I wrote this when I was still figuring out who I am and when I was clearly lost, about 2 years ago. Here goes:
Fake friends
I'm tired of pretending
That I'm always happy
When I'm some times
NOT!
I've got fake friends
Who call themselves
My friends
When they're NOT!
دوستوں are true,
They don't lie,
They don't pretend
And they're there 4 u.
My دوستوں aren't true,
They do lie,
They pretend every day
And they aren't there 4 me.
How can 1 be happy
When they're pretending
And hiding
From reality.
No 1 is gonna kill u
When u stop pretending
They'll have 2 except u
As u'll have 2 except them.
I know it will be hard
2 turn away
From the fairytale life,
But I don't wanna pretend anymore.
Don't know where I'll go
If I don't have
These fake friends,
That makes me scared.
My world seems so small,
Though I know many people,
Did many things
And enjoyed it without my fake friends.
What I want is real friends,
Not fake ones,
Real دوستوں is what I want,
I hope we'll meet soon.
So goodbye pretending world,
This is real life,
My life
And goodbye fake friends.
Fake friends
I'm tired of pretending
That I'm always happy
When I'm some times
NOT!
I've got fake friends
Who call themselves
My friends
When they're NOT!
دوستوں are true,
They don't lie,
They don't pretend
And they're there 4 u.
My دوستوں aren't true,
They do lie,
They pretend every day
And they aren't there 4 me.
How can 1 be happy
When they're pretending
And hiding
From reality.
No 1 is gonna kill u
When u stop pretending
They'll have 2 except u
As u'll have 2 except them.
I know it will be hard
2 turn away
From the fairytale life,
But I don't wanna pretend anymore.
Don't know where I'll go
If I don't have
These fake friends,
That makes me scared.
My world seems so small,
Though I know many people,
Did many things
And enjoyed it without my fake friends.
What I want is real friends,
Not fake ones,
Real دوستوں is what I want,
I hope we'll meet soon.
So goodbye pretending world,
This is real life,
My life
And goodbye fake friends.
and I see all my memories,
everything I've done,
all the things I tried to forget,
All my world faults,
everything I did wrong,
all those I hurt,
all the dreams I destroyed,
and all the terrible things I said,
My world fades away,
and all that's left,
is my terrible life,
the forest of everything I did wrong,
the dark, dark forest,
Wake up!
The devil shows آپ the bad things,
but the Lord shows آپ all the good things,
He forgives the bad,
forgets it,
and never mentions it,
He shows آپ the good thing,
the beautiful field,
full of flowers,
bright and perfect,
My world fade away,
and all that is left,
is the beauty of the Lord.
The girls screams but all their is is silence.
She sheds tears but her face is not moist.
She speaks but there are no words to be heard.
This girl, only in her mind she ever screamed for this, there was no sound. Only in her mind did she cry for this, tears did not moisten her face. And for this words where never herd. She is scared of exspression. She is scared to stand out and is scared of judgment. Becuase of this her world will be of muteness there will be no sun no moon only a gray, a gray nothingness in a line of other people all have no faces for they to are scared of being diffrent and they all to live in gray nothingness.
The girl who is scared will live in the world of gray until her scream is herd and her face feels tears.
She sheds tears but her face is not moist.
She speaks but there are no words to be heard.
This girl, only in her mind she ever screamed for this, there was no sound. Only in her mind did she cry for this, tears did not moisten her face. And for this words where never herd. She is scared of exspression. She is scared to stand out and is scared of judgment. Becuase of this her world will be of muteness there will be no sun no moon only a gray, a gray nothingness in a line of other people all have no faces for they to are scared of being diffrent and they all to live in gray nothingness.
The girl who is scared will live in the world of gray until her scream is herd and her face feels tears.
Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living سے طرف کی the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my کڑوا, تلخ existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living سے طرف کی the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my کڑوا, تلخ existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I was cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
if the love of your life died,
what would آپ do if they died a terrible death,
would آپ get revenge,
would آپ hate everyone,
would آپ become a murderer in return,
would آپ cry your life away,
یا would آپ take your life away?
What would آپ do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would آپ do if they died terribly,
would آپ laugh because no tears will come,
would آپ cry until it is all over,
would آپ do the same,
would آپ run away,
یا would آپ just throw it all away?
What would آپ do,
if آپ were hit سے طرف کی a car,
what would آپ do if آپ were dying,
would آپ feel sorry for yourself,
would آپ cry until the end,
would آپ remember everything آپ have ever done,
would آپ call your mom,
یا would آپ hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would آپ do,
when everything ends for آپ یا a friend?
What would آپ do?
I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My دل is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen سے طرف کی the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to نگلنا me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My دل is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen سے طرف کی the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to نگلنا me forever
There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if دل is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with love that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if دل is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with love that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
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Only knew آپ for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
آپ always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
آپ always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
آپ just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew آپ would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
آپ and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
آپ ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never کہا goodbye
I wish i could of کہا goodbye
For آپ are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss آپ and آپ will never be forgotten
____________________________________________________
Only knew آپ for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
آپ always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
آپ always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
آپ just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew آپ would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
آپ and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
آپ ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never کہا goodbye
I wish i could of کہا goodbye
For آپ are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss آپ and آپ will never be forgotten
