15: I met آپ and everything seems perfect now. i feel save and loved when I'm in your arms, and your the first man that i've been able to trust in a long time. 15: Loss my V card on the دن my پسندیدہ band broke, while eating candy and watching my پسندیدہ movie to someone i love. 15: Im healthy and happy and I'm proud of myself.
14: I weigh 109, yet i think I'm huge and gross? I think somethings wrong with me? 14: My Self-esteem is so long its in the negatives 14: I took to many pills one night because life became an endless down hill. 14: My parents found out i was insane, they sent me away to get help. 14: My Counselor once asked me why i tried to kill myself and i کہا "Because people told me to be happy." Kind of sick isn't it? 14: I got out of the place and my family is scared of me, and my older brother is the only one who cares 14: I start high school scared but excited
13: I keep telling myself I was…different 13: I kept telling myself i was fat 13: I thought no one like me but i guess آپ did.
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11: I love all my دوستوں we all get alone so well. 11: My mom کہا I should stop eating so much and gets mad at me when i do something wrong. She yells at me like she used to yell at my dad, i guess she needed someone new to yell at.
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9: I love summer and swimming. I think i want to be..a fashion designer when I'm older? یا be like mommy! Because ever little girl wants to be like there mommy.
8: Daddy keeps crying and saying sorry to me over the phone and that he didn't mean to. 8: Daddy sends a card for christmas for the last time. 8: I never heard from Daddy again.
7: My other mommy had to go vist her daddy because he got really sick. Daddy came into my room late last night, he had a horrible smell on his lips when he tried to kiss me. It was dark in the room so i couldn't see what he was doing, but he touched a lot in weird places. He also made me touch him and he کہا if i told anyone he'd hurt me like he did mommy.
6:Daddy lives in a different state now and is married to someone else. Daddy still likes to drink a lot and likes to watch me a lot, but he seems happy with my other mommy.
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3: Mommy and daddy are still fighting over me. Daddy hit mommy hard and made her cry, she kicked daddy out that night.
2: Daddy and mommy are fighting a lot, i don't know why. they get so loud sometimes they wake me up when I'm sleeping in my room. My older brother says this is what happened before when his daddy and are mommy were together, and his daddy ended up hitting mommy.
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14: I weigh 109, yet i think I'm huge and gross? I think somethings wrong with me? 14: My Self-esteem is so long its in the negatives 14: I took to many pills one night because life became an endless down hill. 14: My parents found out i was insane, they sent me away to get help. 14: My Counselor once asked me why i tried to kill myself and i کہا "Because people told me to be happy." Kind of sick isn't it? 14: I got out of the place and my family is scared of me, and my older brother is the only one who cares 14: I start high school scared but excited
13: I keep telling myself I was…different 13: I kept telling myself i was fat 13: I thought no one like me but i guess آپ did.
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11: I love all my دوستوں we all get alone so well. 11: My mom کہا I should stop eating so much and gets mad at me when i do something wrong. She yells at me like she used to yell at my dad, i guess she needed someone new to yell at.
10:
9: I love summer and swimming. I think i want to be..a fashion designer when I'm older? یا be like mommy! Because ever little girl wants to be like there mommy.
8: Daddy keeps crying and saying sorry to me over the phone and that he didn't mean to. 8: Daddy sends a card for christmas for the last time. 8: I never heard from Daddy again.
7: My other mommy had to go vist her daddy because he got really sick. Daddy came into my room late last night, he had a horrible smell on his lips when he tried to kiss me. It was dark in the room so i couldn't see what he was doing, but he touched a lot in weird places. He also made me touch him and he کہا if i told anyone he'd hurt me like he did mommy.
6:Daddy lives in a different state now and is married to someone else. Daddy still likes to drink a lot and likes to watch me a lot, but he seems happy with my other mommy.
5:
4:
3: Mommy and daddy are still fighting over me. Daddy hit mommy hard and made her cry, she kicked daddy out that night.
2: Daddy and mommy are fighting a lot, i don't know why. they get so loud sometimes they wake me up when I'm sleeping in my room. My older brother says this is what happened before when his daddy and are mommy were together, and his daddy ended up hitting mommy.
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My strange eccentricities
and weird idiosyncrasies
Leave others bewildered
and cause me to ponder
Am I really strange..?
یا it’s the others, I wonder...
My values seem outdated
And my ethics, underrated
Honesty and loyalty
Are they obsolete?
True love is so rare
Am I enclosed سے طرف کی conceit..?
My love, it’s no-holds-barred
My feelings, they die-hard
Waiting and anticipating
Like I face life’s checkmate
Sometimes I feel beset
Can I influence my fate..?
My thoughts are bizarre
Seem unrealistic and far
But I know they’re not
meant for the blinkered
To grasp their true worth
Doubts have to be conquered...
and weird idiosyncrasies
Leave others bewildered
and cause me to ponder
Am I really strange..?
یا it’s the others, I wonder...
My values seem outdated
And my ethics, underrated
Honesty and loyalty
Are they obsolete?
True love is so rare
Am I enclosed سے طرف کی conceit..?
My love, it’s no-holds-barred
My feelings, they die-hard
Waiting and anticipating
Like I face life’s checkmate
Sometimes I feel beset
Can I influence my fate..?
My thoughts are bizarre
Seem unrealistic and far
But I know they’re not
meant for the blinkered
To grasp their true worth
Doubts have to be conquered...
In the hustle and bustle of the day
Surrounded سے طرف کی folks and friends
I feel lost, lonely and astray..
Drifting off یا awaking,
in dreams and reality
My heart’s always aching
and my soul’s always praying
for you…
Suppressing my urges
to talk to you
curbing my craving
to hear you
ignoring my thirst
to meet you
restraining my longing
to be with you
stifling my desire
to touch you
I feel fervent and helpless,
desperate and hopeless
For I expect and demand,
hope and anticipate...
Then all of a sudden I seek nothing
Bereft of hopes, wishes یا desires
Left with only a soul that aspires
…for your happiness
Then I experience a holy calm
Peace descends on me
like a soft, soothing balm
and a knowing arises
…that we’re never apart
because آپ live
forever in my heart...
Surrounded سے طرف کی folks and friends
I feel lost, lonely and astray..
Drifting off یا awaking,
in dreams and reality
My heart’s always aching
and my soul’s always praying
for you…
Suppressing my urges
to talk to you
curbing my craving
to hear you
ignoring my thirst
to meet you
restraining my longing
to be with you
stifling my desire
to touch you
I feel fervent and helpless,
desperate and hopeless
For I expect and demand,
hope and anticipate...
Then all of a sudden I seek nothing
Bereft of hopes, wishes یا desires
Left with only a soul that aspires
…for your happiness
Then I experience a holy calm
Peace descends on me
like a soft, soothing balm
and a knowing arises
…that we’re never apart
because آپ live
forever in my heart...
Praying with آپ is
like walking
on the morning grass
with the fickle dewdrops
tickling our bare feet
while our souls meet
and smile to greet
each other...
Praying with آپ is
like drifting
on wispy, white clouds
on a sunny day, as we play
like little kids
a little fine, a little fey
And as our game starts
our love engulfs our hearts...
Praying with آپ is
Like dreaming
a magnificent dream
where we scream
in ecstasy
as a قوس قزح wraps
آپ and me
in vibrant colours of glee...
Praying with آپ is
Like weaving
a fairy story
that we fill with
God’s goodness and glory
Each memory we create
is a tale of our sweet love
so memorable, so great...
like walking
on the morning grass
with the fickle dewdrops
tickling our bare feet
while our souls meet
and smile to greet
each other...
Praying with آپ is
like drifting
on wispy, white clouds
on a sunny day, as we play
like little kids
a little fine, a little fey
And as our game starts
our love engulfs our hearts...
Praying with آپ is
Like dreaming
a magnificent dream
where we scream
in ecstasy
as a قوس قزح wraps
آپ and me
in vibrant colours of glee...
Praying with آپ is
Like weaving
a fairy story
that we fill with
God’s goodness and glory
Each memory we create
is a tale of our sweet love
so memorable, so great...
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