ارے Guys, It's me , Ellen.
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with آپ guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my دوستوں say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell آپ guys. I need to tell آپ guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank آپ all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank آپ for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank آپ for shedding a tear for me. Thank آپ for being my sister یا brother when I needed it most. Thank آپ for being my guardian angel regardless of what i have done. Thank آپ for staying سے طرف کی my side. Thank آپ for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank آپ for letting me be me and thank آپ for welcoming me. Thank آپ for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank آپ for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank آپ for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK آپ FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I Love you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I love آپ guys and I don't know what i would do without آپ in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with آپ guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my دوستوں say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell آپ guys. I need to tell آپ guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank آپ all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank آپ for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank آپ for shedding a tear for me. Thank آپ for being my sister یا brother when I needed it most. Thank آپ for being my guardian angel regardless of what i have done. Thank آپ for staying سے طرف کی my side. Thank آپ for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank آپ for letting me be me and thank آپ for welcoming me. Thank آپ for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank آپ for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank آپ for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK آپ FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I Love you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I love آپ guys and I don't know what i would do without آپ in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
My feelings these days
they are so strange
…they have such a range
Now, I am happy and ecstatic
Then, frightened and frantic...
Now, I dream, hope and desire
Then, all my hopes catch fire...
Now, I want to sing and dance
Then, I just get lost in a trance...
Now, I see all so plain and clear
Then, my vision is blurred سے طرف کی a tear...
Now, all I want is to conjugate
Then, I wonder about our fate...
Now, your joy is my only goal
Then, my soul cries for your soul...
My feelings these days
They are so strange
But my love for you
…doesn’t change
they are so strange
…they have such a range
Now, I am happy and ecstatic
Then, frightened and frantic...
Now, I dream, hope and desire
Then, all my hopes catch fire...
Now, I want to sing and dance
Then, I just get lost in a trance...
Now, I see all so plain and clear
Then, my vision is blurred سے طرف کی a tear...
Now, all I want is to conjugate
Then, I wonder about our fate...
Now, your joy is my only goal
Then, my soul cries for your soul...
My feelings these days
They are so strange
But my love for you
…doesn’t change
Dear Self
What if آپ don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last دن on this earth?
What if that two منٹ conversation آپ had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time آپ ever spoke to her?
What if آپ never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile یا talk to him ever again?
What if آپ later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would آپ be proud of the life آپ have lived?
Will آپ regret something that آپ did یا did not say?
Would آپ be proud of how people would remember you?
Would آپ regret not taking مزید chances, یا not telling him what آپ really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My دل racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
What if آپ don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last دن on this earth?
What if that two منٹ conversation آپ had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time آپ ever spoke to her?
What if آپ never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile یا talk to him ever again?
What if آپ later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would آپ be proud of the life آپ have lived?
Will آپ regret something that آپ did یا did not say?
Would آپ be proud of how people would remember you?
Would آپ regret not taking مزید chances, یا not telling him what آپ really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My دل racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
