The time between going to بستر and falling asleep is the worst part in my day.. that is when all the things آپ bury it deep comes to life, and آپ are stuck there thinking about it till آپ fall asleep.
دن 1.... Saturday
I wake up late .. with red puffy eyes from last night. i brush my teeth with a grumpy face and i don't forget to gargle my mouth like Dean. yesterday was.. i don't even know how to start to describe it . but it is over. and now i have to اقدام on. Summer with friends..I nodded my head trying to keep that thought in my head.
دن 2....Sunday
I had a dream that i was trying to talk Cass out of what he was doing. He kept saying he doesn't have a choice. and for the rest of that morning i was hearing his voice ringing in my head.I Don't Have a choice. " So much for moving on" i کہا it to my self with a smirk.my god i miss them so much.
دن 4 ....Tuesday
I jumped out of my بستر with my alarm "Heat of the moment" ringing so loud. what is this دکھائیں doing to me ?i I asked my self that as i reached for my glasses. i couldn't ignore this heavy feeling on my chest these days. my mom asks me what is wrong? i say with the best smile i have: oh ..nothing..I'm fine. what would she say if i told her i am all broken about a TV show?! i took a deep breath and head to my daily house work.
دن 5...Wednesday
Great time with my best friend , we went out shopping, tried all kind of shoes, laughed a lot, i sat down alone on a bench while she went to get us some ice cream. i went through my موسیقی فہرست in my cellphone and i stopped on "carry on My wayward" سے طرف کی Kansas and like a slide دکھائیں clips from the دکھائیں went through my head. after a while from staring to my cell my friend nudged me and gave me my ice cream. " where have آپ been? she asked with smile on her face , " no big deal .. just thinking about buying new pair of jeans" i lied.
دن 7 Friday
It has been a week, it مزید felt to me like a month. funny how time goes. slow in pain and fast in happiness. i can't believe it is Friday. i feel like there is a whole in my schedule. i went to my laptop and started my daily surf in Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr. i found my self after a while digging in websites like Supernatural TV, the Winchester Family Business. and reading analyze مضامین about the finale. tried to tell my self that i needed this fix because i don't have an episode to watch. I closed the laptop and went to بستر knowing that i will have another sleepless night.
