Chapter 1.
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to Disney Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster ہوم where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one سال anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from گزشتہ jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got ہوم from her long دن at work she took a شاور and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on سب, سب سے اوپر of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would love a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
آپ Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before آپ Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As آپ Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight آپ Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole کہا the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the شاور and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to بستر and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the اگلے morning to start another دن of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope آپ Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to Disney Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster ہوم where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one سال anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from گزشتہ jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got ہوم from her long دن at work she took a شاور and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on سب, سب سے اوپر of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would love a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
آپ Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before آپ Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As آپ Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight آپ Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole کہا the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the شاور and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to بستر and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the اگلے morning to start another دن of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope آپ Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
She’s from a world
Of پاپ کارن, پوپکارن and candy
ٹٹو rides for a dime
Little children laughing
I’m from a world
Of disappointments and confusions
But I want her to be mine
I started talking
She kept on walking
She disappeared into the crowd, oh, oh
I lost my heart
On the carousel
To a circus girl
Who left my دل in pieces
Lost my heart
On the carousel (Ooo)
To a circus girl
Who ran away
Two different people
In love for an instant
To see that the circus came today
Sometimes I can hear her crying here
And I can hear her calling me
I lost my دل (Lost my heart)
On the carousel (Lost my girl)
To a circus girl
Who ran away, I lost
Lost my دل (I lost my girl)
On the carousel (Ooo)
To a circus girl (Oh lost, oh lost, I lost her, I lost my heart)
Lost my دل (I lost)
On the carousel
Of پاپ کارن, پوپکارن and candy
ٹٹو rides for a dime
Little children laughing
I’m from a world
Of disappointments and confusions
But I want her to be mine
I started talking
She kept on walking
She disappeared into the crowd, oh, oh
I lost my heart
On the carousel
To a circus girl
Who left my دل in pieces
Lost my heart
On the carousel (Ooo)
To a circus girl
Who ran away
Two different people
In love for an instant
To see that the circus came today
Sometimes I can hear her crying here
And I can hear her calling me
I lost my دل (Lost my heart)
On the carousel (Lost my girl)
To a circus girl
Who ran away, I lost
Lost my دل (I lost my girl)
On the carousel (Ooo)
To a circus girl (Oh lost, oh lost, I lost her, I lost my heart)
Lost my دل (I lost)
On the carousel
I miss him so much..
It's been so long...and I still listen to his songs :) I still buy his albums, I still look at pictures with him every دن :)
Did آپ guys see how big Paris is now ? Wow..I'm so happy for her..she's talking to the media, she's strong and ..She's beautiful, she is so nice :) Right?
I sometimes think of him and I picture him in different moods..now if I close my eyes I see him smiling :) his beautiful smile..
How do آپ guys feel? What song are آپ listening a looot lately ? I've been listening a lot to Hollywood tonight and Man in the mirror :)
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