry for her. She کہا she was happy and she wanted me to be happy. I would do that for her.
But right now, I needed to get back to my husband and beautiful daughter and son who love me just as much as I loved them. I turned on my heel and walked back the way I came, but with a new feeling. I felt....whole.
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Okay, I cried writing this...who else cried???
سب, سب سے اوپر Ten Reasons to Be Team Switzerland-
1. Got a need for speed? They are both fast!
2. آپ can hunt wild game with Edward and play wild games with Jake.
3. آپ can go wherever آپ want when آپ تاریخ both: Forks and Quileute territory.
4. آپ can take Edward ہوم to meet your parents and have fun with Jacob on the side.
5. آپ can be reckless with Jacob and Edward will make sure that you're safe.
6. Because آپ shouldn't have to choose between a Greek god look~alike and a hot, half naked guy.
7. Jacob can fix your car and Edward can buy a new one if Jacob can't fix it.
8. Because sometimes آپ need an air conditioner, and sometimes آپ need a space heater.
9. Who says آپ can't have the best of both worlds? They're both drop dead gorgeous.
10. Because آپ refuse to be affected سے طرف کی territorial disputes between mythical creatures.
Here's a فہرست of things hottie werewolf Jacob Black would't EVER say:
*Edward, since me and آپ are best friends, on behalf of the pack, thankyou for stealing the love of my life,turned her into a leech, and forced me to exile myself!
*Bella, I hate you, you're a f***ing b****!!!
*Oh gee Sam, your right, I should've forgotten Bella, turned gay, and had a gay marrige with Mike Newton!
*I hate dogs!!!
*I love Edward Cullen!!!
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*Edward, since me and آپ are best friends, on behalf of the pack, thankyou for stealing the love of my life,turned her into a leech, and forced me to exile myself!
*Bella, I hate you, you're a f***ing b****!!!
*Oh gee Sam, your right, I should've forgotten Bella, turned gay, and had a gay marrige with Mike Newton!
*I hate dogs!!!
*I love Edward Cullen!!!
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