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posted by Withering-Moon
15: I met آپ and everything seems perfect now. i feel save and loved when I'm in your arms, and your the first man that i've been able to trust in a long time. 15: Loss my V card on the دن my پسندیدہ band broke, while eating candy and watching my پسندیدہ movie to someone i love. 15: Im healthy and happy and I'm proud of myself.
14: I weigh 109, yet i think I'm huge and gross? I think somethings wrong with me? 14: My Self-esteem is so long its in the negatives 14: I took to many pills one night because life became an endless down hill. 14: My parents found out i was insane, they sent me away to get help. 14: My Counselor once asked me why i tried to kill myself and i کہا "Because people told me to be happy." Kind of sick isn't it? 14: I got out of the place and my family is scared of me, and my older brother is the only one who cares 14: I start high school scared but excited
13: I keep telling myself I was…different 13: I kept telling myself i was fat 13: I thought no one like me but i guess آپ did.
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11: I love all my دوستوں we all get alone so well. 11: My mom کہا I should stop eating so much and gets mad at me when i do something wrong. She yells at me like she used to yell at my dad, i guess she needed someone new to yell at.
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9: I love summer and swimming. I think i want to be..a fashion designer when I'm older? یا be like mommy! Because ever little girl wants to be like there mommy.
8: Daddy keeps crying and saying sorry to me over the phone and that he didn't mean to. 8: Daddy sends a card for christmas for the last time. 8: I never heard from Daddy again.
7: My other mommy had to go vist her daddy because he got really sick. Daddy came into my room late last night, he had a horrible smell on his lips when he tried to kiss me. It was dark in the room so i couldn't see what he was doing, but he touched a lot in weird places. He also made me touch him and he کہا if i told anyone he'd hurt me like he did mommy.
6:Daddy lives in a different state now and is married to someone else. Daddy still likes to drink a lot and likes to watch me a lot, but he seems happy with my other mommy.
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3: Mommy and daddy are still fighting over me. Daddy hit mommy hard and made her cry, she kicked daddy out that night.
2: Daddy and mommy are fighting a lot, i don't know why. they get so loud sometimes they wake me up when I'm sleeping in my room. My older brother says this is what happened before when his daddy and are mommy were together, and his daddy ended up hitting mommy.
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posted by malmcd
Once there was a little girl, was always happy and smiled and made others smile...

She helped people and did whatever she could to help. Little did anyone know سے طرف کی age 10 she'd begin to feel all alone, and feel like her دوستوں hate her...
And think she was ugly because of her glasses.

سے طرف کی age 12 she would begin thinking about bad thoughts and thinking about doing bad things.
She would think about dying and what it would feel like to die.
And how she would die.
She began to become depressed and sad all the time.

By 13 she would become suicidal, and try to kill herself 5 times.
She would think she...
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posted by malmcd
I look back at my life, and I see a girl who I wish I wasn't...
A girl who's fucked up a lot
And has done stupid things
Who is depressed
And cuts
Who's swallowed pills
And swallowed the bleach
Or made herself throw up..
A girl who was always smiling
But I guess she got good at faking?

The world around this girl thinks she's happy and has a great life..
If only they knew the real her..

If only they could see through that fake smile of hers
Or see the scars that line her wrist legs and hips
Because a smile can hide so much..

I feel as if theres something inside me picking at me wanting to be free...
Picking...
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posted by anniewannie
I smile.. I cry.. I lie..

~I SMILE~

I smile, even if people abandon me
I smile, when my friend confessed he liked me… maybe…
I smile, when my دل broke as he کہا he forgot me
I smile, when I’m in tears
I smile, no matter how much pain I’m in
I smile, through times when it is tough
I smile, when my دوستوں hurt me
I smile, despite the hurt
I smile, when people withdraw their trust on me
I smile, like I’m the happiest girl in the world when I’m not
I smile, whenever my world crashes around me
I smile, to those who ask, “Are آپ okay?”
I smile, just for the sake of it
I smile, but sometimes...
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posted by malmcd
Little things about me...


I've been writing a story at school, this girl has been reading it.

She wonders where I got the idea from, I tell her it's just fiction,

I can't bring myself to tell her thats it's really how I view the world since everyone thinks I'm the super happy smiling girl.

No one knows my world is dark.


~~~

This week we had an anti-bullying activity at school

We have to پار, صلیب a line when something applies to you.

"Please پار, صلیب the line if آپ feel lonely."

No one in my class did, but I know one person who almost did.

Until she saw nobody else did.

I should have crossed that line.

~~~


I...
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Okay it's time to..Vent...



I grab a چھری and some pills to try to ease the pain, but each it feels harder and harder to keep up and stay smiling. I wrote a poem with some beauty and some vision to it bottom line it my expend your mind if آپ read it closely. To much shine can dull the soul if your feel how I feel then I'll write some more...

How can the world be so mean to me when I did nothing to be in this darkness I now call life? I get a little honest and I ask myself, if the time came would آپ save me if I asked for help? I normally send my mind out to the outer most to get away from this...
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posted by SongGirl50701
Suicidal Girl: " I just wanna be me and a free social teen but I'm dying from the inside. I am not going to cry any مزید but get married to a suicide fight, its decided. I'm in jail for killing the voices."

This album is going to be called Dream Diary. I'll post it on youtube soon. I'm trying to get a webcam soon.

Today, I truely feel like me.

bullied continuesly, and wishing I was someone else.

ill post the first song soon.

Songs of you,

me,

him,

her,

and everyone.


If آپ want, i'll make a song about you.
<3
posted by RoleplayCraz98
Still I Rise



آپ may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are آپ beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did آپ want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened سے طرف کی my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't آپ take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got سونا mines
Diggin' in...
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Hearing Damage.


Hearing Damage
CHAPTER 2– The Orphanage.


This is the دن two men in black suits knocked on the front door.
“Hello,” one of them nodded at me. He slipped off his black lenses. “Are آپ the daughter of Lisa Moore?”
I nodded. “Y-yes…”
“We’re from FBI and we’re here to take آپ somewhere.”
“What?” I was confused.
“You will understand when we take آپ there. Grab the things آپ need from this house and we’ll be off to go.” The other man told me, almost too hastily.
I was about to turn and go inside when one مزید thing popped in my mind and I turned my...
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posted by malmcd
This for anyone out there who knows what pain truly feels like...This is for you..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Here's my story and feelings...

Each دن I always put on a smile
No matter what
I always smile

And the reason why I always smile is because when I was little my mom always used to say to me, to be strong and دکھائیں your not in pain and suck it up.

Each دن I always hold everything in
But when I get home
And I'm all alone
I burst into tears

Each دن I feel so alone
I feel as if I'm losing my دوستوں
Which I am

I've cut
I've swallowed the pills
I've drinked
I've force myself not to eat

But...
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posted by malmcd
I'm sick of these thoughts these people are ponding in my head,
I'm sick of this lie that people call life,
And I'm sick of the tears and hiding them away,
Trying to دکھائیں my parents I'm strong and okay.
But if your like me..
And your sick of the lies and this life آپ live آپ do the same as me..
Put a smile on your lips..

I'm the girl who's always smiling
And always looks so damn happy
But in reality its not even a real smile
It's مزید like a plastered on mask
And my real smile has been gone now for quit some time
But no one can see that because they really don't care
They never ask if I'm okay they all...
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posted by anniewannie
Scars

Scars– A story about what scars truly mean to me.

When I fall into deep sleep
My دل is at peace
For a while, I guess
Sometimes… it’s hard to say what I need to say
Because with all this pain locked inside me
Scars are printed on my heart
One سے طرف کی one, they appear
Some say that scars heal and wounds do not
With me, they don’t disappear nor do they heal
They simply grow
Pain is something I’ve been trapped in since I was small
It’s like death because pain is a feeling that makes me suffer
I can handle it perfectly, never دکھانا any signs of it
But I don’t think I can handle one from another...
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posted by anniewannie
No one like me…

Can آپ see that girl over there?
The one who has deep-set brown eyes and raven black hair?
You can see that in her eyes, she has a story
I don’t know about you, but she’s always the one who stood out the most

Perpetually alone, somehow out of sight, out of mind ... and lost in her thoughts
She goes سے طرف کی the rules at her school, obeying what anyone who asks her to do this, یا do that
Really, she will do it
Just ask her and then snap she’ll do it, just like that

There are times when she can be regarded as the merriest person in the class
A love-sick one too and a person who has her...
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added by malmcd
posted by BooBooBear981
"Write an مضمون about your life, your thoughts, anything on your mind! Get it off آپ shoulders! Express anything"

I stared blankly at the paper. “What was I going to write?” My mind was blank. My stomach was in a tight knot. I held my fist tightly closed to my chest. I felt like crying. Those dark memories came back.

I raised my hand. She called on me. 'Miss Ivory! Yes!"

I hold back my tears but manage to mumble. All eyes were on my know. I shivered.

"Can آپ write about anything on your mind? And آپ won't tell anyone?"

She thought a little bit before answering with a smile. "Why, I don't...
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added by anniewannie
Yep- it's from the Twilight movie New Moon :)) Hope آپ like it-
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lykke li
possibility
song
new moon
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Problems:

Heart:

    
    “Miss دل I’m going to ask آپ one مزید time, and I’d like if آپ told me the truth.”
    My mind was some place else. I’ve been answering the same سوال over and over again with the same answer. The light burned my eyes and my stomach twisted as I stared down at the picture once again. There he laded...Dead. His body torn and cut, with flesh and blood seeping out with a pool of blood laying اگلے to him. The thing that made me the most sick was his eyes..So lifeless and dark and dull. Then the same...
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