"Overall, I can say that I do love him.."<3
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this یا not.
Granted, I did say that I do love him like love him, love him, but at the same time I love him as my best friend and right now....I think i love him مزید as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off سے طرف کی it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to آپ Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship یا just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure یا anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker آپ will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I love him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do آپ want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I love you. I have always loved you. آپ know that. آپ are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether آپ stay my best friend یا be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken سے طرف کی surprise سے طرف کی the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful angel face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being مزید than your best friend." I topped that off with big کتے eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my دل first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I کہا these words. The سیکنڈ was the amazing kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If آپ are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support آپ in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every منٹ with him. He took me ہوم and gave me a light kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do love him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
such a waste, my life whole life is a fake!...but im sure ive been a thorn inside of you...that's torn at آپ for years. but, sometimes i can taste how کڑوا, تلخ i've become...& its مزید then i can bare. sometimes i pray for someone to blow me away. just make it quick, but let it burn...so i can feel the pain thats torn at me for years. i can't be held responsable, 'cause this is all so new to me. can i...leave my pain behind?
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what آپ DO with the gift of life, that determends who آپ are. the pain آپ feel...its normal. let it go.
آپ think?
yes. آپ need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
آپ can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what آپ DO with the gift of life, that determends who آپ are. the pain آپ feel...its normal. let it go.
آپ think?
yes. آپ need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
آپ can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
I do not own this. I did not write it, and I do not know the author. I just really like this and wanted to share it.
Who will آپ be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will آپ run?
Will آپ hide?
یا will آپ hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and آپ are the apple.
So who will آپ be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will آپ cower,
یا will آپ fight?
Is your دل made of glass?
یا a pure snow white?
Who will آپ be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will آپ run?
Will آپ hide?
یا will آپ hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and آپ are the apple.
So who will آپ be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will آپ cower,
یا will آپ fight?
Is your دل made of glass?
یا a pure snow white?
tell me why i miss you
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these سوالات on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why آپ wont let me دکھائیں آپ that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope آپ read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these سوالات on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why آپ wont let me دکھائیں آپ that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope آپ read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)
I intend to bring up a term that I am sure that آپ have all already herd of. Global warming. It is slowly, but surely killing us all! We need to unite as a team to stop global warming and save the world. Global warming is heating up the earth because of some people's bad choices, should we suffer because of that? NO! Global warming is killing inoccent animals and people, we could save them. Global warming is caused سے طرف کی pollution and over usage of electrisity. Start today. Turn off lights when آپ leave the room, don't leave anything on that doesn't need to be on. Start helping today. Save the world شامل میں me. Be happy. Help me create a better place for everyone.
