Dream Diary Article: 15

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posted by Withering-Moon

15: I met آپ and everything seems perfect now. i feel save and loved when I'm in your arms, and your the first man that i've been able to trust in a long time. 15: Loss my V card on the دن my پسندیدہ band broke, while eating candy and watching my پسندیدہ movie to someone i love. 15: Im healthy and happy and I'm proud of myself.
14: I weigh 109, yet i think I'm huge and gross? I think somethings wrong with me? 14: My Self-esteem is so long its in the negatives 14: I took to many pills one night because life became an endless down hill. 14: My parents found out i was insane, they sent me away to get help. 14: My Counselor once asked me why i tried to kill myself and i کہا "Because people told me to be happy." Kind of sick isn't it? 14: I got out of the place and my family is scared of me, and my older brother is the only one who cares 14: I start high school scared but excited
13: I keep telling myself I was…different 13: I kept telling myself i was fat 13: I thought no one like me but i guess آپ did.
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11: I love all my دوستوں we all get alone so well. 11: My mom کہا I should stop eating so much and gets mad at me when i do something wrong. She yells at me like she used to yell at my dad, i guess she needed someone new to yell at.
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9: I love summer and swimming. I think i want to be..a fashion designer when I'm older? یا be like mommy! Because ever little girl wants to be like there mommy.
8: Daddy keeps crying and saying sorry to me over the phone and that he didn't mean to. 8: Daddy sends a card for christmas for the last time. 8: I never heard from Daddy again.
7: My other mommy had to go vist her daddy because he got really sick. Daddy came into my room late last night, he had a horrible smell on his lips when he tried to kiss me. It was dark in the room so i couldn't see what he was doing, but he touched a lot in weird places. He also made me touch him and he کہا if i told anyone he'd hurt me like he did mommy.
6:Daddy lives in a different state now and is married to someone else. Daddy still likes to drink a lot and likes to watch me a lot, but he seems happy with my other mommy.
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3: Mommy and daddy are still fighting over me. Daddy hit mommy hard and made her cry, she kicked daddy out that night.
2: Daddy and mommy are fighting a lot, i don't know why. they get so loud sometimes they wake me up when I'm sleeping in my room. My older brother says this is what happened before when his daddy and are mommy were together, and his daddy ended up hitting mommy.
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wolfcat343 and FoxMeetWii like this

FoxMeetWii YOU... *hugs you tightly * I miss you so damn much! Your writing is just inspirational.. And at your age of seven, I'm still living with that..

Withering-Moon I missed you so much to!!!! And ihope things get better for you soon

FoxMeetWii Sí!! Oh and if it doesn't get better, I'll snap that bitch's neck and make it better!! XD

wolfcat343 I cried... I cried not only because I think my best friend just killed herself, but because this stuff still happens with me and alot of other people... *hugs tight* and I really wish I could just go visit you guys, I don't want to live here anymore.. Mariah... are you still here? I am having major anxiety attacks, and I'd like to know if you guys know how to help that stop?

SKRILLEX - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites

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Ask me Why

posted by malmcd

Ask Me Why

Poetry suffers tragic language
A sickness thick with words
We poets are proud proclaimers
of liberating grace

So ask me to write a poem
about the bump on my middle finger
from forcing pen to paper

Ask me about the nights
of nocturnal desires
spent alone inking
soul on page

Ask me why my heart
belongs to poetry
for eternity
times two

Ask me how
soft nouns
hard verbs
bent stanzas
crease sheets
as we change
compositions

Ask me how
My lips are
ink stained
because I'd rather
speak my mind

Ask me how
I made music
with my motions
how I drummed out
solo's on your chest

Ask me why
I would die
for just one kiss

Ask me why I...

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NEW CHARACTERS!!!!!

posted by allicyn1234

New Characters

These new characters are defiantly going to be on my فہرست یا favorites,
Okay so here's the deal, these new characters seem to pop out at the most random times, people would call the stowaways, but I just call them lost.
These three girls have a very defined past, too bad the only one who would remember woke up in a hospital bed, blind, and unable to speak. How she ended up this way? Nobody knows.

Name: Flinteressa (Flint for short)
Gender: Girl
Age: 11
Powers: None that she knows of, یا does she? Even if she did nobody would be able to hear her.
Looks: A tall slender girl...

Brave Song

posted by anniewannie

This is my first ever-in-my-life song that I've written! Please تبصرہ and if آپ think it's bad, go ahead and say it 'cause I know it's just your honest opinion :).
I hope you've liked reading my song anyway and I've worked hard on it too! :)
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When I am walking everyone is far behind me
Still, I keep walking with my head held high even though tears start to prick my eyes
"You're always strong," says the voices of the wind
My دل stings even though I have a smile on my face
But I know this is life so I have...

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Heartache

posted by BooBooBear981

Mourning souls of the disappearing
Slowly thoughts fill my mind
As my end seems to be nearing

I knew this دن would come someday
But why right here and now?
And leaving soon, to my dismay

As tears streak down my face
I finally whisper good-bye
As i feel like a rose, clocked in black lace

As I tried to cover my depression
In which I truly lacked
It's very hard to break
Something that has already been cracked

As if my sadness came alive
I still have مزید to dread
They always کہا "Time will heal all wounds"
But what if I'm already dead

Fun- The Gambler

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Voices From The Dark...

posted by malmcd

What we see on the outside is nothing like what's really going on inside...
We all have storys and secrets we never یا don't want to tell...
Like the girl who crys herself to sleep every night and cuts herself...

Anna

I hear him calling out my name in the night whispers,
I was so گیا کیا پوسٹ to die he says to me
And I'm beginning to believe him.
I didn't do anything to help
I sat back and watched he slowly fad away
And now I'm sitting here crying over him wishing I was him and he was me...
Because these scars prove that my life is coming to an end

Or what about the girl who's beaten and won't tell anyone......

YEAH F***ING RIGHT

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Character Poem >:D

posted by allicyn1234

He can't see me
He can't feel me,
Touch me,
Kiss me,

I am gone,
Without
His touch,
His kiss,
Lost forever,
In this never ending maze,
I wander,
Alone,
Forever,
Lost,

He cannot see me,
He can't feel me,
Touch me,
Kiss me,
Anymore,

But I can see him,
And he cries over my lifeless forgotten body,
He knows the pain I've felt,
When I did walk the ground,

I can see him
He must اقدام on,
He tells himself,
Good.

He must اقدام on,
My work is done,
Forget me,
leave me,
Abandon me,
Walk...
Away....

And years pass,
Tears fade,
Confidence grows,
And spirits heal,
Just as I fade away...

And he walks away,
A new girl at his side,
Pain...

Words.

posted by malmcd

Beautiful
Angle
Hurt
Pain
Love
Heartbroken
Shine
Peace
Harmony
Joy
Truth
Death
Silence
Hate
Gay
Care
Kind
Forget
Forgive
Amazing
Potential
Interests
Changing
Violent
Alone
Corruption
Crime
Disappointed
Rejected
Loveless
Feared
Hunted
Inspired
Twisted
Life
Memories
Jerk
Heartless
Hell
Heaven
Never
Leave
Hope
Abused
Cracked
Kiss
Tired
Fat
Harm
Scared
Fear
Murder
Killer
Tears
Blood
Scars
Nothing
Gone
Lost
Forever
Ended.

What do these words mean to you?
What do they make آپ fell?
Do آپ know pain?
Because I do.
And what gives آپ the right to say that آپ have when آپ haven't?
Because real pain is hard to get over?
If you'd felt pain you'd know how I fell...

Fierce & Love
Poem Girl

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Who are آپ to judge what is abnormal?

posted by malmcd

It disappoints me how people think
it's demeaning and disgusting for one
to love their own gender. How we
are encased and suffocated سے طرف کی the
chains of society's realms.

We have been brought up to believe
that a problematic equation would
be a gender in addition to the same
gender – that it is ''weird'' for one
to embark on a relationship with
the same gender because it screams
and shrieks of abnormality.

I despise how people refer to being
''homosexual'' یا a ''lesbian'' to be
disgraceful. The irony strikes me that
for a society that claims to be ''accepting,''
we have not made any progress
whatsoever in terms...

Polly Scattergood- I Hate The Way

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Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow - Part I

posted by allicyn1234

Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow (Bean)

Hi, I'm Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow. But I'm ussually called Bean. Now, I know ha ha funny your name is سیم, پھلی whatever. But where I come from, we all have names like that. My sister's name is Brooke That Swims Upstream Against All Odds. My brother's name is Blazing Sun On A Boiling June's Day. I come from a place know to only the Tribe Of Nature's First Green. Hydralinial. It's a small planet really. not too big, آپ could probably travel it's circumfrence in a matter of 45 days. Enough nerdy - introduction stuff, I'll tell آپ about the REAL mystery.
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"Bean! Get...

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Cut.

posted by malmcd

Here's a song!

~It starts with a soft piano~

~A girls voice~

I'm not a stranger,
No I am yours.
I'm crippled with anger,
As the tears drip on the floor
Of happy never ever ending's begin.

I'm a fragile frame aged,
With misery.
And when are eyes meet,
I hope that you'll see what pain I'm in.

~Chorus~

I'm tired of felling afraid,
I do not want to die inside just to breath in.
I'm tired of felling so numb.

I believe,
A live of pain a no worry.
Exist when,
I am,
Cut,

~Piano~

................
.........
....
..
.

I may seem crazy یا painfully shy,
But these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you'd just look me in the eye.

I fell...

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THE THINGS I LOVE!!!!!!

posted by allicyn1234

1. Falling in love

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts

3. Hot showers... :)

4. No lines at the movies!

5. A 'special' glance

6. Getting mail from my homies in Texas:D

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road

8. Hearing your پسندیدہ song on the radio

9. Lying in بستر listening to the rain outside

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer... After the hot شاور >:)

11. Chocolate milkshakes

12. Bubble baths

13. Giggling!!! ^^

14. Daydreaming to the point, آپ don't realize you've been sitting there for hours,

15. The beach

16. Finding a random 20 dollar bill in your pocket

17. Laughing at yourself

18. Looking into...

HELP ME UP!

added by malmcd

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Slowly. Steady.

posted by malmcd

Slowly
Steady
Drip and Drop
My blood falls from
My Arm
دل Break
دل Ach
Dreams slowly begin to disappear
As my head fells dizzy
And my mind is clear
All my thoughts and fellings are but aside
To see what it fells like on the other side.
Slowly
Steady
The light begins to fad away
From my purple blue eyes
Memories haunt me
Never letting go
Promise's are broken as tears fall on the floor
Slowly
Steady
I see the end is coming soon...
Slowly
Steady
I fear no light lives on the side I'm going to...
Slowly
Steady
I promise not to forget to say I love you...
Slowly
Steady
I mit be dark yet light and confussing but please don't give up on me...
Drip...
Drop...
Drip...
Drop...

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Anneri (darka's little sister)

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Thundering Night - Part 4

posted by allicyn1234

"Goodbye Sasha," Sinseta opens the box and the purple lights flow through me terror makes me vision blur but the it's gone. All black.

I throw myself up, breathing hard and I look around. The same walls of Cloudtower greet me. Great, a dream. I hug my knees close to me and then another disturbing thought comes to mind. What if it's not a dream? I push that thought away and slowly place my feet on the floor. Walking up to the window the terror of the dream starts to wear off and I peer up at the night sky. It always seems to calm me, expessially when the moon is at it's fullest like tonight....

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I Promise... (Eric's Story)

posted by malmcd

They wind blow across his face making his skin fell like ice. He looked at his sister in her winter کوٹ all bundled up and with her boats tied up.
    “Emma remember even if they don’t pick me and they pick آپ don’t make a fuss about it just go.” His voice sounded so serious but in the inside he was praying that it would come to that.
    “But I don’t want to go with out you!” Her eyes began to look watery and sad. He could look in her eyes because those eyes would be the end of him and he would give in.
    “But you...