موسیقی flowed through my ears as I wrote a verse of the song; I paused and glanced at a picture of Jacob, Sam, Seth, Leah, Quil, Embry, Paul and Jared they was bunched together but the only person I couldn’t keep my eye off of was Jacob. I whipped a tear as I continued to write.
Baby I loved آپ from the very start even though I knew that آپ break my heart.
I quickly changed the song searching for another song that could help me express myself. I couldn’t find the words on my own, I rarely could, I would always either write down lyrics یا say them if I knew them سے طرف کی memory, my bad habit gotten worse when Bella came back, I don’t have anything against her but Jake almost always forgot I was around when she came around, he always followed her around like a lost puppy, Leah understood where I was coming from, everyone knew about my crush on him except for Jake, even though it was obvious. He didn’t pay that much attention when she was around. I quickly scribble some مزید words
Not trying to hear آپ tell no body that I’m just your friend, just trying to make sure am that body that آپ call your girl. And anytime آپ need a shoulder it’s yours night یا day, but what I’m trying to say is that I want to be, the last number آپ call late at night, first one that آپ dial when آپ open your eyes , wanna be the one آپ run to, wanna be the one that aint going to hurt , wanna be the girl making all your دوستوں jealous, whatever آپ need, آپ can count on me, your lover, your friend, I just want to be yours!
Tears began to flow down my face, a drop fell on my letter smuggling the last to letters of my sentence. But I was startled as Jacob landed in my bedroom from my window.
“That girl is driving me crazy!” he exclaimed as he paced back and forth. I quickly pushed the letter in my computer ڈیسک draw. I whipped my tears before he could notice them.
“Who are آپ talking about? I کہا even though I knew he was talking about Bella.
“Bella, can آپ believe she choose him over me!” he کہا as he finally plopped on my bed.
“What did آپ think Jake, we all knew she was” I said.
“What do آپ have against her!” he defended.
“I have nothing against her, I mean we did grow up with her, I just don’t like to see my best friend depressed” I explained.
“One دن she will come around” he کہا as he stood up, “Yup one day” he continued.
I just nodded at him; I didn’t believe she was, she was so much crazy in love with that blood sucker Edward. “Maybe” I lied.
“You think so too?” he asked me.
I shrugged my shoulders “I don’t know Jake, to me she just looks to آپ as a friend”
Jacob looked as he wanted to cry. “Well I’m going to head home, and sleep this anger off” he then gracefully headed out my window, I seen him transform and make his way into the woods. I took off my Armani glasses and just cried. What was it about me that he just didn’t notice me, I was pretty, I have long black silky hair, I even changed how I dressed, I use to be a tom boy, since I would hang around the pack, they was rough. I was lighter than him in my complication due to my mother being white, she ran away from her father when she was a teen, my father and grandfather saw her one night in the rain walking they took her here and well they fell in love, they got married young, then had my twin brother Adam and I. My mother heard me cry as she passed my door way, she walked in with her nurse outfit on; she must have just gotten ہوم from work.
“Jake was here wasn’t he?” she asked.
“How did آپ know “I asked?
“Cause sweetie every time he comes سے طرف کی آپ cry” she said. She sat down اگلے to me and placed her arm around me and gently kissed my forehead. “Sweetie stop hurting yourself, it hurts us to see آپ like this” I whipped my tears, “I know mom, but it’s hard” I answered.
“Donald likes you, his father always tells me how he is nervous to ask آپ out” she said.
“Mom, he is a geek, I don’t like him”
“Keila don’t be so mean, give him a shot”
“I’m not going to promise anything but I will think about it”
“Okay, that’s a start” she smiled at me, even as a kid her smile always made me happy. She kisses my forehead and heads out my room, I threw myself on my bed, I felt a little better after my talk with my mom. There has been some tension in my house lately, ever since Grandpa George had a vision of my brother phasing into a werewolf. My father was proud, but my mother wasn’t too thrilled with the idea of her only son becoming a werewolf. To me I was neutral about the idea since I hung around the بھیڑیا pack all my life. I figured he was going to phase due to his drastic growth spurt, from a wimpy skinny kid to a cut up hot shot, he suddenly was popular. “I’m going to keep smiling, I’m gonna keep it moving cause I don’t need you” was the word that hit my ears as I played my ipod.
The اگلے morning I got in my 2005 mustang, I put the same song on; it was like an inspiration for me to get over him. “So I stare at your picture for the last time, to ease my mind, this time I won’t even break down and cry. I had good reason for leaving you, I wasn’t ever good enough for you, so I’m gonna keep smiling, I’m gonna keep it moving cause I don’t need آپ anymore” those words hit ہوم for me, as it made its way from my new car system to my ears that I installed a few weeks back, I had it on repeat as I made my way to school. As I parked, I notice him standing outside the campus with Seth, Leah and my brother. I walked up to them; I کہا my hello’s and made my way to class. Jake and I had the same 1st period and 4th period classes together. I told myself to ignore him if he came in today. I was shocked when he walked in, he sat اگلے to me, which was rare, I knew he probably wanted to talk to me about her again.
“Sorry for yesterday” he wrote on a note.
“Sorry for what?” I wrote back. I was hoping that he would write “sorry for not realizing I loved آپ all my life” but it wasn’t it was about Bella.