So Christmas, to me, is a very strange thing. In past years, the excitement has dimmed, the spirit-- though still present-- has become repetitive, and the gifts-- both giving and receiving-- receive مزید and مزید disappointed reactions. Basically, it has been slowly, but steadily losing its flavor. And while, a few years ago, I watched Taylor Momsen sing away in the new Grinch movie and wondered the same thing she did, my ending wasn't as cathartic as hers.
Eventually, though, I came to accept that Christmas just wasn't like it was for me ten years ago. When my brother would sneak into my room and wake me up at 3AM on Christmas Eve so we could go on a covert mission to spy on the presents Santa left us under the tree. When I pretended to still believe in Santa when I found out he wasn't real at eight-years-old, because I thought my thirteen-year-old big brother would be disappointed if I didn't. When my dad forced me to set my alarm clock for a reasonable hour-- seven, یا eight o'clock instead of three یا six. How I always reset it after he کہا good night, and how he always came back in when I was asleep again to set it back.
But today, I came to a different conclusion.
Now, this isn't an مضمون about how I found "the true meaning of Christmas." But it is an مضمون about growing up a little.
I love Christmas-- even though the excitement has dimmed, and I always will. I love the TV specials, and the radio stations playing carols 24/7, and the lights on the houses, and the cold weather. And today, my parents went to sleep and I waited around for a while. And then I decided to go get their ذخیرہ stuffers and fill them.
Now, when I was eight-years-old and found out there was no Santa Claus, I also understood why my parents' stockings were always empty. So from that سال آگے I took it upon myself to fill those stockings. In the beginning, being a child, all I could do was put ہوم made کوکیز and cards etc. in them. But as I grew older, they turned into really nifty gadgets and things.
Anyways, this سال I told them there wouldn't be a lot and they looked at me and کہا they didn't care. Every year, they tell me not to do it, یا at least my dad does. My mother always thinks it's cute, even though I'm nineteen now and it's a sterling silver ہار and pendant instead of a macaroni one. So anyways, I switch on my Christmas موسیقی and start humming as I put the things in their stockings. I realize I needed to write to, from and تاریخ on the gift I was putting in my Dad's stocking-- a "Remember When" booklet from 1948, the سال he was born. On the فہرست of famous births, I put a Post-It that read my Dad's name, birth date, and occupation ("Awesome Dad") just like the others listed. I put it in the stocking. I poured in the Hershey's kisses I bought. I walked سے طرف کی the درخت and saw the candy canes hanging there, and put one in each stocking. OK, this is getting too specific. The point is, I thought I had been done, and realized there were so many little things I could do without going shopping.
Just as I finished all of this, smiling a little, looking at the presents, I sat down, about to turn of the موسیقی and the computer, when my phone goes off. It's not a text message یا a caller, it's an alarm. 12:00-- "Christmas!" is what the screen reads. I set the alarm a سال ago, on December 26th.
I don't know why, but the alarm stirred something in me. It reminded me when I purposefully set it for twelve, because of all those years پہلے when I would be asleep سے طرف کی now. And I realized, I had become my parents-- in the good way, not the bad way. I did their stockings every سال because regardless of if they needed me to یا not, I liked feeling like there was something I could do to take care of them. I liked putting Post-It's inside booklets and stealing candy canes from the درخت for them. Hell, I even ate a cookie and a glass of milk.
It made me feel good.
And I don't know if it's because my brother is all alone in Hull, England this Christmas, یا because I realized that today I really spent some quality time with my parents, یا because I don't see my family as much anymore living all the way across the country from them, but... I actually felt like it was the best Christmas Eve in a long time.
And that's it. That's all I really wanted to share... Sorry to take up your time, but I warned آپ it was corny.
Eventually, though, I came to accept that Christmas just wasn't like it was for me ten years ago. When my brother would sneak into my room and wake me up at 3AM on Christmas Eve so we could go on a covert mission to spy on the presents Santa left us under the tree. When I pretended to still believe in Santa when I found out he wasn't real at eight-years-old, because I thought my thirteen-year-old big brother would be disappointed if I didn't. When my dad forced me to set my alarm clock for a reasonable hour-- seven, یا eight o'clock instead of three یا six. How I always reset it after he کہا good night, and how he always came back in when I was asleep again to set it back.
But today, I came to a different conclusion.
Now, this isn't an مضمون about how I found "the true meaning of Christmas." But it is an مضمون about growing up a little.
I love Christmas-- even though the excitement has dimmed, and I always will. I love the TV specials, and the radio stations playing carols 24/7, and the lights on the houses, and the cold weather. And today, my parents went to sleep and I waited around for a while. And then I decided to go get their ذخیرہ stuffers and fill them.
Now, when I was eight-years-old and found out there was no Santa Claus, I also understood why my parents' stockings were always empty. So from that سال آگے I took it upon myself to fill those stockings. In the beginning, being a child, all I could do was put ہوم made کوکیز and cards etc. in them. But as I grew older, they turned into really nifty gadgets and things.
Anyways, this سال I told them there wouldn't be a lot and they looked at me and کہا they didn't care. Every year, they tell me not to do it, یا at least my dad does. My mother always thinks it's cute, even though I'm nineteen now and it's a sterling silver ہار and pendant instead of a macaroni one. So anyways, I switch on my Christmas موسیقی and start humming as I put the things in their stockings. I realize I needed to write to, from and تاریخ on the gift I was putting in my Dad's stocking-- a "Remember When" booklet from 1948, the سال he was born. On the فہرست of famous births, I put a Post-It that read my Dad's name, birth date, and occupation ("Awesome Dad") just like the others listed. I put it in the stocking. I poured in the Hershey's kisses I bought. I walked سے طرف کی the درخت and saw the candy canes hanging there, and put one in each stocking. OK, this is getting too specific. The point is, I thought I had been done, and realized there were so many little things I could do without going shopping.
Just as I finished all of this, smiling a little, looking at the presents, I sat down, about to turn of the موسیقی and the computer, when my phone goes off. It's not a text message یا a caller, it's an alarm. 12:00-- "Christmas!" is what the screen reads. I set the alarm a سال ago, on December 26th.
I don't know why, but the alarm stirred something in me. It reminded me when I purposefully set it for twelve, because of all those years پہلے when I would be asleep سے طرف کی now. And I realized, I had become my parents-- in the good way, not the bad way. I did their stockings every سال because regardless of if they needed me to یا not, I liked feeling like there was something I could do to take care of them. I liked putting Post-It's inside booklets and stealing candy canes from the درخت for them. Hell, I even ate a cookie and a glass of milk.
It made me feel good.
And I don't know if it's because my brother is all alone in Hull, England this Christmas, یا because I realized that today I really spent some quality time with my parents, یا because I don't see my family as much anymore living all the way across the country from them, but... I actually felt like it was the best Christmas Eve in a long time.
And that's it. That's all I really wanted to share... Sorry to take up your time, but I warned آپ it was corny.
