That night I locked my windows it seems it only really brings me trouble. But again I couldn’t sleep. “Knock, knock” Dawn کہا coming in her voice was gentle. “Hey, you’re up late” I کہا getting out of bed. “Yeah, what did Ethan do?” she said, Dawn could read your anger. “Nothing, there was just a misunderstanding, that’s all” I said. “Really?” she said. “Well we kissed” I کہا now sitting on my bed. She followed and sat down اگلے to me. “Wow, Why?” she asked, “Why would آپ ask me why?” I asked. “Because آپ have always کہا that آپ would never go there” she کہا taking my hand. “Yeah, well I did and he کہا it was a mistake and I agreed, so crisis averted” I کہا moving my hand away from hers. “No, you’re upset about it” she کہا grabbing the man’s pendant and staring into it. “I’m not upset about Ethan” I کہا his name like it was the plague; she noticed this and looked up at me. “Fine” She signed as she dropped the pendant on my تکیا and left the room.
The morning was horrible I had hardly got any sleep and I could hear his voice coming from down stairs. His laughter made me cringe “It was just a kiss!” I yelled to myself hiding under my blanket. That’s all it was a kiss nothing more, we both agreed that it was a mistake nothing else! But I didn’t fool myself I still wanted him hear, whispering in my ear like he did the other day. Ugh if this is what love feels like then I don’t want it.
I walked down stairs like every other دن and say my family and him. “Morning darling” My mother کہا putting a plate in front of me. I pushed it away the last thing on my mind was food. “Not hungry?” My father asked. “No, thank you” I کہا and got up from the میز, جدول and walked over to get my bag. “Where are آپ going?” Ethan asked grabbing my bag. I snatched it back. “Why do آپ care?” I کہا and walked out the door.
I went to the park. It was so beautiful there, the گھاس was green, and the flowers were yellow and pink. I walked down the path when I saw Adam. He saw me and waved I waved back and then he started to walk closer to me. “Hey, small world huh?” he کہا coming closer to me. He stopped about 2 feet away. “Yeah” I said. “So, what brings آپ here?” he کہا putting his hand in his pockets. “Taking a break” I signed. “And you?” I asked. “Same, my family can be a bit to deal with, آپ know?” he کہا shrugging. “Yeah” I کہا looking around the park. “Anyway I have to get going but I’ll see you” he کہا turning. “Yeah” is aid and then he went behind a درخت and I couldn’t see him and more. I wondered مزید around the park and then I stopped at a pond. I was sitting on the edge of it dragging my fingers through the cold icy water, when I noticed a Blue stone. No not a stone a pendant I put my arm in and pulled it out. It was a navy blue colour. I couldn’t believe it there were مزید gods here.
I ran through my front door running up stairs to my room I heard someone get up from the سوفی, لٹانا I didn’t know یا care who, I just ran until I was on my bed. I got the pendant out from my pocket and laid it on the بستر اگلے to mine. They looked the same besides the colours; I took a deep breath when I heard a knock on the door. I quickly put my تکیا over the pendants and saw Ethan come in. “Everything okay?” he said. I knew that he would know the answer even if I lied. He could read if آپ were doing anything آپ shouldn’t just سے طرف کی looking at your face. And I was up to know well. He closed the door and came over to the bed; he sat beside me and picked up the pillow. He picked up the pendant. “Where did آپ find it?” he asked in a cold tone. “At the park, in a pond” I said. “God of water and Ice, it should be no harm to us” He کہا in a مزید calm voice, putting the pendant down. “Who is it?” I asked and he smiled. “I don’t know. All I know is that they don’t mean us any harm” he کہا still smiling. I noticed he was staring at something I followed it and saw the smashed photo. I raised my hand and the glass floated up in the air, I moved my hand toward the bin and dropped the glass in there. He smiled and sat closer to me. “Do آپ like that guy آپ saw at the park?” he asked. “Why? Are آپ jealous” I asked in a smug tone. “Yes” he said. The words hit and they hurt, “Don’t say that!” I کہا in a harsh tone. “Why?” he asked moving closer. But I pulled away and got up. “You told me it was a mistake” I said. “So did you! In fact this is a direct quote ‘last night was a mistake’” he said. He was right those words did come out of my mouth but the only problem is that I don’t know if I meant them. “Was it a mistake?” he asked standing up and moving closer to me like he did last night. “Well, tell me right here was it a mistake?” I knew the answer but I didn’t want to say it so instead I just walked out. I went outside I needed a break.
That night I had some homework to finish up finally something human to do. After that I lay on my بستر doing nothing. And then eventually my eyes drifted.
I woke up that morning with one thing on my mind, school. I had been going there for hundreds of years and believe me it really can’t get any مزید boring. After I got dressed, I walked down stairs to find the same people I always do. My mother was washing up, my father was sitting on the couch, and Thor and Dawn were talking to each other on the side of the table. “Morning sweetie” my mother کہا as she came over and kissed me on my head. “Morning “I کہا taking a نشست at the table. I turned and looked at Thor he was glaring at me. “What did I do?” I asked raising an eyebrow. “Nice to know I can trust you” he کہا in an angry tone, He was the strongest of us all and not a person آپ wanted to have a beef with. “What’s with you?” I looked at him; his hand was flat on the میز, جدول like he had just silently banged it down. “Ethan told me” he said. I panicked but I wasn’t so sure what he meant, yes Ethan had told him something but what? That we kissed, that I found another pendant یا that I was upset about the man’s pendant. “Why didn’t آپ tell any of us” Dawn کہا under her breath. She was hiding. So it wasn’t about the kiss. “Okay, what are آپ talking about” I asked, I gave up I didn’t want to keep playing the guessing game. “The pendant آپ found” Thor answered. He seemed calmer but I didn’t want o test it. “I didn’t want to worry any of you” I said. I was now looking down at the میز, جدول avoiding an eye contact. “Ethan, کہا it wasn’t a threat but اگلے time say something” Thor said. His voice had had power in it. “Oh please! Like آپ haven’t made a mistake, آپ go out and do drugs!” I yelled I was standing now my fists were clenched. “That’s enough” my father had got up, he was always the one to break up the wars. I looked over to my mother she was staring at us; she looked like she did the other دن when she was reading the newspaper. I picked up my bag from under the میز, جدول and walked away. I looked back at Thor I could tell this was not the end of discussion.
I hated the start of the دن I just wanted lunch to come but then again part of me didn’t. I sat اگلے to Liz like I did every day. She was looking at this boy, he looked so sad. “He’s not happy?” I asked, she turned to look at me and smiled. “Yeah, Thor is totally peachy about it” She کہا in a sarcastic tone. “Oh, so that’s why he was a bowl of sunshine this morning” I کہا looking at the میز, جدول where Thor sat. He was sitting with his jock friends. “Yeah, I don’t know why he hates it so much” She کہا staring at him. He noticed her stare but he shook it off. “I think it’s because آپ pick a random guy and start talking to him and then آپ literally work your magic” I کہا smiling. “I don’t see how that’s a problem” She کہا turning back to the boy.
The last class I had of the دن had both Remi and Adam in it. They were sitting across from each other not even taking notice that the other is there. I was sitting between Liz and some random boy. “He’s not happy” Liz whispered. She was staring at Adam, she looked uneasy. “Adam?” I asked looking back at him. “Yep” she signed. Every time Liz met someone who was unhappy she was the same.
When I got ہوم Thor was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا flipping through a magazine. I walked straight past him not wanting to be noticed. “Come back here” he کہا just as I was reaching the سب, سب سے اوپر of the stairs. “What?” I کہا walking to him. “Who is Liz’s new charity case?” he said. I could tell سے طرف کی his tone that he wanted to apologise for earlier today. “I don’t know she’s your girlfriend” I کہا in an angry tone. He opened his mouth to say something but he stopped. “I know about آپ and Ethan” he sounded disappointed, like I had disobeyed an order. “Well, then آپ would know that it was a mistake” I کہا walking to the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ میز, جدول and sitting down. “Was it?” he asked, now he was smug. “Yep” I said. I wasn’t as convincing as I thought I was he came over and put his hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off and walked over to the سوفی, لٹانا and flicked the TV on. There had been a murder I sat up when is aw the identified victim. It was he. I jumped up to my feet, she was dead? Did he kill her? I couldn’t breathe I was just gasping at the picture. “What wrong?” Thor کہا there was nothing but concern in his voice. I fell to my knees, she was dead, I couldn’t help him, and she was dead.
The morning was horrible I had hardly got any sleep and I could hear his voice coming from down stairs. His laughter made me cringe “It was just a kiss!” I yelled to myself hiding under my blanket. That’s all it was a kiss nothing more, we both agreed that it was a mistake nothing else! But I didn’t fool myself I still wanted him hear, whispering in my ear like he did the other day. Ugh if this is what love feels like then I don’t want it.
I walked down stairs like every other دن and say my family and him. “Morning darling” My mother کہا putting a plate in front of me. I pushed it away the last thing on my mind was food. “Not hungry?” My father asked. “No, thank you” I کہا and got up from the میز, جدول and walked over to get my bag. “Where are آپ going?” Ethan asked grabbing my bag. I snatched it back. “Why do آپ care?” I کہا and walked out the door.
I went to the park. It was so beautiful there, the گھاس was green, and the flowers were yellow and pink. I walked down the path when I saw Adam. He saw me and waved I waved back and then he started to walk closer to me. “Hey, small world huh?” he کہا coming closer to me. He stopped about 2 feet away. “Yeah” I said. “So, what brings آپ here?” he کہا putting his hand in his pockets. “Taking a break” I signed. “And you?” I asked. “Same, my family can be a bit to deal with, آپ know?” he کہا shrugging. “Yeah” I کہا looking around the park. “Anyway I have to get going but I’ll see you” he کہا turning. “Yeah” is aid and then he went behind a درخت and I couldn’t see him and more. I wondered مزید around the park and then I stopped at a pond. I was sitting on the edge of it dragging my fingers through the cold icy water, when I noticed a Blue stone. No not a stone a pendant I put my arm in and pulled it out. It was a navy blue colour. I couldn’t believe it there were مزید gods here.
I ran through my front door running up stairs to my room I heard someone get up from the سوفی, لٹانا I didn’t know یا care who, I just ran until I was on my bed. I got the pendant out from my pocket and laid it on the بستر اگلے to mine. They looked the same besides the colours; I took a deep breath when I heard a knock on the door. I quickly put my تکیا over the pendants and saw Ethan come in. “Everything okay?” he said. I knew that he would know the answer even if I lied. He could read if آپ were doing anything آپ shouldn’t just سے طرف کی looking at your face. And I was up to know well. He closed the door and came over to the bed; he sat beside me and picked up the pillow. He picked up the pendant. “Where did آپ find it?” he asked in a cold tone. “At the park, in a pond” I said. “God of water and Ice, it should be no harm to us” He کہا in a مزید calm voice, putting the pendant down. “Who is it?” I asked and he smiled. “I don’t know. All I know is that they don’t mean us any harm” he کہا still smiling. I noticed he was staring at something I followed it and saw the smashed photo. I raised my hand and the glass floated up in the air, I moved my hand toward the bin and dropped the glass in there. He smiled and sat closer to me. “Do آپ like that guy آپ saw at the park?” he asked. “Why? Are آپ jealous” I asked in a smug tone. “Yes” he said. The words hit and they hurt, “Don’t say that!” I کہا in a harsh tone. “Why?” he asked moving closer. But I pulled away and got up. “You told me it was a mistake” I said. “So did you! In fact this is a direct quote ‘last night was a mistake’” he said. He was right those words did come out of my mouth but the only problem is that I don’t know if I meant them. “Was it a mistake?” he asked standing up and moving closer to me like he did last night. “Well, tell me right here was it a mistake?” I knew the answer but I didn’t want to say it so instead I just walked out. I went outside I needed a break.
That night I had some homework to finish up finally something human to do. After that I lay on my بستر doing nothing. And then eventually my eyes drifted.
I woke up that morning with one thing on my mind, school. I had been going there for hundreds of years and believe me it really can’t get any مزید boring. After I got dressed, I walked down stairs to find the same people I always do. My mother was washing up, my father was sitting on the couch, and Thor and Dawn were talking to each other on the side of the table. “Morning sweetie” my mother کہا as she came over and kissed me on my head. “Morning “I کہا taking a نشست at the table. I turned and looked at Thor he was glaring at me. “What did I do?” I asked raising an eyebrow. “Nice to know I can trust you” he کہا in an angry tone, He was the strongest of us all and not a person آپ wanted to have a beef with. “What’s with you?” I looked at him; his hand was flat on the میز, جدول like he had just silently banged it down. “Ethan told me” he said. I panicked but I wasn’t so sure what he meant, yes Ethan had told him something but what? That we kissed, that I found another pendant یا that I was upset about the man’s pendant. “Why didn’t آپ tell any of us” Dawn کہا under her breath. She was hiding. So it wasn’t about the kiss. “Okay, what are آپ talking about” I asked, I gave up I didn’t want to keep playing the guessing game. “The pendant آپ found” Thor answered. He seemed calmer but I didn’t want o test it. “I didn’t want to worry any of you” I said. I was now looking down at the میز, جدول avoiding an eye contact. “Ethan, کہا it wasn’t a threat but اگلے time say something” Thor said. His voice had had power in it. “Oh please! Like آپ haven’t made a mistake, آپ go out and do drugs!” I yelled I was standing now my fists were clenched. “That’s enough” my father had got up, he was always the one to break up the wars. I looked over to my mother she was staring at us; she looked like she did the other دن when she was reading the newspaper. I picked up my bag from under the میز, جدول and walked away. I looked back at Thor I could tell this was not the end of discussion.
I hated the start of the دن I just wanted lunch to come but then again part of me didn’t. I sat اگلے to Liz like I did every day. She was looking at this boy, he looked so sad. “He’s not happy?” I asked, she turned to look at me and smiled. “Yeah, Thor is totally peachy about it” She کہا in a sarcastic tone. “Oh, so that’s why he was a bowl of sunshine this morning” I کہا looking at the میز, جدول where Thor sat. He was sitting with his jock friends. “Yeah, I don’t know why he hates it so much” She کہا staring at him. He noticed her stare but he shook it off. “I think it’s because آپ pick a random guy and start talking to him and then آپ literally work your magic” I کہا smiling. “I don’t see how that’s a problem” She کہا turning back to the boy.
The last class I had of the دن had both Remi and Adam in it. They were sitting across from each other not even taking notice that the other is there. I was sitting between Liz and some random boy. “He’s not happy” Liz whispered. She was staring at Adam, she looked uneasy. “Adam?” I asked looking back at him. “Yep” she signed. Every time Liz met someone who was unhappy she was the same.
When I got ہوم Thor was sitting on the سوفی, لٹانا flipping through a magazine. I walked straight past him not wanting to be noticed. “Come back here” he کہا just as I was reaching the سب, سب سے اوپر of the stairs. “What?” I کہا walking to him. “Who is Liz’s new charity case?” he said. I could tell سے طرف کی his tone that he wanted to apologise for earlier today. “I don’t know she’s your girlfriend” I کہا in an angry tone. He opened his mouth to say something but he stopped. “I know about آپ and Ethan” he sounded disappointed, like I had disobeyed an order. “Well, then آپ would know that it was a mistake” I کہا walking to the باورچی خانے, باورچی خانہ میز, جدول and sitting down. “Was it?” he asked, now he was smug. “Yep” I said. I wasn’t as convincing as I thought I was he came over and put his hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off and walked over to the سوفی, لٹانا and flicked the TV on. There had been a murder I sat up when is aw the identified victim. It was he. I jumped up to my feet, she was dead? Did he kill her? I couldn’t breathe I was just gasping at the picture. “What wrong?” Thor کہا there was nothing but concern in his voice. I fell to my knees, she was dead, I couldn’t help him, and she was dead.
I was born, yet I felt as though I lived before.
I breathed, though I struggled for the air that would keep me sane.
I ate food and drink, but I still craved for more.
I slept, but I was still awake and pulsing with energy inside.
I made my first friend, but I knew I would have to say goodbye sometime.
I felt fear, even though my head was streaming with it already beforehand.
I felt joy, yet my body ached of pain and sorrow.
I wept, but my tears tasted of sweet wine instead of seasalt.
I ran through the light of the morning sun, though my spirit raced into the wild night.
I dreamed of heroes and happiness, knowing however that it was an illusion upon waking up.
I looked into eyes of beauty, only to see them wash away the اگلے day.
I fell weak and frail, but my spirit strengthened the loss.
I reached for hands of help, only to have them drag me down.
I closed my eyes, to see the light.
...to thus being born again...
I breathed, though I struggled for the air that would keep me sane.
I ate food and drink, but I still craved for more.
I slept, but I was still awake and pulsing with energy inside.
I made my first friend, but I knew I would have to say goodbye sometime.
I felt fear, even though my head was streaming with it already beforehand.
I felt joy, yet my body ached of pain and sorrow.
I wept, but my tears tasted of sweet wine instead of seasalt.
I ran through the light of the morning sun, though my spirit raced into the wild night.
I dreamed of heroes and happiness, knowing however that it was an illusion upon waking up.
I looked into eyes of beauty, only to see them wash away the اگلے day.
I fell weak and frail, but my spirit strengthened the loss.
I reached for hands of help, only to have them drag me down.
I closed my eyes, to see the light.
...to thus being born again...
umm ارے guys sorry i have not گیا کیا پوسٹ anything in so long I got major writing block and had to wait untill all of my expertise came back to me.
I seek a release
from the pain that I feel
Inside my دل there is only
Anger, betrayal and sadness!
Lonliness is a terrible thing
with no-one to see the state that Im in
my head is spinning think im gonna be sick
oh please god
send me someone I can relate to
I cant trust my mum shes to far gone
cant trust my dad hes just an پچھواڑے, گدا
If i cant trust my family who can i trust?
Inside my chest is a hole
where my دل once was
My mum cruelly tore it out
and then stamped all over it!
I was only a child
burdened with adult responsibilities!
and inside that hole
If آپ can see past all of the scars
آپ will see my suppresed heart!
I seek a release
from the pain that I feel
Inside my دل there is only
Anger, betrayal and sadness!
Lonliness is a terrible thing
with no-one to see the state that Im in
my head is spinning think im gonna be sick
oh please god
send me someone I can relate to
I cant trust my mum shes to far gone
cant trust my dad hes just an پچھواڑے, گدا
If i cant trust my family who can i trust?
Inside my chest is a hole
where my دل once was
My mum cruelly tore it out
and then stamped all over it!
I was only a child
burdened with adult responsibilities!
and inside that hole
If آپ can see past all of the scars
آپ will see my suppresed heart!
We're blind to another one's pain
'Cause we refuse to see
We're deaf to another one's cries
'Cause we refuse to hear
We're dumb to another one's comfort request
'Cause we refuse to speak
But our eyes are wide open
To see another one's mistake
Our ears are open
To hear abouth another one's mistakes
And we can speak
To judge about another one's mistakes
We think we know everything
But we don't know anything
We're ready to judge
But we'd better look in the mirror
Making mistakes is proof your human
Turning your back on those who make them, not so much
He who's without sin,cast the first stone
'Cause we refuse to see
We're deaf to another one's cries
'Cause we refuse to hear
We're dumb to another one's comfort request
'Cause we refuse to speak
But our eyes are wide open
To see another one's mistake
Our ears are open
To hear abouth another one's mistakes
And we can speak
To judge about another one's mistakes
We think we know everything
But we don't know anything
We're ready to judge
But we'd better look in the mirror
Making mistakes is proof your human
Turning your back on those who make them, not so much
He who's without sin,cast the first stone